A/N Okay my first fic. Just a bit scared. Reviews are very welcome, but no fireys please. Thanks for reading. :)
I dedicate this chapter to my beta, best friend and real life Casey-Frizzle (Yes. She does have a full screen name but I've forgotten it all.)
The title came from a stupid tune I wrote while half asleep at 3.00 am. (Oh I feel like I'm falling, Insomnia's calling, I can't go to bed, The thoughts in my head, Please let me go to sleep. There's more but you get the picture.)
Oh and sadly I don't own anyone here. They're all Dick's. (Yes. Very childish.)
Chapter One-Insomnia Calling
Olivia couldn't sleep. She had tried but yet she couldn't. She just had too much on her mind.
She wandered through to the kitchen, grabbed some cereal and turned on the TV. She needed to make a decision. Alex or Casey?
As she munched on her cereal she realised the irony of what she was wearing. Alex's t-shirt and Casey's track pants. She laughed. It was like she couldn't decide. Well actually that was the problem. She couldn't decide.
She sighed and leaned back on the couch. She thought back to the day that she met Casey. She wasn't even over Alex. But yet who would expect her to be? It had only been two weeks since she had lost Alex. She didn't want a new ADA. Didn't want anyone taking Alex's place. And then someone did. Casey Novak. Tall, confident, beautiful, smart. Everything Olivia loved, but yet she despised.
At first she thought she hated the bitch. Thought she was cold hearted, cruel. Thought she was trying to replace Alex. That was until the day when Casey found the kid locked inside the cooler. As Olivia saw the tears streaming down Casey's face as she carried the child to safety, she knew she loved her.
That was why she hated Casey. She made her want to forget Alex.
But yet, she could never forget Alex.
The day she lost Alex was the worst day of Olivia's life. One moment Alex had been alive. Drinking, talking, fooling around. The next she was dead. Her beautiful pale petite frame lying spread eagled on the ground. Olivia above her screaming "Alex! Alex!" But then just when Olivia thought she could take no more moments the next one happened. Alex was alive! Yes, she was still losing Alex to Witness Protection, but at least she was alive.
It took a day for the facts to sink in. She was standing in Alex's old office when she realised Alex wouldn't come back. Not now, maybe not ever. Shocked, she sank into Alex's desk chair and cried until Elliot came and carried her out.
Olivia began to cry again. Sinking into the couch she grabbed the phone from beside her and dialled the first number.
A sleepy voice answered "Yo, Stabler."
"Hey Elliot. You got a minute?"
"Yeah. Hey Liv. What's up?"
"Can't sleep."
Elliot laughed, "Know the feeling. So what else is up? You heard Alex is back in town?"
"Yeah. That's why I can't sleep. This whole new Alex-Casey thing."
"I wouldn't exactly call it new."
Olivia laughed, "Yeah. Well, what do you think I should do."
"Well go back to sleep for a start. It's 3.46 and we start work at 8."
"I knew you'd say that, but I can't."
"Trust me Liv. I know you can. I'll tell you what. Coffee, 7.30, my shout."
Olivia sighed in resignation, "Fine. It's on."
