Hello people, this is my first fan fic so please be nice and please review. Its all aout Lost because that is one of the best shows ever. I'm not to good at writing but I really wanted to post this on here. I can continue if you want because i have a few ideas. Tell me if you do. I don't mind if you don't though. Please be nice when you review.
I dont own lost or any thing related to it.
Summary- A story about Charlie's best friend turned lover turned betayed. What three life was like together and want they will do now. Please R&R.
Left Behind
Thinking back on it, I blame myself a little too. We could have worked through it. I could have worked through it. It's to late now though. If only I took the chance to say the things I wanted to say. If only I had heard him out. If I had just heard an explanation. If I had only been there the way I promised I always would be. We all break promises I guess. If only I had stayed. It's to late now though. It's all too late.
Emily POV
"You two are perfect for each other" his mum would say.
"Lunch on Friday as usual, Mrs Pace" I replied, ignoring her comment.
She laughed as we said our goodbyes. I hung up my mobile phone and slipped it into my handbag once again. Alone again, walking down a corridor full of paintings and plastic shrubs. Charlie was probably off sleeping with random girls again or sniffing the white stuff. I didn't really blame him. Things weren't the same since we moved. Since he became famous nothing was the same. In love forever, we would always swear to each other. I held up my end of the deal, I never really knew if he did. That was what hurt me so much when I had enough of it all. It was so great when we starting out. The first kiss, our first night together and the first time we said that we loved each other. We were to young I guess. That's what everyone else said. I just never listened.
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"Charlie come here" Mrs Pace said, dragging here ten year old son by his hand.
"I don't want to" he moaned.
He was dressed in his Sunday best as he was invited to a neighbour's party. His parents wanted to make the best impression, so they were all dressed to the highest standard possible.
"Don't be naughty" his mother said, faking a smile as they walked up to the house.
Mr Pace rang the door bell, waiting for a reply. He made the same joke as always, which Charlie always mimicked.
"Let's see who can find out there biggest secret" he laughed.
Mrs Pace laughed along, clearly annoyed at the joke as much as Charlie was. A small girl answered the door, barely reaching the door knob. She was wearing a pink dress with white frilled lace, white shoes and tights completed the ensemble. A beaming smile crept across her face as she spotted Charlie. She was only nine, younger then Charlie but already she was reaching his height.
"Come in" she said, in a small voice.
She moved out of the way, allowing her guests to pass.
"They are all in the back garden" she told Charlie's parents.
Charlie slowly walked behind her as she guided them through the kitchen.
"Out there" she said, pointing through the door.
"You go and play, Charlie" his mum said, leaving him with the girl.
"I'm Charlie" he said, turning to face her.
"Emily" she said, extending her hand to his.
He slowly reached for it and shuck it slowly. They stood there for a while, just smiling at each other. Its true what they say, it was love at first sight. For these two anyway. From that moment on they were friends and soon they would be more.
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It's been almost ten years since I met him. Ten whole years, has it really been that long? Together properly for only one year, not very long considering other relationships I've been in. One year has already been spent apart. Why can't I move on then? True, we were best friends before everything got complicated. I've lost friends before and they never hurt me this much. Maybe it was the fact that we were in love! I don't know. I will always love him, with all of my heart. That's why I fear I can't move on and let someone else in or even trust anyone new.
Charlie POV
I saw an angel that day. An angel that opened my eyes to her world, her house and even her heart. I loved her so much and she left. It wasn't her fault. I was surprised she put up with it for that long. I knew she loved me but I never thought about that. I could tell when she was upset with me with all the shopping bags scattered around our hotel room. Every shoe, every dress, and every pearl earring she deserved. She deserved so much more then what I gave her. Then what I wanted to give her. I apologize for that. I don't apologize for loving her the way I did. I know I could have been around more and could have handled it all better but I loved her and I thought that was all that mattered. It wasn't though, which I had to find out the hard way. I wish I could go back to the first time I realised I was in love with her. The first time we were both innocent.
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A young Emily, no younger then sixteen sat in front of a confused Charlie.
"I'm going to fail" he complained.
"All you have to do is study and you will pass, God! I can't do everything for you" she giggled.
"Please do it for me!" he said, giving her his puppy dog eyes.
"I would if I could but I can't and anyway, you know full well that I have a date with Mark".
Emily gazed into the small fish tank that sat beside them. The library was very quite at that time of the night. They had both been studying all day. Mainly Charlie as he needed the most help with science. Emily laughed when he couldn't figure it out. He knew she was only joking but he still wanted to show her that he could get it. He wanted to show her he was smart enough to get it.
"Ok so, let me give you an easy question" she laughed, "what organ is her" she said, pointing to her lungs.
"Umm, give us a clue" he joked.
A huge smile swept across her face, this made Charlie blush. She grabbed his hand and placed it on the position where she had pointed to. She breathed in and out as heavily as she could.
"Now, what organ is that?"
Her voice echoed through the library. Charlie began to sweat profusely, realising where his hand was.
"The…the lungs" he said, slowly pulling his hand away.
"Well down" Emily beamed; brushing off his hand like it was nothing.
It was something though, Charlie knew it was.
"Hey" Emily said, looking up to a handsome man who had approached the table.
"Ready to go?" he stared at her, ignoring Charlie completely.
"Umm… sure" she said hesitant as she stared at Charlie.
"Go have fun" Charlie said, not really meaning it.
She grabbed her books and walked away hand in hand with Mark. Charlie felt a pang of jealousy running through him. He shook his head, tossing away the crazy idea of this. They were best friends; he had never felt that way towards her. He wondered did she feel the same way. He wanted her too; he would never admit it to that thought. Not until she did first.
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Emily POV
Why did he have to change? He told me everything would always be the same. He would be his kind, sweet humble Charlie whilst I would be my crazy, deluded, fun self. I thought we would always be the same. It took us so long just to get to the stage that we were together and then he had to ruin it. I had always been jealous of those girls. Even at school. They always surrounded him. They didn't make me feel invisible though. That could only be done by Charlie. That never really happened at school. I was so happy. A normal day would be them flocking to his side and him tossing them away. Just so he could look at me. I felt so important. We both never had serious relationships. Everyone either thought that we were going out or we should be. It used to make me laugh but now I can clearly see what they were talking about. Charlie could too…well, before. I wasn't so sure now. I wasn't sure about anything now about Charlie, except that I still loved him and that he could never know. For his sake and mine. Yet, I still wonder if he loves me. I have wondered every single day since we have been apart.
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Thats ma first chapter. Hope you all liked it. I will update soon if you want. I wont if you dont review though so press the button! Be nice :-)
