Tag to A hundred Days
Just a little thing I wrote of Sam's thoughts while Jack was stuck on Edora.
Let me know what you think!
I wonder if you know where my thoughts are today. Do you really know how much I think of you? Need you, wish you were here with me. I live my life in hopeless abandonment since you left. I know where you are and that you are there not due to fault of your own but I still have to question God.
Are you happy in your new life? Sometimes I lay and just think. I feel you beside me with our hands entwined and love beckoning to take us where we could be forever. I feel your breath against my neck and the want in me becomes so strong that I can barely contain it. I can feel my heart beating faster as my body awaits your touch.
And finally I can wait no longer and turn to look into your eyes, but you are not there. You never were really there. Why do you torture me with these games you play with my heart? Why can't you just leave? Why does your spirit hang back to taunt me with desire while your body is somewhere else? But then, I feel you wiping the tears from my face and you pull me close to you. Do you miss me as I miss you? Do you crave for my touch as I crave for yours? Do you miss the giggle of my voice like I miss the throatiness of yours?
And even though my heart breaks and I realize that now I know I can never have you, I still want you here, with me, in my dreams. To hold me even though we know we are doing wrong but it feels so right. So please my darling, never take your spirit from me for it is my only way to survive. My only chance of getting through the next 100 days without you!
I love you
