Confused

My hole life I see the world around me pass people change, learn to hate, and learn to love. But noot me. I was never given a chanse. In my sixth grade year in midle school I was happy then I struck puberty. I couldent tell if it were hormones or true. But I fell in love with the wrong person the week before I moved I sent him a letter. He thought I liked him and broke up with his horid girlfreind the drama queen of the school. He made the right decision to leve her. But by the time he would have found me I was gone. He wrote to me later wishing we could have been to gether. But by that time I had moved on. It was a year later at my new scool I realized what I wanted in a guy. Tall and a good next thing I know Im head over heels for a ginger. He was taller than me. I myself as we speak am 6 foot. But he was popular I was still nieve. So I sent him a leter that he had disregarded compleetly. I sent him another one. Hiding my Identityboth times. I made no progress. Soon I discovered anime and Manga and fell in love with my fantasys. Wich is compleetly normal but I couldent getover him. By the next year he had begun dating a girl I didnt know well but I consitered her a freind. I felt betrayed. It took me a while to get over him and once I did I decided my standards. He has to be respectable an honest man taller cute and scencere. I have freind zoned all of the boys Ive meat and my new guy pals are no diffrent. But honestly, I felt that nobody would accept me. Then when Tenth grade comes allong somebody moves to town from New yourk or one of the major populated citys. I soon fell inlove with him but this term is coming to an end and I may not see him any more at all he is tall not taller than me but it syill works and besided when your as tall as me your pretty limited. If you could I would appreciate some advice. And I have a book Im trying to write Im posting the first chapter soon so follow me please.