The one I can never have
There she is, the most beautiful woman I have ever seen. Right now we are sat in charms; she is on the row in front of me a few seats down. This gives me a perfect view of the perfect woman.
She has wonderful fiery red curls of hair that catch the sunlight in the most breathtaking way. Almost as if its alive with passion and love. Her eyes look like big sparkling emeralds that seem to light up every time she laughs. How I love those eyes, the eyes that you could get lost in forever. The eyes that tell you so much about her feelings and eyes that are the window into her soul. The eyes that I can never lie to, never look away from and never hide my true feelings for her.
Right now she is laughing at something her best friend said. How I love that laugh, that smile, those lips. Those big, full, pink, shiny lips. I wish that I could feel those lips against mine, just once, claim then for my own, just once.
I get up to purposefully walk past her. She sends that dazzling my way and it takes all my self control not to kiss the then and there.
The smell of her perfume lingers in my nose; I love the way she smells. It's like roses with cinnamon, sweet and flowery. I sit back down again but I still can't take my eyes off her. She is wonderful.
Her personality is the best I could have hoped for; cheeky, sly, funny, smart and a genuinely good person to be around. She has grown up a lot this year and knows how to have a good time. She didn't even give me detention when she found me drinking in north tower.
I can't lie to myself and say that I don't love her because I do. However I have to contain my feeling if only for my brother's sake. He has loved her for as long as I can remember. I can't blame him really. However friendship must come first, I cannot allow my self to love her. I would rather loose a girl than the best friend I have ever had, who is as good as a brother to me.
Then again I can't control the beating of my heart as she walks past. I love that walk. Her hips sway lightly while she walks with so much confidence. Her body perfectly curvy, those perfectly toned and tanned legs walking away from me. I count the steps she takes as she walks out the door towards her next lesson.
For once I wish that she could see how much I needed her. How much she does to me. Does she already know and is just teasing me?
Yes I hate to say it but I, Sirius Black am in love with Lily Evans; the one I can never have.
