Demon in Me
I laugh lightly at Dean's joke about having a girl inside me for a week, but inside I'm shaking. We had just left Bobby's after he exorcised a demon from me. I had killed one Hunter, and tried to kill three more, one of whom was my brother. Dad told Dean before he died that Dean might have to kill me, and sometimes I honestly get so scared I wish he would.
The car goes silent, and Dean turns up his rock music, concentrating on driving. I stare out my window and tune out the music. The yellow-eyed demon has plans for me, plans that I can't even begin to guess at. My psychic ability allows me to see people who are in danger of dying, either other psychics like me or people close to them. The other girl who has that gift, Ava, went psycho. I'm afraid that that's going to happen to me, and I know Dean is too.
After about an hour of driving, I look over at Dean. "You ok?"
Dean is silent for a minute before he turns down the music. "I should be asking you that."
"Dean," I begin.
"No, listen," Dean interrupts me. "I know you wanted me to kill you back there, and I know I said I would if it came to it, but I found a way to save you."
"But what if it happens again?"
"I know you're scared," Dean tells me. "Hell, I would be if I was in your shoes, but we'll fix this."
"Dean, I shot you back there!" I say. "I killed Wendell, and I tried to kill Jo and Bobby! I can't do this anymore, Dean. I have to get away from everyone."
"You can't," Dean insists. "You're safer with me around to watch your back."
"Like you did this past week?" I'm angry at him now, angrier at him than I've ever been. "I took off when that demon possessed me. What if I do that again?"
"You won't." Dean appears calm, but inside I know he's worried about me.
We lapse back into silence. Dean doesn't want to kill me. He can't. In his mind, I'm all he has left, and I guess that's true. Mom and Dad are both dead, and Dean and I are expected to finish what Dad started. I'm scared of what will happen to me, what the demon will make me do. I don't want to kill anyone else, I'm scared to.
I still can't bear to think about what the demon wants with me. I've tried to imagine his plan, tried to make myself see it, but everything I've come up with has been too horrible to think about for more than an instant. The future scares me. More and more, I think that Dean will have to kill me for what I'm going to do, no matter how badly he wants to save me.
Hope you guys enjoyed that! And I really hope Sam is in character! I'm still new to the fandom!
~Red~
