Hi guys, so new story! Like I previously mentioned in 'You can run, you can hide' I really miss writing about Damon and yes, i know I have quite a few stories I need to update and I am in the process of trying to get those done, but I really wanted to do another Damon story.
I'm not quite sure how I feel about this chapter as it most definitely isn't my best writing (I think) and I'm not sure which direction I'm going in but I do hope you'll stick with it for all the drama and heartbreak that is sure to come haha.
I have a feeling that this may end up following a similar format as 'YCRYCH' in terms of how its set out but we'll see.
As always, I do not own the Vampire Diaries or its characters, only my OC and story line.
"Was I so easy to forget?" she asked; for once wanting the man in front of her to tell the truth. There had been too many lies already.
Keeping his distance, Damon sighed heavily and pursed his lips together into a tight line. She stood before him like a celestial being – hair the colour of honey and eyes so green they almost convinced him she was the goddess Gaia herself – and it took every ounce of his self-control not to take her in his arms and whisper away her fears with sweet nothings. She deserved more though. She was not one to be so easily placated and any words that he might think up did not belong to her; all his terms of endearment and loving touches were the property of another.
"God dammit, Damon. Answer me!" she yelled, raising her hand and striking Damon straight across his chiselled jaw line.
"I'm sorry." He finally spoke; refusing to lift his eyes and meet the gaze of the woman whose life he had so unceremoniously destroyed.
"That's it? After everything you put me through that's all you've got to say to me? Pathetic."
She spat the words with every fibre of venom she could muster but it wasn't enough. Even as they left her mouth, she knew that within the depths of her soul she would forgive him. It took only one look at his hunched shoulders and white knuckles for her to instantly know that no matter how much she may hate him in that moment, he hated himself so much more. Still, the rage was hard to extinguish and she slapped Damon twice more before resting her stinging palm and letting out a half-hearted shriek.
Watching her, Damon bit back the three syllables he yearned to speak – the very expressions that had held more meaning with her than they had with any other woman – and silently reminded himself that he had no right to say such things to her. Not anymore. Their love had been tainted from its conception and was contaminated still even years after its supposed demise; its only purity had been in the truths they let free the day she had died. Against his better judgement, Damon took a step forward and closed what little distance remained between himself and the forbidden fruit standing before him. In the morning, the whole world would be different – all they had worked hard to build and hold close would be gone forever; all, not within the blink of eye, but with the reveal of four little words.
"I am sorry..." He repeated, grasping the furious woman y the arm and giving her no option but to face him. "… that I never said it out loud."
She knew. Of course, she did. Of all the snipes and lies and even the stilted declarations of adoration they had screamed and whispered in the dead of night and cold hard light of day, there had always been one thing left unspoken.
"But what would be the point? It's not going to fix anything."
With a scoff, she turned her back on the dark-haired vampire and stomped her foot in defiance when he refused to loosen his hold on her. Despite this, he persisted and let all that he had been holding back come crashing out.
"If I could turn back time I would do a lot of things differently but I can't."
"You never would have chosen me over her." She replied with subdued note to her voice.
"I am bad for you, Anna!"
It was an impossible situation with no chance of a happy ending. As the fire crackled and gave grateful noise to void of silence that now surrounded them, Damon removed his hand from Anna's arm and placed his head into his open palms before rubbing his face vigorously in the hope it would provide him with clarity.
"I never stood a chance, did I?"
Her voice – rough with the effort of maintaining her unshed tears as such – reached his ears and without allowing himself to think he surged forward and taking her into his arms, he stole from her a kiss. Like all that had gone before, it was a kiss of undeniable affection and one they were never supposed to have shared. It was not filled with passion and as Damon withdrew his lips from hers, he watched as Anna covered her mouth with the back of her hand and with the other, wiped away a stray tear that had fallen and wet the milky white skin of her cheek. Rejecting any acknowledgement of her question, Damon stood to his full height, pushed his shoulders back, and forced his words out with unwavering conviction.
"I ruined your life. You died because of me. You're going to lose Elena… because of me." He further emphasised. "Again and again, you have had to lie to those you love for me. I have systematically taken everything you worked for and destroyed it piece by piece. I ruined you! I have to make a choice and I'm choosing to let you go."
Dampening down the urge to rip out his aching heart, Damon slowly turned away from Anna and began to walk out of the room. Having gone no further than three steps, he stopped in his tracks for the last time when he heard his former lover speak with such eloquent belief that he found himself doubting his own honourable actions.
"If you walk away out of that door we are done. No more apologies or second chances. You make this choice and you will lose me forever."
Closing his eyes, Damon took a deep breath and held steadfast in his resolution. Surging onward he left Anna behind and desperately tried to believe that his actions – both past, present, and future – were all completely justified and the best way to give the woman he loved the life she deserved.
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