How is this happening? It can´t be not to me I want to cry I want to run away but I can´t I don't have the tears or strength. So I just stood there numb. Not saying anything or doing nothing.
No one notice it, nobody never notices.
I keep asking why try ? I don´t have the answer to that so I just turn my ipod on and listen to music that makes the pain go away not all but some of it.
Heavy metal ,rock whatever talks about pain that shows that someone out there is sharing my the end is near im gonna miss them but they sure won't. I don´t get it he left me for her. Tori is her name after that everything happen so fast cat toke tori side in everything and I moved away. André toke beck side of course he only used to get along with me because of him and Robbie even that dork weirdo of Robbie and his puppet stop talking with me. In the beginning I want revenge but now I know that that will only start a fight and I don´t need that .I'm gonna write a letter for them all . this is the end and the beginning of two different things. I just saw them the old group Robbie and cat looking at each other is so obvious that they like each other that makes me é is writing a song I supposed and tori and beck are kind of staring kind of kissing well she is kissing him but he is looking at me .
-take a picture it will last longer-I shout. He just look at tori and kiss her like there´s no tomorrow
-Trying to make me jealous ?with that(pointing at Tori) you don´t go far. I know it sound like overeating but I don´t care .he turn around to say something to andre and I lead my way to out of school to face my .whats the point of living now?my grades are bad really bad im almost out of school,my parents hate me,I don´t have friends or anyone who cares so im just a dead weight in the world.i get in the car an start crying as I drive to an old bridge.i´m gonna send me down there .i hear footsteps closer and closer im driving fast to the bridge but I still hear them when im almost falling I hear a scream that was not mine it belong to …
-BECK! What the hell are you doing here?
-I can ask you the same thing
-you have nothing to deal with it.
-Neither do you but I tell you I like coming here when I need to think.
-but why did you scream?
-you were just about to fall from the bridge .jj-ade are y-you trying to kill yourself?
He ask so softly that I almost thought I was dreaming I can´t hold on any longer I burst on crying
-I got you everything is gonna be ok he said holdying me carefully
-No it will not stop lying to me I HATE YOU! You don't care about me so go back to your special girlfriend and friends and leave me alone so I can end this torture!
-jade what are you talking about?
-don´t you understand?is because of you that I wanna kill myself ok?the music is not enough.
-the music what are you talking about?are you high?
-YES,beck the music that take away the pain of seeing you every day,seeing my old friends I consider them as friends.
-because of me ?jade I …
-just not because of you because of my vida
-your what?
-my life. I hate my life.
-that doesn´t mean kill yourself.
-doesn´t?try to see your love of your life every god damn day and not be able to kiss him hug him just be with him...
-jade I suffer that every day since I started going out with tori!
-what ?so why are you with her?
-jade is something you need to know
-no kidding?sarcasm is one of my talents
-Ok here it goes,one day….
FLASHBACK
-Beck?
-Hey whats up tori?
-Do you have a moment?
-only If it is quick I have to go get jade at her home.
-ok here is the deal. Or you start dating me and totally despise jade or you and your friends are dead
-I burst on laughing hey what play are you trying to ?you are gonna get the character without doubt
-read my lips . .
And out of nowhere she takes a gun.
-wow wow calm down tori are you crazy?
-yeah crazy for you Beck I love but you don´t seem to get it.
-I love jade
-do I look like I care?
-tori you can´t do this
-why?
-you are sick and you are going to jail
-you miss a detail
-WHAT?
-my dad is a cop so do the math pretty boy.
Are you taking the deal or not?
-i-i-I guess so but only can´t hurt jade or anyone else.
-fine but if you broke your promise jade will be the first to suffer
-I swallowed hard o-ok just don´t hurt her
-ok sweetheart now kiss me and go break up with your stupid girlfriend…
END OF FLASHBACK
-So now you get it?
-IM GONNA KILL THAT BITCH IM GONNA RIP OFF HER HAIR ONE BY ONE AND SET HER ON FIRE!
-calm down there´s nothing we can do
-beck did she hurt cat?
-jade i-I ´m not sure
-what did she do?
-By what cat toll me she said that if she wasn´t nice to her she will hurt you and Robbie pretty bad.
-that is it im gonna take her down.
-how?
-with a little thing called gun
-do you have a gun?
-yeah…
-jade how many of them?
-just four. I try to seem innocent but it doesn´t work out
-just four? Just four? Are they legal?
-well kind of
-jade …
-fine they were because they belong to my father but they are mine now and since im under age I can´t have them so they are illegal happy?
-yeah ,just two more things
-WHAT?
-1-get in the car is starting to rain
-fine I said walking to the car and the second one?
-kiss me
-that I like it more
So there we were at my car (wow he walk here god the boy has resistance), kissing forgetting the world like the old days
-so what are we gonna do now?
-I might have an ideia…
