Looking up from the old beater that i had been under for most part of the day, with the sweat dripping from my face down into my hair this was a fucking hot day. "Hey prospect hand me that wrench other there" i yelled, now willing to get up. Hearing footsteps coming my way i saw a hand with the wrench i wanted come my way. looking up for a second i saw that it was in Jax's hands. smiling up at him for a second "thanks" i said taking it from him and returning
the day had been long and i was not really in the mood for the night ahead. i had been around this garage and these guys since i was a little kid and nothing ever changed. after pulling myself up from that piece of shit car i stepped into Gemma's office and sat down for a few minutes. she was sat at her desk with my daughter in her arms asleep. "shes been asleep for a few hours" she said in a hushed voice. I smiled at Gemma, she always had my back, she was like a second mom, well a mom really, and the first one didnt really works out. I walked over to Gemma and brushed a few strands of the little girls hair out of her face "thanks for watching her today" i said in a hushed tone. Gemma didn't look back at her just at the little girl in her arms. "You know id do anything for my grandbaby"
Those words echoed in my hair for a couple of minuets. That was one of the biggest reasons why i never could leave Charming, Jax, the club and Gemma would never let me be free.
"I'm going to go shower real quick, my babysitter is going to be at my house in a few hours" that night was one of the first fights that she was attending in a long time. Mainly because Jax had asked her to come.
While in the shower my mind drifted back to the easy days where anything and everything was possible, having a good time didn't mean anything, don't get me wrong the party isn't out of this old girl yet. Getting pregnant at 18 wasn't really the plan, well neither was getting pregnant by Jackson Teller either. He never let it go that i didn't want to be with him like that anymore and that he wouldn't let me go. Yeah we still slept together after a drunken night but i tried to avoid awkwardness at much as possible.
The shower felt so good to get all that sweat and grease of from the day. I didn't even hear the knock on the door at first. After a couple of time and me saying ' I'm in here' I heard a voice come from the outside "Jordan you in there? You really should keep this door locked" Jax walked into the bathroom hearing the sound of the water running he paused just by the shower door. Popping my head of the shower door and giving him an annoyed look "can I help you, I'm a little busy". He gave me a smirk and stepped a little more forward. "I can wait, the view aint bad from here darln," remembering that the shower door wasn't really all that concealing I looked down. "What is it, I gotta get home soon" his smile was gone. "So you not coming tonight?" the fight, I know he wanted me to be there, I always used to be there for him, in the last months it had become harder to be around the guys and to be around Jax. "Yeah I'm coming, dropping Sophie off at home with the babysitter and changing." That smile was back; he took a step even closer so his face was close enough to mine that I could finally see him clearly through the steam. "You know I gotta have my lucky charm there, we missed you" I knew what he was getting at, my absence had been noticed and I was already getting the talk from Gemma about it. I was SAMCROW family and I was supposed to show my face. "I know, but it seems you've done just fine before I'm sure you can find another lucky charm in the image of a dirty croweater" I smiled a little watching his face turn sour. "Jealous?" I couldn't stop myself from laughing this time "I would never be jealous of skanks" he laughed too. Pushing him away from me a little "I gotta finish up here, ill be back later. Why don't you go see soph before we leave". I knew Jax had a hard time lately spending time with his daughter since he had his dealings with Wendy and dealing with her almost killing his son. I was a little jealous of his new son. Taking away from my daughter's attention she craved from her father. Bringing me back from my thoughts I felt Jax take my hand in his "why don't you let me finish you off?" he said with a smirk. I just didn't get him sometimes, he knew this wasn't going to work and seeing him every other night with some whore was not going to win my feelings for him, it only pushed me away. "Jax, you know that's not a good idea," I said removing my hand from his shutting the door.
After he left reluctantly, I finished up and got dressed in some cleaner clothes. Walking back out into the bar of the clubhouse I was bobby behind the bar stocking up with half sack. Giving them both a smile and waving "hey guys" bobby smiled back looking over his glasses at me. "Clean up good girl, you coming back for tonight?" "Yeah I'm coming" from the look he gave me I knew he was surprised, he asked me the same question every time there was a party or a fight and I always came up with a reason i couldn't come.
"Well ill see you later" bobby said, I nodded to him and left through the front door.
Heading over back to the office I was Jax was talking to chibs and Opie sitting on the bench. Why could he not be inside with his daughter right now? It frustrated me of his actions. They saw me walking across the lot and smiled, I smiled back and entered the office. Sophie was sitting at the desk almost tall enough to see over it with a coloring book in her hands and some crayons. She was barely two and a half and I felt it was yesterday that I was still pregnant. Gemma was behind her filing some papers. Sophie looked up and saw me enter through the door, she threw down her book and wriggled out of her chair moving towards me with her hands up in the air. Gemma turned around and smiled. "Come give grandma a hug before you leave missy" Sophie turned around and ran back to Gemma grabbing her legs for a second and ran back to me with her arms up again. "Go bye momma" she said with her broken speech she was developing over the last few months. I nodded at her and grabbed her into my arms. Gemma grabbed her things off the floor and putting them in her bag. She walked towards me handing me the bag and got closer, "see you tonight, I'm sick of those sweetbutts all over my boy" Gemma had tried to get us back together since I ended it a year ago. I knew that she would never give up her dream of happy families but I wasn't ready to give up yet. "Ill see you tonight, keep a cold one, or three for me ready" I said with a grin. Gemma knew I liked to party and drink and she knew that I was finally getting back to my old self. "Sure baby"
Walking back through the lot Sophie was walking beside me while I held her bag and grabbed my car keys. Sophie saw Jax across the lot and started to move faster towards him before I could grab her. "Dada, dada" she said as she moved towards him, I tried to grab her hand but she was too fast now running towards him. Jax saw her coming his way; it had been a while since he had seen her. He felt bad about it and knew how Jordan felt about that. He moved off the bench and walked towards the running child, scooping her up in his hands. "Hey baby" he said looking over towards me as the little girl gripped tighter onto his cut hugging him. I couldn't stop myself from smiling at the sight. He smiled back at me; seeing the look in his eyes I knew that he did love her. "You look good all clean" "thanks" was all I said. "Come on baby we got to go home, daddy is busy" I held out my hands to her, I could see her lower lip start to tremble. "No!" she said, I grabbed her out of his hands, she was now crying wanting her father back. Jax felt bad, he knew this was his fault. "Let me put her in the car, I'm not busy right now darling" I gave her back to him and her sobs subsided.
He acted like an expert, strapping her into the car seat and giving her a kiss handing her a doll that was beside her seat. Straightening up and looking back at me I wasn't looking at him. He made a step towards me lifting up my chin to force me to look at him. He was close now; the space between us was gone. He leaned down to me brushing my lips softy and moving towards my ear. "I'm never busy, remember that baby" I didn't stop his actions, something I knew wasn't right but I couldn't stop it anymore. "Ill see you tonight" I said as he backed away from me opening the front door. He nodded to me and I got into the car.
As the car pulled away I could see Gemma watching what had just took place. She was smiling and I knew this was bad. But it felt so good. This was not going to end well.
