Here we are again and yes, I wrote another story. This will be a chapter story so this isn't it if you like it.
Summary: At age 13, Riku Hykura went through hell at the hands of two strangers. Now at age 16, he stays away from all physical and emotional contact with other human beings, distancing himself from the people he used to care about the most. When a new boy named Sora and his family moves to town, can he help Riku see the world does have some good in it or is it too late for that, is Riku too far gone in his gothic depressing way of living away from the world? What happens when Sora finds out the dark tainted secrets from Riku's past? (Told from Riku's POV, thoughts are in italics)
Disclaimer: I don't own Kingdom Hearts, it's as simple as that.
Warning! This story contains descriptive material – rape, cussing, ect. If you don't read those things I suggest you leave now before it's too late. You have been warned.
A Life That Never Knew Love
By: princessOFdarkness
"Come back here right now!" Zexion shouted after me as I stormed up the staircase to where my black bedroom door stood open inviting me inside even as he follow me towards it. "Can't we talk about this Riku?"
"Maybe I don't want to talk about this with you, did you ever stop to think about that? Did you ever stop to consider my feelings and to wonder if I actually wanted you poking into my life Zexion?" I yelled as I slammed the door in his face. I heard him collide with the door with a dull 'thud' and I smirked to myself, pleased that I had caused him pain. Maybe now he'll have an idea of how I feel. Yeah right, like anyone could understand how I feel…
"This isn't over yet, open this door right now, damn it Riku quit pushing me away! I'm here to help you!" He shouted through the wood, pounding and hammering hard on the surface of the door as I locked it and walked over to the open window to stare out at the dark night sky. "We used to get along great Riku, what happened? You never used to be like this."
"God damn it Zexion, GO AWAY!" I shouted back at him, breathing hard from all the screaming I had done recently. As I heard him marching away, finally defeated, I threw myself face first into the warm comforting mass that was my bed.
'You never used to be this way…'
With my brother's words still ringing in my ears, I stripped out of my faded blue jeans and my tight black tee shirt before flopping back down onto my back in just my black silk boxers as I stared up at the ceiling without really seeing it somehow. No matter how much I hated to admit it, I knew in my heart that Zexion had been right, I had been different once. But that had been years ago, three years to be exact, back when I was still innocently naïve of the world and it's cruelties. What was Zexion kidding, he knew the exact reason why I acted the way I did, hell, the whole town knew about it.
Without really knowing or comprehending what I was doing I found myself reaching deafly for the rectangular tin box I kept hidden under my bed. I felt my black nailed fingers curling around the metal structure as though it wasn't me doing it at all, as though someone else was experiencing it for me and this wasn't really me at all. I suddenly felt as though my body had been taken over, and maybe it had been. Maybe these last three years I had just been watching through my own eyes as someone else controlled my body and my actions for me. This isn't the first time I've felt this way, I felt this way three years ago as well, on that night…
I pulled the lid off the tine easily, tossing it lazily across the room and into my dirty clothes basket as I spilled the contents of the tin onto my coverlet. Old magazine clippings and newspaper articles littered it's surface, scattered over the sheets looking worn out and abused. Just how I feel, they look like I feel…
Rifling through the papers I find what I'm looking for and shove all the others unceremoniously back into their metal home. The rest are unimportant to me compared to the one held so carefully between my fingers, the one thing that kept the memory of that night intact above all other things. The only thing that could truly explain beyond a shadow of a doubt why I had turned out to be what I am today instead of how I was three years ago when I was still considered a child in the eyes of many. They didn't care if I was a child that just made them even more ruthless…
"Zexion, if you'd been through what I have then maybe you'd understand." I sigh to myself and the blank white walls of my prison-like room, letting my arm dangle over the edge of the bed so that the newspaper clipping from three year previous slips from my hand to lay face up looking expertly up at me. I stared down at the bold black headline that had ruined my life until I felt sleep overtake me at last and end my pain:
LOCAL TEEN RAPED IN CITY PARK ON HALLOWEEN
Three years previous on the night of Halloween:
"Damn it, I can't believe I lost track of time like that! I was supposed to be home half an hour ago!" I shouted at myself as I ran at breakneck speed towards home. Trick-or-Treat had just ended and I was already supposed to be home. "And after all the trouble I went through telling Mom and Dad that I was responsible enough to go on my own without Zexy." I sighed as I ran, my backpack full of treats clinging to my back. My parents had insisted I take my 16 year old brother with me just to be on the safe side, but I had complained loudly that I was 13 years old and able to do things on my own without my brother babysitting me 'thank you very much.'
"Mom is gonna kill me!" I panted, skidding to a halt in front of the locked park gates. "If I went through the park I'd get there faster than if I had to walk the whole way around it."
And with that I tossed my bag over the top of the fence and began scaling the wall, jumping down on the other side and collecting my things from where I'd thrown them moments before.
"Let's see, I'm at the south entrance now, so I'll just go straight through to get to the north entrance and home." I planned it out to myself, speaking aloud to make sure I had gotten it right as I started up the darkening path.
I heard a twig snap loudly behind me and swirled around, looking wildly for the culprit. Seeing no one I continued on my way whistling to myself to stay calm.
"Maybe I should have brought Zexy with me after all, it would have been nice to have him around now seeing as he's three years old and could protect me. Not that I need protecting, I am 13 after all." I mumbled to myself, my voice cracking slightly in my paranoid panic. Somehow, I felt as though someone was following me…
"Well well well, what do we have here?" A strange voice sniggered sinisterly. I gulped, backing away from the voice as it stepped out of the shadows of the tree and into view. Long silver hair, blue eyes that seemed to seemed to bore into my own as he stepped forward towards me where I stood terrified. I backed away dropping my bag beside the base of a stout tree in my panic as I went, sadly right into the strong waiting arms of the person standing just behind me, two strong hands holding onto my upper arms so that no matter how hard I struggled I just wasn't strong enough to get away.
"Not so tightly Xemnas, you wouldn't want to bruise my prize now would you? That make me angry, and you know how I am when I get angry." The voice cackled wickedly making me shiver.
"Oh no Sephiroth, I wouldn't want to damage him for you. It's just he's struggling so damn much, he's hard to keep a hold of!" The man named Xemnas cursed as I kicked him hard in the shin. The other male, Sephiroth I think, grabbed me by the neck and pulled me up so that I was dangling off the ground as I gasped for air.
"He'll be good now, won't you?" Sephiroth asked me, a slight sneer twitching his lips. I nod, unable to formulate an actual answer from the lack of air in my lungs. He dropped me back into Xemnas' waiting arms. "Cause Xemnas anymore trouble and I swear I'll strangle you with my bare hands and toss your body in the pond on the other side of the park."
I didn't struggle anymore, so terrified that he might carry out his threat so that I'd never return home to my family. The next thing I knew I was being forced onto the ground with Xemnas kneeling beside my head, holding my arms pinned down so that they pressed into the slightly damp ground as Sephiroth pulled a long thin strip of fabric out of his pocket smiling down at me wickedly.
It was then that my brain finally kicked back in and told me what to do – scream as loud as I could in the hopes that someone heard me and came to my rescue me.
"Zexy, Zexion save me! Anyone, help me please! HELP ME!" I cried out as loudly as I could, struggling and thrashing around as I struggled to pull away, to escape. Sephiroth frowned, punching me hard in the stomach before gagging me with the strip so that I couldn't speak.
"Idiot, the less you cooperate the more likely it is that you end up dead in that pond with my knife sticking out of your back if you catch my meaning." Sephiroth hissed at me as he leaned down close to my face. Xemnas laughed under his breathe as Sephiroth kissed the tip of my nose. I shivered, unsure of what they were going to do to me, sure that it wasn't going to be good either way.
"So tell me my sexy little victim, have you every played uke before?" Sephiroth asked in a high simpering voice making Xemnas chuckle even more.
"I bet he doesn't even know what that means boss." Xemnas sniggered.
"Hm, perhaps you're right for once. I bet he's still a virgin too." Sephiroth said in a low voice. He laughed as my eyes widened. "He's scared, now he understands what's going to happen to him. Shake your head kid, are you a virgin?"
When I shook my head 'yes' he laughed openly, rubbing his hands slowly together with a smile.
"Well kid, there's a first time for everything." He smirked. I felt as though my heart had imploded in my chest so numb was the feeling coursing through my veins like icy water.
"We're going to have fun with this one aren't we boss?" Xemnas cackled snidely, Sephiroth frowning as he raised an eyebrow at the man holding me to the ground.
"What makes you think I'm going to share him with you?" He asked coldly. "I intend to keep this one to myself."
"W-What!?!" Xemnas cried out. In his anger at his partner he forgot to hold onto me as hard as he should have giving my just the opportunity I had been hoping for. Flipping over onto my stomach I quickly gained my feet and ran down the path, my bag lying beside the tree where I had abandoned it. "He's getting away, Sephiroth stop him! He's gonna get away!"
"Not for long he isn't!" I heard Sephiroth roar from somewhere behind me. Suddenly I felt something slam into me forcefully in the small of the back sending me sprawling to the ground.
"Try something like that again and you won't make it out of this alive, got it?" Sephiroth breathed in my ear, the warm air sending chills down my spine. He kissed my neck, his weight keeping me pinned to the ground as I wiggled under him. Sephiroth moaned and leaned down farther, crushing me slightly. "I wouldn't keep moved around like that if I were you, you're just making it worse on yourself. I wouldn't wiggle anymore if I were you kid, I'm hard enough as it is."
He ran his hands up my back to my neck, tangling his hands in my hair as he flipped me over to look into his eyes, my body pressed against his chest raised a hand to tilt my chin up slightly, his mouth mere inches from mine as his heavy breathing ruffled my hair slightly. He pushed himself closer to me and I felt something pressing against my inner thigh insistently - something huge.
"Now, we're gonna take this nice and slow kid." Sephiroth smiled wickedly down at me as his hands moved up my arms towards my neck, his hands grabbing the skin there swiftly, twisting my face upwards as his lips slammed down onto mine as he pushed the fabric that kept me from talking down so that my mouth was freed once more, his tongue invading my mouth making me gasp even as I tried to pull away. Nice and slow my ass, he's gonna rape me, that's nothing nice or slow about it! Xemnas made cat calls from over by the tree where he was stationed, almost as though he was waiting for something...
He broke the kiss, replacing the fabric back into my mouth so that I couldn't speak again. One of Sephiroth's hands left my neck and wandered tauntingly down my chest, everywhere his finger's touched laving me with a creeping feeling that my body didn't belong to me anymore.
I belonged to Sephiroth.
Just as that disturbing thought occurred to me, I felt his cold hand work its way under my shirt as he dragged his fingers over my abs and up my chest as he pulled the shirt over my head and tossed it out into the ever deepening darkness. I shivered as he pushed me back down onto the grass rather more gently than I would have thought he was capable of doing after his earlier antics, his eyes gleaming as he moved to straddle my waist, the panic rising in my chest as he leaned down and kissed my stomach. Working his way slowly up my chest, he paused in his exploration of my cold shivering body just long enough to distress one of my nipples before continuing his path up my body until he reached my neck. He kissed the soft skin there before biting down hard, breaking the skin so that blood trickled down my neck onto the grass beneath me. As he continued to his painful attack on my neck I was secretly grateful for the fabric that was keeping me from letting out the shrieks of pain that were being held inside of me. When he was satisfied with what he had done he pulled back slightly, his tongue laving over the spot almost tenderly as he pushed me back against the ground again, pulling another strip of fabric and motioning for Xemnas to join him making me tremble.
"You know what to do Xemnas." Sephiroth smiled as he handed the other the fabric strip. Nodding with a small smile, Xemnas grabbed both my wrists roughly and pulling them together so that they collided together as he twisted the strip around them and tied the ends so that I no longer had control of my arms. I'm losing more and more control to these two, what's going to happen to me? What if they kill me, what about Mom and Dad and Zexy? I don't wanna die like this, not yet!
I was snapped out of my thoughts when Sephiroth yanked on the belt holding my jeans snuggly on my thin hips, my pants slipping down a little lower baring more skin to his gaze much to my discomfort. He licked his thin lips slowly, his eyes trailing once more up my half naked form until he reached my eyes captivating them with his, a strange power flowing through him and into me making it impossible for me to tare my eyes away from his as he reached up a large hand placing it on my waist as he straightened up over me looking up at the moon breaking the bond he had held up between our eyes.
My body stiffened as he looked down on me again and smirked, his hands moving towards the zipper of my jeans as if in slow motion, Xemnas' hands tightening their grip on my arms as he held them to the ground obediently as Sephiroth drew out the torments he was placing upon me one right after the other. The zipper was pushed down at a gruelingly slow pace; the pants were tugged down until they too joined my shirt out in the darkness leaving me only in my thin boxers. Xemnas moaned low in his throat as Sephiroth slid my boxers down inch by inch, caressing the skin with his other hand as he went making my writhe in self-loathing. Even though I couldn't control what was happening to me, I felt terrible anyways that there was nothing I could do to stop what was happening to me and to prevent what was GOING to happen to me if something didn't change - and fast! I hadn't a hope in the world at that point except that Sephiroth would kill me when it was over and done with so that I wouldn't have to live the rest of my life being scared of leaving the house in case there were other freaks outside waiting for me so they could have their way with me as he wanted to do.
"This is it kid; I have to say you look incredibly sexy from this point of view if that makes you feel any better." Xemnas poked me gently in the ribs with a smirk firmly in place as he did so. I looked up into the tree leaves over head, trying to somehow loose myself in the stars so that I didn't have to be conscious to what was going to happen to me. "Seph please, just take them off him already! I can't stand you teasing me anymore!"
"You want him then?" Sephiroth asked with a maniacal laugh that made me shudder in fear. He really was made from the stuff of nightmares in my mind, the devil sent to torment and torture poor innocent souls, if not me then someone else. "Sorry Xemnas but this one's mine. He's got me all worked up, I need to feel myself inside him to be satisfied in my lust. You're welcome to him after I'm done though if you want him. He won't be a virgin anymore but it's not like that matters to you, sex is sex to you. You want him after I'm finished?"
"Yes damn it, I do!" Xemnas snarled with a strangled groan, his hands pressing tighter against my skin making me gasp at the pain that shot up my arms at the pressure he was exerting through the thing gagging me. "Hurry up and get started Sephiroth, what if they sent someone to look for him? I'm not going to jail just because you wanted to screw around and scare the kid half to death before impaling him!"
"Keep your pants on for the time being Xem, really." Sephiroth smiled at Xemnas as he finished pulling down my boxers so that I was completely naked under his clothed body feeling scared and violated. If that's how I feel now, how am I supposed to feel when they're 'finished' with me? Oh God, just kill me! End my suffering, please just take my soul from my body and set me free among the stars!
"Damn, for a kid he's pretty sexy." Xemnas sighed under his breathe to Sephiroth as Sephiroth ran his hands up and down my legs as I trembled in fear. All I could do was tremble in fear of the two males holding me down all the while touching my body in ways I had hoped would one day be done by someone who loved me and whom I loved in return. But no, instead I was unprepared and being forced by two strangers to submit to God knows what by the end of the night. Sephiroth kissed a path down from my neck, my chest, my abs to my head where he stopped to look up into my panic-filled eyes before trailing a long finger up my length. I let my head fall back as tears pricked at the corners of my eyes, unable to watch at he touched me, as his tongue flicked out from between his lips and taunted me, as he took my fully into him mouth, as he bit and nipped harshly at my sensitive skin making me cry out even as I was silenced from still being gagged. "Now Seph, just fuck him already! Do it!"
He nodded.
Suddenly I was being forcefully flipped onto my back so I could no longer see Sephiroth as Xemnas continued to hold my arms to the ground leaving red marks on my pale ivory skin. There was a rustle of movement behind me
"Ngh!" I screamed against the fabric gagging me, tears flowing down my face as Sephiroth thrust into me quickly, his hardened length causing me such terrible pain that it is impossible for me to describe it even in my own thoughts, I felt so violated and in truth I had ever right to feel that way, every right to feel scared and ashamed of my situation. He began to move swiftly atop me making me feel as though I was being torn apart from the inside, as though I was just too small or he was just too big. I heard him moan loudly as he pushed into me again and again. He was holding so tightly, roughly, cruelly onto my hips as he continued to thrust in and out of me faster and harder as he went until I felt something tear and a wetness that could only have been my own blood slipping out making him push in farther somehow and making me scream louder in the intense pain it created. I closed me eyes against the pain I was feeling, my body screaming silently for the pain to stop, for everything to end.
"So damn tight! Shit, so tight! Uh..." Sephiroth moaned sounding more like a wild beast than a human being as he continued to push into me, pulling almost completely out before thrusting in again. Suddenly Sephiroth grunted, and I felt something strange as be pulled out of me panting. I cried harder and didn't stop, realizing I had officially been raped and the fact that I had lost me virginity to a complete stranger. "Damn, let's take this one with us Xemnas; he'd be heaven to have around. Poor kid, he's gonna have to live with the fact that his first time was being roughly fucked in the ass in the middle of the city park at midnight by two rapists. Let's get out of here Xemnas, leave him. You're right; someone's bound to be looking for him by now."
"Not yet, we aren't going anywhere until I have my way with him Sephiroth!" Xemnas shouted back. Once again I felt something being roughly shoved into me, but thankfully Xemnas wasn't as big or hard as Sephiroth had been. But it still felt wrong, I still felt like my life was shattered, like I didn't own myself anymore. I belonged to them now, they had control over me. Sephiroth rolled towards me and yanked the fabric down so that when I scream this time, I shrieked it out for all to hear into the night. Moments later I felt Sephiroth yanking my hair so that my head was thrown back farther than was comfortable as he shoved himself in my face, forcing his way into my mouth as Xemnas continued to go in and out of me gripping tightly onto my now bruised hips. Sephiroth yanked my head this way and that as I gagged, trying to pull my face away from him before I suffocated. I can't breath, oh damn, just kill me already! Please, just end it! Will a loud shout from Xemnas I felt the strange foreign feeling again of something filling my up. Xemnas rolled away from me as Sephiroth continued thrusting into my mouth so that I choked. "Uh... you were right Seph."
"I'm always right." Sephiroth smiled as he pulled away from me breathing hard. I sobbed audibly, pressing my face against the cool ground as my body shook from the cold and the abuse it had been put through. "We better get out of here, I think I hear someone coming, shit!"
They ran of leaving me there with my hands tied together on the ground, my clothes nowhere in sight. The beam of a flashlight fell across my face as I lay there still crying in terror.
"Oh my God, I need back up down here in section 15A. I found the kid, repeat, I have found the missing teenager." It was a policeman, walkie-talkie in hand. I had been found.
Well I hoped you liked it. This was the first time I wrote a lemon-type-thing so tell me how I did. Please review! All reviewers get a cookie and the best review gets a hypothetical picture of Riku in his boxers! Until next chapter then!!!
