Sam,I just can't belive has an affair,turns up at MY work,says shes leaving then deceides she is is hard for me,seeing her at work I still love could she do this to me?It's so unfair,you wouldn't belive how hurt I was when I found out about her affair.I wasn't enough,she needed is the only girl i've ever loved and everything still goes divorce papers came through this morning.I was on my own.I must have cried for at least an hour.I hate crying but thats how much I love her.I've realised I can't hold on forever,refusing to sign the papers didn't her today was bad enough but I was fine because I thought it was her last day...Yeah right!I hate showing my emotions so I try to distract won't anyone let me try to get through this?Everytime I find something that helps me numb the pain,something always make it even worse than today for example,I found a way to help me stop thinking about Sam then Tom deceides to get course he knows nothing,he came to this hospital swanningg around like he owns the he there when Sam told everyone we were married just to spite me?Was he there when I found out about the affair?NO!
Well if I am going to be completely honest with myself then I guess I see him as my brother,my annoying brother all the I found playing chess in my head help distract me,so I was in the middle of a vital move,when Tom turns up and challenges me to a chess first I was annoyed but then I realised it also helped with the whole Sam scenario.
So for the rest of the shift,when I wasn't dealing with patients,I was playing chess with my just as me and Tom was getting ready to leave he confessed he had eaten some of my private,off-limits chocolate flakes.I was irritated there was a sign for crying out loud!But it didn't end there, had found my divorce papers.I was fuming and hurt,not at Tom exactly but it brought back memories.I stormed off but Sam caught hold of was when she told me she was Tom didn't say anything,it was comforting to know he was what a day!Though suprisingly Tom helped me through it,of course I could never tell him that.
Well if I am going to be completely honest with myself then I guess I see him as my brother,my annoying brother all the I found playing chess in my head help distract me,so I was in the middle of a vital move,when Tom turns up and challenges me to a chess first I was annoyed but then I realised it also helped with the whole Sam scenario.
So for the rest of the shift,when I wasn't dealing with patients,I was playing chess with my just as me and Tom was getting ready to leave he confessed he had eaten some of my private,off-limits chocolate flakes.I was irritated there was a sign for crying out loud!But it didn't end there, had found my divorce papers.I was fuming and hurt,not at Tom exactly but it brought back memories.I stormed off but Sam caught hold of was when she told me she was Tom didn't say anything,it was comforting to know he was what a day!Though suprisingly Tom helped me through it,of course I could never tell him that.
