Story: Thoughts

Show: Avatar: The Last Airbender

Pairing: Toph/Sokka

Word Count: 730

Disclaimer: No, I don't own Avatar, or Suki would be dead by now :)

I couldn't tell you why I'm feeling this way. It's a horrible feeling, really. You find yourself unable to be near that person without being nervous. Sometimes I even say stupid things just to get him to notice me. Other times, I punch his guts out, physically or mentally. I couldn't tell you when this feeling started... or when it's going to end. Or even if I want it to end.

It's not my fault though. I blame Aang and Katara. They do everything together, they walk, and shop, and bend, and tons of other crap couples do. Not that they are a couple. But please. Every time I step near Twinkle Toes, and he's near Sugar queen, his heart races like a new-born poodlemonkey. It's sad really. He should just tell her how he feels. Especially since the invasion is only a day away.

But that's the thing. The invasion is only one day...actually, only about 15 hours away. I can't sleep. I know Katara told us that we need to get sleep if we are suppose to function tomorrow, but whatever. How am I suppose to sleep with all of these thoughts jumbling on my mind? One thought is dying. I know, I seem like a girl who isn't afraid of anything, but when it comes to death, my knees quiver. I don't like feeling helpless, and just the thought of death makes me nervous...for me, and for my friends. What if Aang doesn't make it? I mean, sure, Twinkle Toes is almost as good as me at earthbending, and his other elements are like of a master's. It's just, he's only 12. Heck, if I were him, I don't know if I could accomplish such a big task and responsibility.

Another issue, is of course, him. What if he doesn't make it? What if I don't ever get the chance to tell him how I feel? That will haunt me forever...and I think THAT might be a fate worse than death.

I don't know what to do. I mean, if I tell him, then it's out. But if I tell him and he doesn't feel the same back, then what? I'm going to have to fight with that thought in my head? That can't be good for my focus. Neither can keeping this bottled up...UGH!

Well, what if he feels the same back? Not that he does, because I've seen his type of woman. Tall, beautiful, strong. I'm neither of those. Okay, so I'm a little strong, but tall? Ha, no. Beautiful? I don't, and I have never really felt beautiful. There have been times where I just run my fingers over my facial features, just to see if I can get a glimpse of what I look like. It's hard though. My imaginary self isn't that great. He probably doesn't think so either.

Why do I have to be so negative? What if deep inside, there's a spark of feelings towards me. What if after all of this, I could help him turn that into a fire?

I just sighed and threw a rock into the fire.

"Hey, what are you doing up?" I heard a voice say behind me. Ah, it was Snoozles. I 'saw' him walk over to the fire, and he sat down next to me.

"Couldn't sleep. You?"

"Yeah, same."

Silence. I threw another rock into the fire.

"Hey listen, I've been meaning to tell you something..." Oh no, did I really just say that?

"Oh, yeah, me to."

"You first."

"Okay." I could feel him pick up a stick and throw it into the fire. "Listen, I just wanted to wish you luck for tomorrow. It's not going to be an easy fight, that's for sure, and I'm just worried."

I wrinkled my nose, "Why are you worried? I can take care of myself."

His heart skipped a beat, "Oh, I know, I'm just saying. I worried for you, for my sister, and for Aang. Poor kid. At least he's sleeping though." He said, and motioned the bed he was snoring on.

"Oh."

Silence again.

"So, you were saying..."

"Oh, right." I said, drawing shapes in the sand as I tried to organize my thoughts into words, "I just wanted to say, that I hope you...stay safe tomorrow. Because, I don't know what I'd do if you weren't here...because..."

I felt his blue eyes lock onto my pale ones.

"I would miss your stupid jokes."

Sokka cocked an eyebrow, "Okay...thanks, I guess."

"Anytime."

Guess I'll never know.