Jacob's mind was swimming with confusion. He wasn't sure if he should chase after Edward or stay put. Stupid vampire. Stupid Jacob. What was I thinking? He winced as he sat up and felt bruises all along his side. He wasn't used to being in human form. This body was so fragile and these feelings were overwhelming.
Bella was dead. She would never know of this betrayal. Bella's death was what had caused the vampire to seek him out in the first place. The baby had slaughtered her from the inside out just like they both had known it would. Charlie had been lied too. They told him she was killed by a rare disease that was still contagious and that they'd have to do the funeral without a body. The only disease was the fucking vampires.
Jacob had left Forks. His alpha nature had disconnected his mind from his pack. Fuck them. Fuck everyone. Let the disgusting leech live with what he's done, or let the pack rip them all into pieces. I don't care. Fuck it all.
Jacob had disappeared again, but this time he wasn't coming back.
Edward must have tracked him. It had taken a couple months though, time for them both to simmer with the ache of nothingness. Jacob had submerged himself into his wolf side, hunting when he needed too, sleeping when he was exhausted, and running, running, always running.
The sweet sick smell filled his nostrils first. He'd been out hunting, his kill half eaten before him. The growl that naturally erupted from his throat was cut off mid way at the second half of the scent. It was familiar to him. He'd run into a lone vampire with blinding red eyes a month ago and had hunted him for three days before losing the scent. He'd been mad at himself for not being able to track it better.
The scent lingered in the air but didn't seem to be approaching closer. Jacob tossed his head in annoyance. What was the damn leech waiting for? An invitation? He's come this far to find me. May as well show himself. Jacob left his dinner and stalked angrily after the scent until he saw him.
His eyes were hollow black orbs with thin slivers of golden yellow that burned out of his pale face. He looked terrible, like a walking shadow. "Jacob."
It had been a while since Jacob had heard his name said out loud. It felt like a power move, reminding him of his old life. Edward. He thought back deliberately, though his mind kept on with a trail of questions he knew could be heard as well. You're lucky your eyes are yellow. I'd go for your throat first, sink my teeth into…
"That's why I'm here." Edward jumped down from the tree branch he'd been crouching on. "It should be you Jacob. You loved her too and you know how much I deserve it." His eyes were wild with a fevered intensity as he spoke. In a much quieter voice that was almost a breath of air he whispered; "I don't want to be without her."
No. You don't get off that easily. If I have to be without her then so do you. I don't want to be the one to end your suffering for you. Jacob growled again and slowly circled the vampire. He wanted him to suffer all right, for taking her away. Bella. She was so good, so innocent and he ruined everything. He killed her.
Edward's frown hardened and his tone took on an acidic edge as he goaded him; "Come on and fight me Jacob. I know you want too. I can see it in your head. You want to rip my throat out and pull me apart piece by piece. Do you think you can? Are you a coward dog then? You'll turn tail and run just like you abandoned your family?"
He's trying to provoke me into a fight. Fuck if it isn't working. Maybe I won't kill him, just rip him up a little... or not. Jacob couldn't help imagining the feel of his teeth ripping into the bloodsucker's flesh. Anger was an easier emotion to deal with then anything else. He'd been alone for too long. He wasn't ready for the onslaught of emotions that coursed through his mind. This was why he'd left. He didn't want to feel anything. He didn't want to remember anyone. The only way to make the pain go away was to numb himself out and just forget. It was the only way. Seeing the vampire now reminded him too much of himself, of the pain he'd been running from. Fuck this damn leech for reminding me of anything. Fuck him.
He attacked quickly and thoughtlessly, letting his wolf instincts take over.
Edward danced with him. He seemed to want to push himself to the limits. Jacob forgot that Edward had been begging him for death moments before because the vampire was fighting like he wanted to live. It felt good to fight an equal opponent, to be so challenged. The animals that Jacob had been hunting the last couple months were no match for his strength or endurance.
Edward smiled fiercely. "You like a challenge, wolf?" Without warning Edward hurled himself at Jacob. The power from his attack caused them both to tumble backwards and crack against a gigantic tree trunk. The sound was like thunder as the force of their bodies split the tree in half. Chunks of wood rained down on them as they continued to wrestle one another for control.
Jacob's intentions had shifted somewhere along the way without conscious thought. He was having fun. It felt good to loose control, to be so free and reckless. There were no limits with Cullen. It shouldn't have felt so good but Jacob was beyond logical thinking and it really had been too long. The feeling of another's body pressed so tightly and intimately against his own gave him a heat it shouldn't have. He smelled the scent of his own arousal before it even registered in his mind. He knew instantly that the vampire would smell it too. There was no point in hiding it.
Edward's body was cold and heavy as it crushed him against the ground. His eyes were wide and full of shock. Yeah, bet you didn't see this one coming. Jacob thought with an edge of hysteria to his mind. His heart was hammering in his chest and there was no breath in his lungs. It was a power move that caught him off guard but seemed to shock Cullen even more and that made it feel right. The vampire hadn't pulled away from him yet. Jacob took advantage of this by phasing back quickly into human form, the transformation causing Edward to loose his hold on him.
He grabbed Edward by the back of his head and tried to force their lips together. The vampire was stronger then him though and had him by the throat with one hand and his arms pinned over his head with the other. His dark yellow eyes wildly searching Jacob's dirt smeared face, probably scanning his thoughts, trying to make sense of what had changed.
Jacob was yelling at him in his head but it was hard to form coherent sentences when his body wanted to run on heat and thoughtlessness. He kept trying to block out the image of Bella's bloated misshapen body, full with that thing. In his head he saw lips and beautiful soft skin and dark eyes. She was laughing and leaning into him, so sweet.
You owe me this much. It hurts. I'm in pieces, so many pieces. You know how bad it is. It's the same… freaks alone for all eternity.
Edward bowed his head and made a guttural choking noise that sounded almost like a sob but then just as suddenly he was silent again. After a long second he tightened his hold on Jacob's wrists until the bones creaked inside and lowered his head down until their mouths were touching.
I don't want this to be soft. Jacob's mouth latched onto Edward's fiercely the moment his lips were close enough. He strained upwards against the hold Edward still had on him. His teeth worked viciously against the flesh of the vampire's lower lip. He wanted to break the skin, to make the man of marble come apart the way he felt he was going too.
Edward released his wrists and allowed Jacob to crawl up on him and further possess his mouth. There was heat everywhere they touched. Jacob raked his nails down Edward's throat as he pushed his tongue into his mouth. He won't break. I can play as hard as I want too.
Edward bruised his naked hips purple as he held fast to Jacob's thighs humping up against him. Jacob ripped at Edward's shirt, pulling at the buttons to further reveal hard white skin. Jacob sucked dark red welts into his neck, smiling at the irony. You want my blood now? You could drain me and leave me here. No one would know.
Edward shoved him back hard against a tree trunk and tried to move away but Jacob locked his legs around his waist. Just saying.
Edward trembled and his eyes looked wild and afraid as he starred daggers into a spot just beyond Jacob's throat. "You shouldn't try to tempt me." He whispered hoarsely.
"So it's okay for you to ask me to murder you…but not for me to even think about it?" Jacob tightened his thighs around Edward and tried to get him to meet his gaze. You think you're alone in this but you're not.
"It wouldn't be murder." Edward's eyes stayed stubbornly fixed on his chin.
Jacob saw blood and darkness in his head. Edward's body ripped apart by sharp teeth, cracking bone and muscle in his mouth. Lifeless black eyes that warmed with his gaze to a deep brown and as he watched it, like a nightmare, Edward's features melted into hers. Bella. Her bloodied face twisted into a horrified look of agony as she reached for Jacob's cheek.
"STOP!" Edward shook his head fiercely and this time wrenched free from Jacob's hold. He grabbed at one of the dark tree branches and swung his body up gracefully and then was gone.
"Our nightmares are the same vampire. How can you not see that?" Jacob mumbled into the darkness.
