After Bella came to move in with Charlie, she met Paul through school and they finished school together. Paul became a soldier and quickly moved up through the ranks, but something has changed during his last tour that could tear their realationship to pieces. Can they get through it? NO CULLENS OR PACK THIS IS AN AU/AH! Sorry it's crappy, this is my very first Fanfiction so, please be nice-ish.

ALSO THIS IS YOUR TRIGGER WARNING! THIS STORY CONTAINS SELF-MUTILATION AND ATTEMPT SUICIDE. PLEASE DON'T READ IF THIS MAY AFFECT YOU!

~Disclosure: I don't own this, Stephanie Myer does and I'm just playing with the characters,so there ya go! This is the only one ya get for this story~

It's been a year and a half since I saw my boys, Jared my best friend and Paul my boyfriend of almost eight years. They both were deployed to Afghanistan to deal with the terrorist groups and other secret things I have no idea about. Today though was the day they were finally coming home, Kim, Jared's girlfriend and my other best friend, and I haven't been able to speak to them much because of top secret missions, but we finally got word that they were coming home. She and I have been sitting at their terminal for two hours making sure that we wouldn't miss seeing them, since there are many planes filled with soldiers were coming in and out all this week, many from Fort Lewis.

"Flight 158 from Seattle to Forks, Washington now releasing. Thank for flying with International." I stood looking for them, watching every face. I stand higher on my toes, pulling my brown hair into a pony to keep it out of my face.

" I don't see them girl." I say to Kim over the commotion and her face falls.

"They may just be in the back, there are a lot of soldiers coming home today. " She nods and I look again spotting Jared's slightly scruffy face walking over the threshold.

"Jared just passed the threshold, go get him. " I say and she looks at me.

"You sure? I don't mind waiting for him to find us. "

I shake my head.

"Nah, go ahead girl. Get your man!" I say and give her a light push and she takes off running yelling his name. I grin to myself as I watch them hug and look back to see the last person walk out of the terminal and the stewardess close it. I sigh and walk out of the terminal into the cool Forks sun and lean against my orange rusted out truck, eyes closed, shades on, deciding to wait for Kim and Jared.

I bet Paul stayed behind for another mission. I wish he could have told me.

"Damn. That's a hot truck and a even hotter girl. Lemme get some boo." I flip off where I hear the voice, not bothering to open my eyes.

"Hell baby girl we can go right now if you wanna. " I groan opening my eyes ready to cuss the guy out when I see Paul standing a foot from me in green fatigues, dark richly tanned skin, dark chocolate brown eyes sparkling, beautiful white smile.

"Paul. " I choke a gasp and launch myself at him. He grabs me mid air, my legs wrapping around his waist, arms around his shoulders.

"God, I missed you Bella. " He says looking over my face marking the new changes since he's seen me last, as I do the same.

"I missed you too Paul. I..I thought you stayed behind to do another mission." I whisper and his arms tighten a bit around my thighs.

"It was time for my platoon to come home for a while. I needed to see you." His voice breaks and I know something happened to him while overseas. I feel a few hot tear drops hit my skin and I tighten my hold on him.

"I love you. " I whisper and his voice tickles my skin when he mumbles back, "I love you too. "

"Bella, Paul!" I hear Jared's voice across the parking lot and look over Paul's shoulder to see them making their way towards us. Jared is grinning from ear to ear, his green fatigues making his eyes shine. His lightly tanned skin is pulled back over a huge grin. Kim is laughing at something Jared said, her pale skin has a light blush spread across her cheeks. Her dark hair flows behind her flawlessly.

Paul puts me down and I go hug Jared and Kim, grinning like a fool.

"Wanna go change then get some food?" I ask looking to boys who nod. I turn and climb into the driver seat and Paul gets into the passenger while Kim and Jared get into the back, I then pull out and head back to Paul and I's apartment.

We go in and I toss Jared clothes he had left here forever ago before Paul pulls me into our bedroom. He pulls me in for a slow, passionate kiss before pulling back to press his forehead against mine.

"I've missed doing that. " He whispers and I smile. He pulls away and goes to his closet pulling out a black v-neck and shorts then sits on the edge of the bed to take off his boots. I sit at his feet and untie them and help him pull them off.

"You didn't have to help me baby." He says pulling off his pants.

"I wanted to, anything to help. You also have a habit of not being able to untie your own knots. " I grin at him and he sticks his tongue out at me.

He proceeds to change into civilian clothes and stands after pulling on sneakers.

"Damn baby. You look hot. " I grin taking in his clothes. Loving how his dog tags are visible because of the shirt. He winks and we walk back to the living room.

Jared is sitting on the couch wearing shorts and a graphic tee and converse, laughing at a picture of Kim and I, a few months ago at the beach, I was hanging upside down on a life guard tower and Kim was in the sand below me covered in sand.

"Bella was really excited that day, we had just heard from you guys a few hours before. She thought she was a monkey and after burying me in the sand climbed the tower. " Both Jared and Paul chuckled.

"I'm surprised how you didn't fall Bells." Paul joked and I shove his arm playfully.

" I'm thinking about cheeseburgers for lunch, what about y'all?" Jared suggests and we all agree and head out.