Prologue

My mother used to say that she imanged when you died you'd die instantly feeling no pain at all.

Not for me though.

I still felt the pain everywhere in my body and I was still conscious. My legs, my head, arms oh god my arms hurt so bad.

I lifted my hand to my stomach and felt blood leaking from out of the wound there and then moved my hand to the right side of my body because I felt so much intense pain there even if my arm refused to let me move any further becuase of the pain and I felt a shard of glass in my side.

I estimated that the glass shard was at least two inchs deep.

My lungs felt like they were being pushed down by an invisible force making it very hard for me to breath. I had a huge headache that instntly made me want to cry but i didn't trying to be strong for the family I'll leave behind when I would surely die.

I heard people panicking people that I recognized as people I knew in my childhood. My neighbors that I got to know while living in this quite New York, Queens neightborhood.

I heard my sister Pam's screams and then footsteps coming toward my body in the middle of the road. Pam's face was into view looking down at me with a look of panic on her face and was tallking to me but I wasn't paying attention to her words because I was focusing on the pain.

I then heard another set of footsteps, two this time. The two people with those footsteps came into view.

My father Kirk and ex-boyfreind Jubal were staring at me with horror not believing the daughter and ex-girlfreind they cared for was dying in a pool of her own blood in the middle of the road where she got hit by a new neighbors car.

They were talking in panic voices but I couldn't hear what they were saying because I felt my eyes dropping even though I tried to will them to stay awake but I couldn't.

Just let me sleep for a little while.

I felt my eyes closed but I could still feel a slow pulse of my heartbeat beating but then I felt it completely stop and then everything was black.

I wonder if this is what my brother Tyler felt when he died.