Title: what of the wretched hollow
Characters: Blair, Blair/Nate.
Rating/Word Count: G / 480.
Summary: "I want to live happily ever after."
Blair grows up listening to fairytales, daydreaming of princesses and castles and knights-in-shining-armor. She can remember every story, every line, every happily-ever-after.
And she wishes her life could be that magical.
She wishes she was a princess and the knight would save her from any evil that tries to harm her.
She watches Audrey films, and takes in the beauty and the whimsy. Dreams of being like Grace Kelly, regal and pristine and beautiful.
She imagines her life is a movie, tries to make it perfect.
Tries to make everything perfect.
But nothing goes as plan.
On her eighth birthday she makes a wish as she blows out her candles.
It's always the same wish now, never changes.
(She doesn't dare wish for something else anymore because then it won't come true.)
I want to live happily ever after.
She wants all her dreams to come true: go to Yale, marry Nate, be happy and successful and beautiful and live the perfect life she's always wanted.
At this age she still believes in fairy-tales.
At sixteen she still wants – wishes for, hopes for, dreams of – the same things. She still wants to marry Nate and go to Yale and be perfect.
But the boy she loves more than anything in the world cheated on her with her best friend and broke her heart into a million little pieces, so why does she still want him?
She's almost seventeen – just a few minutes until midnight – and he's not here. He hasn't showed up, hasn't called – nothing from the boy who said he wanted to get back together.
The same boy who told her the night before that he didn't love her, and the same boy whose best friend she lost her virginity to after hearing his confession.
(And maybe this means they don't love each other that much after all.)
Then the clock strikes twelve and she's lost a bet with both the devil and her heart.
Her best friend brings out her cake, tells her to make a wish.
She can't wish for the same thing anymore, the thing she's been wishing for since she was just a little girl.
It already didn't come true.
It's not just Nate that she wants anymore; he's not the only thing she's wanted but couldn't have forever.
She wants to see perfection and beauty when she looks in the mirror; wants someone to love her unconditionally, through good and bad; doesn't want to try so hard all the time to get nothing in the end.
(But nothing is ever that easy for Blair.)
She pushes away from her friends and through the crowd of people, desperate to get away.
Because her life will never be perfect and her dreams will never come true and she will never get her happy ending.
So what is the point in trying?
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