Title: Here without you
Pairing: ROOMIES!!
Spoiler: end of 13th season,which sucked by the way.
Disclaimer: they do not belong to me.

Note: This fic is based on a the song "Here without you" by 3 Doors Down.I heard it on my classmates funeral and it got stuck on my head so I thought I could write something with it.God! I miss my Roomies! I miss Ray! (cries) DAMN ER WRITERS!

perdona Panchito que este usando tu cancion,espero no te importe!

btw,the words in italic are part of a falshback,thought I should tell you that!

ENJOY!

Melissa,you rock.as usual!

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Ray Barnett walked inside his apartment, dragging his feet. He dropped his jacket and bag next to the couch, as he sat next to Neela. She smiled at him.

"You look like hell," she said.

"Yeah," he sighed.

She sat up straight, looking directly at him, then she took a large plain present out from under the couch. He smiled, awkwardly.

"Happy birthday, Ray." She handed the present over and hugged him. "I hope you like it."

"You didn't have to do this, Neela," he whispered, sweetly.

"Of course I had to! You´re my best friend."

They stared at each other for a few seconds, neither of them knowing what to say. Ray sighed and turned his face to his gift. Smiling like a five-year-old boy, he ripped the paper off.

"Wow, Neela!" he yelled. She couldn't help but laugh at his reaction. "This is fantastic!"

He kept staring at an old, long play on his hand. She could see he was truly happy, when he hugged her tight.

"I guess you like it," she said. He nodded.

"I love it. Thank you."

"You're most certainly welcome."

He stared once again, blankly at the his new acquisition, this time thinking about something Neela couldn't guess. He turned to his roommate, taking her hand and squeezing it. She felt as if he wanted to tell her something and didn't know how.

"There's something I want to give you," he said. Neela frowned at him. "I know maybe this is kinda late for your birthday. The truth is, I couldn't find the right present. I thought about it a lot and then I gave up so..."

He took a necklace with a silver ring on it from his neck and place it in Neela's hand.

She stared strangely at him. "Ray, what are you doing?"

"I want you to have this," he said.

"Why?" she asked, still confused.

"It will keep us close," he whispered.

Neela stared blankly at Ray's locker. She slowly caressed the silver necklace on her neck, sighing at the memories of her old life. She touched the letters framed on it, as a single tear rolled down her cheek. She wiped it away quickly. She was so absorbed in her thoughts, that didn't notice Abby looking at her from the door.

"Hey," Abby said, calling Neela's attention. "How you feeling?"

She sighed. "I'm getting better." She again turned her attention to the locker. Abby caressed her back, sweetly.

"It's been a month, Neela," she said. "Give it time."

"I know," Neela whispered, unable to stop the tears from coming. "I just miss him so much."

"But he´s fine. I mean, I know what happened to him was awful and I know I sound cold by saying it but, he´s alive Neela," Abby said, causing Neela to look at her.

"I know he´s fine, Abby," Neela said. "I just wish things would be different, you know?" She sighed again. "I can't help but feel guilty about this."

"Hey, no! Don't do this to yourself," Abby protested. "It was an accident and you know it. You can't live your life feeling guilty."

"I feel there's something left to do, you know? Something to help him out."

"Maybe there is. You just have to take some time to figure it out."

Neela smiled kindly at her and gave her a hug. "Thank you, Abby."

"No problem, that what friends are for."

TBC