These are Alice's thoughts as she's packing up her father's stuff. I was listening to Blue Caravan by Vienna Teng one night and it occurred to me that some of the lyrics would probably make Alice think about her adventure and of course Hatter.
SyFy owns Alice (though I wouldn't mind owning Hatter)
Lyrics from Blue Caravan by Vienna Teng
Maybe the doctors were right.
Maybe the whole thing was caused by trauma; physical or otherwise.
Maybe Wonderland was truly all in my head.
Maybe it was my sub-conscious inventing a reason to grieve. To get past my father.
Dad.
It seemed so real.
Watching him die.
Hearing his last words.
"I'm sorry Jellybean you're on your own"
I should be crying now.
No. I've had 18 years to prepare for this.
18 years.
I can't believe I've obsessed over this for 18 years. Definitely time to put this stuff away.
To move on. To live my life.
God I love this song.
(turns radio up)
Blue blue caravan
Winding down to the valley of lights
My true love is a man
Who would hold me for ten thousand nights
True love. I haven't even given myself the chance to be in love. I thought Jack was the one.
Jack.
He was real, right? Yes, of course he's real. Mom met him. He had dinner here.
Where the hell is he? I haven't seen him since that night.
It's been three days now. Three days since I was found in that building.
Maybe that part of the hallucination was true. Maybe there is another woman.
Why am I not heartbroken? Why don't I feel anything?
Hatter.
Hatter.
How can a man who isn't even real make me forget about Jack? How can he not be real?
It certainly felt real in the Kingdom of the Knights when Jack interrupted us.
That look in his eyes. Those beautiful brown eyes.
"I'll make sure you're okay."
That look on his face.
His hands on me.
Leaning in.
His lips so close to mine.
(Shakes head)
That ridiculous hat. Actually, the hat was kinda cute. And his messy hair.
I can still feel how awkward that terrible goodbye felt. How unsatisfying that hug was.
I wanted him to say anything-
I wanted to say anything-
Other than goodbye.
God I miss him. Or at least the dream that was him.
Carol: "What's this about?"
(Alice covers hatbox)
Alice: "I don't need to look for dad anymore…
(puts box under bed)
it's time to move on."
(Doorbell rings)
Carol: "Oh! I almost forgot the construction worker who found you he wanted to stop by and see how you were…very sweet."
(Carol leaves to answer the door)
Oh my blue blue caravan
The highway is my great wall
(Picks up copy of Alice in Wonderland)
Hatter.
For my true love is a man
Who never existed at all
Carol: "Alice! Come meet David!"
(Alice walks to living room)
Oh he was a beautiful fiction...I invented to keep out the cold...And now my blue-...
(Alice looks up)
...
"Hatter!"
Okay...so this was my first attempt at fan fiction...and writing in probably 10 years. So forgive me if the whole inner monologue thing wasn't well written. However, since the thoughts in my own head pretty much run this way...I figured that probably everyone else's does as well. XD
If anyone has any pointers I would appreciate reading them!
Thanks for reading!
PS. I made Alice the actresses age.