It's
kind of, uh, funny, but I've always wondered what I'd look like
without the scars.
Hell.
What would I act like, without the scars?
Would
I still look so damn sexy with my makeup on? No... Would I even wear
the makeup at all?
Let's
be honest, boys and girls. Uh, Doc. If you're willing to look past my
few... Character flaws, you'll see that ol' Mister J isn't all that
bad.
Actually,
I think I'm quite pretty.
Or
at least I would be. I bet, if I didn't have these scars, the chicks
would be all over me. Guys too, maybe. I hear I have quite a charming
smile. But I'm not an idiot, you know, Doc. I'm aware that being a
sociopathic mass-murderer isn't exactly a turn-on - not to most
people, anyway.
What's
that? If... If I wasn't?
Well,
okay. Let's imagine the emotional scars were gone too, shall we? I'm
not entirely delusional - I know I'd see things differently if I'd
been given a bit more of a chance.
Jack
Napier, ordinary citizen of Gotham City. Aint that a kick?
Imagine!
Me, normal. Respectable job, nice house, lots of those, uh, polo
shirts with the nice collars. Maybe I'd even have a family. I'd be...
An accountant, maybe, and we'd have lots of money, and I'd drive a
really cool car - well, a sort of cool car, like a... Well, I don't
know much about cars. A... A blue one? And, uh, maybe I'd live in a
nice neighbourhood. And I'd be friends with my neighbours, I could go
over to their houses and borrow cups of sugar and stuff.
I
might be married, too, you know. And my wife, she'd be... She'd be
really, uh...
Okay,
I'm just kidding. I'm... I'm actually gay.
No,
Doc. Seriously. What, the purple coat didn't even make you think? I
thought you shrinks were supposed to guess stuff like that!
What,
did you think all psychopathic criminals were straight?!
And
did you think it mattered? Fear doesn't discriminate, you know. I
haven't even been kissed for years. Screwed, yes, but kissed, no. And
don't think I don't know why. I understand these scars aren't exactly
at the top of the list of turn-ons either.
How
different life would be if it had never happened. Well, by 'it', I
mean... I don't actually remember what happened. I guess I lied about
it so much that I fooled myself.
Kissing?
Wow, I... I guess I don't remember too much of that either. Suppose
whoever I was with wasn't that memorable.
I
think I'd enjoy a bit of a smooch right now, you know. I think I
really would. I've even left my makeup off, so it wouldn't
smudge...
Oh,
come on, Doc! We can play pretend - I'll be Jack Napier, ordinary
citizen of Gotham, and you can be... Uh, someone I know.
Sorry
Doc, you're right; this wasn't what I was supposed to be talking
about.
Yes,
I understand I made you a little... Uncomfortable, then. I didn't
mean to.
What
do you mean, I just winked?
Ah,
now, don't think I don't know what you're thinking. 'Not
only is he an insane, sociopathic killer clown, he just had to be gay
as well...'
You're
nervous, Doc, I can tell. Maybe even scared. But you're not the
one in the straitjacket, remember. You have no reason to be worried,
but you are anyway. I have that effect on people, you see, Doc. It's
the scars, I think.
So,
what would I be like if I didn't have them?
Well,
I might not be here. I might have a job as a lawyer, or an English
teacher. I might still talk to my family. I might have a lot of
friends.
I
might be kissing you.
You
never know, Doc -
At
that moment, Dr Jonathan Crane leant foward and placed a big,
meaningful kiss on Jack 'The Joker' Napier's scarred mouth. Jack was
suitably shocked, but shock never stopped that warm, fuzzy feeling
from spreading right through every bone in his body.
This, the Joker thought, as he closed his eyes finally and let himself accept the kiss, was something to really smile about.
'I'll see if I can get you out of that
straitjacket next time.' Crane said as he moved away.
The Joker
blinked. '... Next time?' He whispered, then remembered he wasn't
supposed to be shocked by ANYTHING. 'Wow, do I sense an innuendo
there, Doc?'
Jonathan gently put his hands on the Joker's face - one on each scar - and smiled, less creepily than usual. His blue eyes seemed to soften somehow as he stared into the other man's hazel ones. 'You know... I don't think there's anything wrong with you.' He paused, then stroked one of the Joker's scars with his fingers. 'Jack.'
There came a sudden knock on
the door. Startled, Jonathan moved back, just as a hurried-looking
nurse rushed into the room.
Jonathan stood up briskly and
smoothed imaginary wrinkles out of his white coat. 'Hello,
Jean.'
The nurse looked concernedly at the Joker, before turning to Jonathan. 'Have you made any progress, doctor?'
'Oh yes.' Jonathan said, with a quick and knowing glance at the Joker. 'I believe I have.'
