I didn't plan on doing it. It's not something I'd normally do, it really isn't. Something just…came over me. It's hard to explain. I love my boyfriend, I do. But I just wanted some passion in my life; I didn't like doing the same thing every day.

I didn't like just sitting around, watching him read. Just sitting around. That's all we ever did; we never went out, we never saw a show; we didn't go out for a night on the town. We never did anything. I wanted something more, and I knew he couldn't give it to me. What can you expect? I'm a girl. I have wants. I have needs. And what I wanted was something more interesting.

It's not like I'm a robot or something of that sort. I do have feelings. And I do care about him, truly. I know what I do is wrong, and I do regret it. But whenever I'm around him I lose all control of my body, my functions. It just…happens. And I feel terrible about it.

He's exciting and fun to be around. Not to mention, extremely handsome, the way his shaggy black hair falls into his warm, gray eyes. He's just…a nice change. He's the kind of person that I want to be with. Though he does have some bad points, also. He can be an arrogant jerk, he struts around school like he owns it, he goes from girl to girl, not caring about their feelings, to name a few.

And Remus has some good qualities. He's caring, sensitive, the sweetest guy I know. He truly cares about me; it's easy to see that. He is extremely loyal; he would never cheat on me, which is more than I could say for myself…

And not to mention, he's pretty good looking himself. With his shaggy caramel hair and deep hazel eyes that you could just melt in. He was just an overall good person. It's hard to decide between the two; should I stay with the guy who is really sweet and who loves me to death, but is bookworm-ish and slightly dull, or should I go with the guy who is more interesting and outgoing, and cares for me too, but probably not as much?

Oh boy, I do have a predicament on my hands.