She knew her mistress was up to no good and she saw how she suffered.
They died, yet she survived.
It was over and it was done with
The past was the past
A new pain emerging
Guilt was what she felt
It never faded.
She pledged loyalty for that woman
Yet by that woman's daughters, she had forgivness
Revenge was not her path
Yet, something lacked
She envied that woman and that cursed marionette
They had met what one call a befitting end
Good Riddance and such
So why hadn't she?
Bitter memories of her eldest haunted her
Memories of what she's seen and took part in
How she pittied her, yet how she also hated her
She hated her then, at times
Yet, she pitied her, too
More because of her own powerlessness
"Forgive me for what i couldn't do."
her voice cried unheard
She knew she couldn't do a thing
That would forever torment her
"I'm sorry."
She knew she couldn't do a thing
That would forever torment her
One day, it all came crashing down
She couldn't bare it any longer
She was at the point of no return
She had but two choices
Yet, she picked one
A choice that would have its consequence
"I have seen too much and, through no fault of my own, I let it happen!"
She couldn't run from the past
As it always caught up with her in the form
Of bitter memories
Over 20 years worth of bitter memories
"Forgive me."
Snowflakes fell
What once seemed so pure, the epitome of purity
Was now stained
She could feel nothing
No grief, pain, the fading heat
She only felt the cold
And the the relief it brought
She was free
Having felt she finally atoned
Atoning as only she felt she could
She was found
By the sisters, sisters she wished so much
She was able to call her own
The oldest lamented
Wishing so much that she had known
The youngest had but one thought:
"She murdered our father and she had murdered you, too."
Her letter read:
Please forgive me
Satsuki and Imouto-sama
But I am sorry
For all the things I had witnessed and took part in
This ending is just
—–鳳凰丸 礼
Authoress Note: Hiya there, anyway, um, this is actually a songfic, in the terms of using the lyrics (in this case, intermittently) but I didn't want to take chance, after all, once was enough, however, you can view the original version AO3.
How'd this idea came about, well, it came from reading Chapter 5 Strictly for the Birds by Badmitton, the which I cite as inspiration, and listening to Within Temptation's "Frozen", which is basically about feeling powerless in a situation. Of course, one the note of the aforementioned fic's chapter, it made me think, "Hmm, I wonder, was Rei really indifferent about what happened to Satsuki or does she have some semblance of regret?" Frankly, I don't really know, then again, most of Rei's characterization is subject to interpretation.
-Amoridere
PS.: Thanks for the kudos and making me smile, yet again, Badmitton! (✿◠‿◠)