Whoa I just can't believe that everything is heavy right now.
The guys treat me like crap, is it because i'm younger or the new guy in the team.
This and that overshadow my thoughts and I can't surpass them just yet.
Do I give in to temptation or do I just suck it up.
Ice skates glide on my hand and a small river of red gush runs down my hand.
So many expectations yet none of them are being decided by me.
Even though my family is a thousand of miles a way, I just can't forget about them.
Life now is like a thousand pound weights lifting over my head.
And it's ready to drop the second I can't handle all of it.
Hockey and a girlfriend which one is for me, do I play or get serious.
I'm sorry i'm not more direct with my feelings but at least I didn't leave you high and dry.
My feelings for you would show, only if you understood that I can't reveal my self.
I guess I'm a magician and the best trick isn't even prepared yet.
Days went on, I have been falling into depression and I'm sorry that I'm not being me.
But you have to understand I don't care how you look, because looks mean nothing if were not faithful with another.
Now things are beginning to unfold, and I still don't understand it all.
High school is a trap and I'm just trying to escape before I get kidnapped into the status quo.
Exams, and chemistry isn't for me, but I know I will defeat it all.
At first I was at left wing and things went down south, but now at right wing I now have control of everything.
With hockey, a relationship and school, I know it will be a struggle, but as long that I am on the right side of the wing. Nothing will seem so heavy anymore.