Hi everyone! This is my very first time writing a fic. I would love for feedback so it can help me as a writer and hopefully make my fics more enjoyable. Thank you. I am rating this fic as a T. It is right after the season 7 finale. Hope you enjoy!

Meredith sat in her bed holding Zola tight, she had just finished calling Derek for the fourth time in an hour and was starting to get really worried about him. Each time she had called it either rang twice or went straight to his voicemail. Just as she was about to call him again she heard a knock on the door, she quickly got up forgetting that Zola was asleep in her arms,Zola immediately started to cry. Meredith ran to the door thinking it was Derek she opened the door she stared right into Cristinas face of many emotions,she looked sad, angry, sick, depressed,and disgusted. Meredith guessed she was disgusted about Zola crying.

"Will you shut her up please!"Cristina asked desperately

"Well she was asleep until you came and knocked. What do you need?"

"Um.. I was wondering if you had any pajamas I could borrow?"she asked

"Ya I do. Here hold Zola for me and I will get you some"

"Uh no.. I don't hold babies...Mer You know this. You could just tell me where they are"

"No way Derek might have some of his underwear lying around and I might have some other stuff in our closet that I don't want you to see" Meredith said a little bit embarrassed. "Come on just hold her for two seconds please"

"Fine but you owe me big. And what kind of stuff do you have in there that you don't want me to see huh?"

"Oh shut up" Meredith handed Cristina Zola and she started to cry even harder. She went over to their walk in closet and got some long flannel pajamas and a small white T shirt. Meredith handed Cristina the clothes and took Zola and started to calmly talk and soothe her.

"You know if you want you could sleep in here and we could talk. I can't a hold of Derek so I assume he is too mad to come home tonight, he is probably still at the hospital."

"I don't know... Will she be crying all night?"

"Well she is very tired. If she wakes up and starts to cry you are welcome to leave and stay in Alex's bed."

"Alex's bed? What is he on call tonight?"

"No...I umm..kinda kicked him out this morning"

"Oh...ok Then..Do you want to talk about what happened Mer?"

"Ugh...I Guess... Get into my side and I will put Zola in her crib" Meredith slowly puts Zola in her crib and tucks her in and the gives her the bottle that was on the dresser."I just have to get some pajamas on and go to the bathroom I will be right back." Meredith goes to the closet and gets some clothes then walks to the en suite bathroom. She comes out in a pair of Dereks boxers and one of his shirts.

"Eww..Mer what the hell I don't want to be in a bed with you in his boxers."

"What! I either sleep like this or naked what would you prefer?" she asked sarcastically

" that is even more gross I didn't need to know that. Just get into bed "

"Fine" She crawled into bed and snuggled into Dereks pillow so she could smell him. "Do you still want to talk about what happened today"

"I don't know do you?"

"Eh... I guess we could but we have to be quiet so we don't wake go first, Why don't you want a baby?"

"Because I am not that kind of person. I don't do spit ups, and diapers, and I don't socialize with little people"

"Ya I know that but it might be different if it was your own child. What does Owen want?"

"Well he wants the baby and says that he will do everything to take care of this baby and I don't even have to help, that can't be good for our marriage. And what will happen when it gets older and wonders why his or her mom doesn't have anything to do with them."

"Oh well, it looks like you have a lot to work out"

"Yes we do but we can't do it if he kicks me out everytime we have a disagreement that's why in going to have and abortion to teach him a lesson."

"You can't do that, he has as much say in this as you. You have to go talk to him about this now"

"Are you sure? What if he doesn't let me in?"

"Well for one its your house you paid for it and for two if he loves you he wouldn't do that. Now go!"

"Ok thanks Mer and I hope McDreamy shows up"

"Ya me too" She said sadly

Cristina slammed the door as she left and Zola Woke up crying. Meredith sighed and got up to get her from her crib. Meredith rocked Zola in the rocking chair and Zola stopped crying but didn't go back to sleep.

"This will get better,Daddy will come home I Promise you Zola"

Zola started to suck her thumb and Meredith carried her to the bed and set her down. And then put a bunch of pillows around her to keep her from rolling of the bed. Then Meredith got in beside her and held her and she and Zola fell asleep almost immediately.

That's the first update I hope you enjoyed I will hopefully have another one up soon I have a busy week though but I will try my best. I don't have spell check on this computer so I did the best I could. Thank you. Comment please!