Disclaimer : Nothing is mine. Supernatural was created by Eric Kripke.
Season : Late season 11.
Title : Brother Mine
Author Note : Dear readers, I'm french so... pardon my french ? If you see any mistakes, feel free to tell me with a review. Now, I wrote this little OS, listening to Jensen Ackles's cover of Brother (a NEEDTOBREATHE's song). Kinda was obsessed with it for a whole morning.
Brother, let me be your shelter
Never leave you all alone
I can be the one you call
When you're low
Brother, let me be your fortress
When the night winds are driving on
Be the one to light the way
Bring you home
Brother - NEEDTOBREATHE
It may be crazy, it may be insane or sick but I can't live without him. You know, you spend all your life searching for a person -the right person, the ONE- who will love you with all your faults, your mistakes and your shortcomings but I haven't needed to look, I knew it was him. He was it, for me. I fell in and out of love all my life and I was okay with that. But I never loved him less, always more. More than I ever thought possible.
And the days I didn't spend by his side were the days I wasn't myself. Being without him made me less than who I've become. The ugliest person I could be. A man I couldn't bear to look in the mirror. A shattered, broken self.
Maybe it's selfish. To need someone to keep me whole, to keep me human.
To make me better.
It shouldn't come as a surprise, though. He's the better part of me. My greatest achievement.
Raising him was my job when I was young, I unapologically take credit for the man he grew up to be. It wasn't fair, to him or to me. But I did it anyway. I resented my father for failing us but never my brother.
Loving him is my lifetime occupation. A thing I perfected for over three decades. An art, almost. I'm definitely certain that there is no other bond like us out there. The strength of a connection laced with blood, time, experiences and hardships we suffered.
Unbreakeable.
So whatever life or fate choose to throw at us, we'll handle it. As long as he is next to me, I'll overcome anything. Because he is my reason to keep fighting.
My reason for staying alive.
The only fear I have is that life's too short. I'm afraid my time with him on this earth may not be enough. I could be killed tomorrow. He could be killed tomorrow (like I would let it happen). And I'm not sure if I'm gonna get my happy afterlife with him. Our shared heaven. Will there be peace when we are done ?
God, I hope so.
I'm his. From the day I laid eyes on him, I was his. And since my father didn't step up, he became mine.
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