A/N: Hi guys here is the sequel of story "Living for you only" If you want you can read the prequel to get a better hold on this one. I would be extremely glad if you give me your encouragements because it means a lot to me. Please read and review and don't forget to let me know what you think about the story. Don't be panicked after reading first chapter, As the story progresses further, everything will become clear.

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Full Summary:

Everything was going well between Kyoko and Kuon. Both were happy but suddenly events take drastic turn when Kyoko gets raped by none other than her childhood friend Fuwa Sho. Devastated and unable to face her friends especially Kuon because she thinks she's impure for him, Kyoko disappears without saying a word to anyone, leaving Kuon broken and confused behind who gets forced to question her feelings for him. Kyoko returns after 6 years horrified, after seeing Kuon's changed so much. She tries to talk to him but he avoids her, being deeply hurt and outraged because she's left him behind. His cold behavior breaks Kyoko to the core, leaving her lifeless and heartbroken deeper than she once was in the past. Being aggressive, when Kuon turns his back on Kyoko, Ishibahi Hikaru steps in and becomes a supporting shoulder for Kyoko. He asks her to marry him. After seeing his loved one with someone else, Kuon's anger vanishes and he regrets ignoring her and not listening to her explanations but now Kyoko is reluctant to talk to him. Can things get any worse?

Forever Yours

Chapter-1

Ren was angry. He didn't want to see her face. He didn't want to be near her again. He didn't want to be hurt again that's why he had decided never to think about her ever again but the more he pretended he didn't care, the more restless he became. He thought he could live without a person who had left him behind and disappeared without a word 6 years ago right before their wedding day. He could survive a blunt rejection but he couldn't survive being fooled. In his perception, she had betrayed him after making an eternal promise, she made him look like a fool in front of everyone. He was confused. He was furious. He loved her more than his own life and yet she left him without any explanation. He waited for her but she didn't come. He didn't know how to reach her because she didn't inform anyone before leaving. He questioned himself. Did he do something wrong to make her hate him and run away? Why didn't she tell him before leaving? Not even a single text? Was he that loathsome? Why did she do that to him? They were so happy together and were ready to be bound in an inseparable relationship then why did she leave right before their wedding day? Did she regret falling for him? Did she regret her decision to accept him? His fear became reality. He wasn't good enough for her after all. She pretended she wasn't afraid of him when she was so afraid to run away without any notice, without any care of his heartbreak. Why didn't he get it sooner? She entered in Showbiz for Shoutaro Fuwa in the first place then how could she be with someone else? May be she realized it later that she loved Sho not him and left out of guilty.

He was deeply broken. He was hurt. He wanted to see her so badly but he didn't know where she was. He didn't know how to reach her. Kanae, Lory, Maria and Yashiro all of them were confused and worried sick and wanted desperately to know about the reason of her sudden departure but they were helpless. They didn't know what happened that made her leave. They tried to ask Ren but he didn't say a word. He had closed his heart completely. He didn't smile. He just forced himself to live because he just had to. He had no choice. He had work to do. But when Ren thought he could live without her, she came back bringing back the pain and bitter memories with her. He shut her off. He pushed her away from him. He turned cold towards her. He wanted so badly to be with her again, to hold her in his arms again, to feel alive again but he was scared to give in again. He was scared of another betrayal. He was scared to know that she was sorry to leave him because she didn't love him anymore. He couldn't bear it. He didn't have the heart to bear her loss. He couldn't see her with another man especially with Fuwa so he had no option but to put his heart on guard, to build up a strong wall around him so that she could never reach him, never feel how weak he was around her. He loved her so much. She meant the world to him but she didn't even think to inform him before leaving. Was he so invaluable in her life? Why did she play with his heart like that? Was he a toy? Was her love confession an act? If it was then she really was a great actress. He loved her so much but her betrayal turned his deepest love into hatred. When she came back to Japan out of nowhere, he turned murderous. He wanted to hurt her so that she could feel the same pain that she had given him then why did he let her in when she came to visit him at midnight? He wanted to shut the door on her face but why did he let her in? His bleeding heart that ached for her didn't let him to be so cruel.

"Why are you here?" Ren asked in a hoarse tone.

Kyoko's heart trembled hearing his rude voice after a long time. He hadn't spoken to her ever since she returned. He just ignored her.

"I..." Kyoko let out a shaky sigh as she sat on the other side of the couch, her hands resting on her lap, balled into tight fists.

"Do you have something to say? If not then leave, don't waste my time. I need some sleep" he said rudely without caring about the harshness of his tone.

She deserved this cold behavior. She asked for it herself. She had to endure the pain that she had put him through then why was his heart breaking apart? Why was he feeling like someone had put hot iron on his chest?

Kyoko clenched her hands even more tightly, her knuckles turning white. Her face was turning pale with each passing second. Her heart was beating madly.

"I..." she trailed off. She didn't know what to say. The man before her was totally different. He wasn't the man she fell in love with. He wasn't the man who always treasured her. He was someone she didn't know. "K-Kuon,,, I..." but her heart was ripped out when he responded to her coldly.

"My real name is only for my family and friends Mogami-san, please don't try to be so frank with me" he gave her a cold glare then looked away.

Kyoko's heart sank. She felt like crying. Tears were demanding to come out of her eyes but tried her best to put herself together. He had clearly told her that she meant nothing to him. Why would she? No one would accept her after what she had done. She deserved his brutal treatment.

She hung her head, closing her eyes, her bangs hiding her face expression.

"I'm sorry. I won't take much of your time..." She couldn't complete her statement because of Ren's intensive shout.

"You are sorry? He laughed roughly. "You seriously have got guts to come here and say sorry! Aren't you shameless Mogami-san?" his anger got the best of him and he didn't even realize what he was saying anymore.

Kyoko's heart fell into her stomach. She wanted to scream and tell him how much she loved him and how deeply sorry she was to leave him behind but she couldn't let him know. She couldn't bear his hatred. She could bear if the world hated her but she couldn't stand his hatred. She wasn't good enough for him. She was not pure for him anymore. He deserved someone better not a broken person like her so she left even if her heart desired to be with him. She left in order to save him. She left so that she didn't have to face his disgust towards her. If he came to know what happened, he would never accept her and despise her for the rest of his life. She knew that and she couldn't bear it so she left.

"I..." she sniffed.

Ren kept his gaze at wall. He didn't look at her. He didn't want to give in to his heart's desire. His heart was screaming at him to hold her, to comfort her and to tell her how much he loved her but he didn't want to be fooled again. He didn't want to hear that she didn't love him and came here only to apologize for hurting him and for falling in love with him mistakenly when she actually was in love with the singer.

Ren clenched his jaw. He knew he was hurting her. He knew he needed to listen to her. He knew there must be a reason why she left and he needed to understand but he wasn't ready. His heart wasn't strong enough anymore to withstand another deadly shock.

Tears were already welling up in her eyes. She was in verge of tears. She didn't know how to start conversation with him. Her shoulders started shaking. Her heart was sinking. She felt helpless. She raised her head to look at him but his gaze was fixed at the wall of his living room.

Kyoko gathered some strength to talk because that's why she was there. She wanted so desperately to see him, to talk to him. Only he could put her heart at ease. She had spent six years in hell. After what happened six years ago, Kyoko had lost all of her confidence and became afraid of human touch. She flinched each time anyone had tried to touch her. She went under deep depression and needed mental counseling to get over her psychological trauma. Even after becoming better, she had developed phobia of human touch.

Swallowing her pain, Kyoko tried to talk but her words came out as a slight whisper "How have you been?"

Ren heard her clearly. He wanted nothing but to console her and to tell her that she meant the whole universe to him. She's finally back and that's all that mattered to him but he couldn't. He didn't want to give himself false hopes again. He had to be cold, he had to be violent to her. That's the only way for him to save his broken soul and poor heart. He didn't want excessive pain.

"Not dead yet, even though a certain someone tried best to kill me but I'm still alive" he let out a deadly laugh.

Kyoko cringed.

She clasped her hands so tightly that her nails were digging into her soft skin. She bit her lower lip to hold herself back not to cry in front of him. It was useless anyway. It didn't matter to him if she was there. It was as if she didn't exist for him. He didn't even give her one comforting or gentle look. He was beyond berserk.

"I... I... know that you are angry and hurt but please listen. I'm sorry I..." It was the limit for him. He crossed all of his limits of being angry. He replied in a tone that was full of resentment, his eyes were full of hatred.

"Yes, I'm angry and hurt! Why wouldn't I be!? I was betrayed and fooled! You broke my heart into pieces and walked away. If you didn't want to marry me then you could have just said so. You could just turn me down nicely but you chose to break my heart. You are horrible. I wish I had never fallen for you! I wish you never even existed! I wish you had never come back! You didn't even deserve my love. Why did I fall for you? It was a horrible mistake. I never realized that I wasn't the one you needed. I never was! You were in love with Fuwa from the start, how could you ever love me? I was so naive! But now I have woken up. I wouldn't be so foolish again" he shouted at her, letting his locked up anger attack her.

Kyoko was now crying. She couldn't hold back her tears anymore. She wanted to walk up to him and sit beside him, to hold him, to embrace him, to apologize to him but he wasn't giving her any chance. He was pushing her away.

"It hurts Ren..."

"If you want forgiveness, then take this pain out of my heart that you have caused and I'll forgive you but you can't. You are too late now. I don't feel a thing for you anymore. I will be happy if you are out of my life"

"It hurts... don't do this to me Ren, I'll die without you"

Ren wasn't in his senses, He kept on talking without any care, as if she wasn't there. He didn't care how she felt. He was too hurt to notice her. He was blinded by the pain his heart was feeling. Impulsively, he got up and reached up to her, gripping her shoulders in a deadly painful grasp, he barked with rage.

"Why don't you do me a favor? Get out of my life and leave me alone so that I can have a peaceful life?" he fumed at her.

Kyoko flinched at his touch. She jumped and gasped loudly when he gripped her so tightly as if he was going to break her shoulder bones. She closed her eyes, her entire being shuddered with fear.

"It hurts... so so much. I feel like my heart has stopped." she cried.

"Why don't you just disappear and die!" he shouted with flaming anger leaving Kyoko in shock.

She was stunned. Did he really hate her that much? Was it really end for her? Was there really no hope left for her to be with him?

Not able to hold back anymore, Kyoko burst into tears. She started trembling from head to tow.

Realizing that he had gone too far, Ren composed himself taking in deep breaths and his grip on her loosened.

He let her go and turned his back on her.

"Leave. I'm done talking!" he said feeling pain rising up in his chest. It was unbearable. One more second and his barriers of protection that he had put on himself against her would break.

Kyoko tried to stand up, to reach up to him. He was so close yet so far away. She couldn't reach him. Her body was numb. She felt being paralyzed. His words had seized her. Her soul was torn apart. The wounds were so deep that they would never heal.

Feeling frustrated and deeply hurt at his attitude, Kyoko tried to grab his attention by hook or by crook. She needed him to react, to listen to her even if it was for the last time.

Her own anger flared when he turned around and placed his back on her. She wiped away her tears roughly.

"Don't turn away from me. At least listen to me what I have to say!" she said feeling irritated.

Ren still didn't acknowledge her words, he just shrugged but his heart wasn't at peace. He was pretending he didn't care what she was saying but deep inside, he was battling with himself. His walls were about to crack. Damn, he was so fragile. She had so much control over him. He feared he would do something to regret later but he didn't know he had already shattered her heart into pieces. She was hurt more than she was before.

His ignorance was making her more furious. She was determined to get a response from him now.

"Tsuruga-san...!" she called out but he didn't budge but the words that came out of his mouth made her eyes widened.

"Why don't you just go back to your Sho? That's why you left me right? Because you realized it so late that you were in love with him not me!" his words were icy. It sent chills down her spine. Her whole body felt immovable. She was at loss after all. He hated her indeed. It was too late.

"Pain, Hurt, Jealousy, Rage, Betrayal, Frustration, Despair, Defeat and Fear." Ren was feeling multiple emotions taking over him simultaneously.

"See, what have you done to me Kyoko. I feel like I'm dead. I don't feel anything anymore. Why the hell did you leave right before our wedding? Did you hate me that much? Did you really love that bastard? Was he really better than me? Our relationship really didn't mean anything to you?"

"Where did that come from Ren? What happened to you? You are not the one I loved. My Corn could never talk to me like that. Who are you? I don't know you" Kyoko's heart was hammered. She was facing difficulty in breathing. "If you hate me for leaving unnoticed then what would you do after knowing what Sho did to me? You hate Sho a lot. You'll never accept me. You'll throw me away and despise me even more. Well you hate me anyway..." her heart was broken. She could even feel the cracking sound of her heart.

Kyoko clenched her fists even tighter. "You are right, May be I should just be with Shoutaro. He would at least listen to me!" Kyoko pointed out angrily.

But she immediately regretted those words. Especially when she felt the back of the large and strong hand hit her across the face. The intense force caused her to stumble back onto the ground. She slowly lifted her large amber eyes up at Ren from her position on the floor.

Her face was already tear streaked but fresh tears joined in.

Ren was himself in shock to what he had done. He was looking at his hand like he couldn't believe he just spun around and had slapped Kyoko across the face.

Room was silent. Kyoko was looking at Ren like a deer caught in the headlights. All emotions left him at once and fear took over him. He had gone too far.

"K-Kyo..." Ren tried to speak as he looked at her worriedly and took a step towards her, but Kyoko scrambled back a few feet on the ground, away from him.

Kyoko was trembling hard now. She had never felt this frightened before. She knew he was hurt and angry. She expected him to be cold but she had never expected him to hit her. It broke her heart completely. He hated her to the point not to even care about raising his hand on her. How unfortunate she was?

She had lost the only one person who could mend her broken soul.

Her eyes were hurting from crying now. She knew it was of no use to be there anymore. He didn't want her anymore. He made it clear.

"It's all my own doing. If only I hadn't hurt him so much..." she laughed at herself. Her heart stopped feeling anything, not even pain.

"Y-You... You hit me...?" Kyoko's lower lip trembled. She touched her stinging cheek where he had hit her. A deep red mark was imprinted on her face.

Ren stood there frozen in place, staring at her in disbelieve.

"K-Ky..." Ren tried to mutter but words died in his mouth when Kyoko suddenly stood up to her feet and bowed before him deeply low.

"I'm sorry for showing up so late. I must get going now Tsuruga-san, Thank you for letting me in. I promise I'll never bother you again" then without a word, she turned around and took off. In an instant she was out of his apartment.

"K-K-Kyoko W-Wait!" Ren found himself yelling at her from behind but she was already gone.

Ren was left heart broken once again. This time he didn't know if his heart could be repaired or not.

Seriously what had he been thinking? Why did he have to turn around and slap her? Why did he do that? He desperately wanted to hear her explanations. He wanted to be mad at her because he loved her so deeply that's why he was hurt beyond imagination and it caused him to act violently. He wanted to be angry. He wanted her to feel the same pain that he felt then why he was feeling even more worst? He wanted to hurt her didn't he? Then why he was hurting even more by doing that? He feared her rejection so he wanted to be cruel and rude to her to save his already broken heart but when she mentioned Sho's name, something inside him snapped and he slapped her on impulse. He never meant to hit her. He never did but it happened anyway.

"You finally pushed her away. Now she would never come back. Aren't you happy now? You have scared her away. She would never come to visit you again. You have done it so well. You have lost her forever" his heart started to ache even more as tears he was holding back fell down his cheeks

He fell down on his knees and cried at his loss.

Kyoko felt like lifeless. Her soul was pulled out of her body. She was just running in random direction. Her head was spinning. She felt dizzy. Her tears were blocking her vision. Her mind was blank. She just kept running in a hope to get away. The tearing pain in her chest was so dense that it was making her whole body turn heavy. She felt immovable but she had to move. She couldn't stop.

"I'll always be there between you and him. You can never get rid of me. I've claimed what's mine. You can't go back to him even if you want to. He'll never accept you. You'll have no choice but to come back to me Kyoko. I have won against him. How dare you to fall in love with him when you were my possession? You'll never forget this day. He'll hate you. He'll push you away because I've touched you. Your mind will never be able to get rid of my thoughts. Your body will never forget my touch. You'll have to come back to me because he would never marry you if he came to know..."

Lost in her misery and horrible memories, when she was about to lose her conscious, A car came into view. As she was about to cross the street, headlights came closer and closer. Before she could see clearly, extreme dizziness took over and she lost her conscious.

The car stopped right before it could hit her and a worried person came out to check on her limp body.

Looking closely, he turned her face around in order to see.

"K-Kyoko-chan... are you OK?" called out a worried Hikaru while slapping her cheek lightly.

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