Eye of the beholder Chapter 1
Author: Hey everybody! This is my second twilight story. The main character Sarah is not ugly. She has self-esteem issues that will be explained. I'm trying to decide what this should be, should it be an Embry, or other character fic. You tell me.
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Oh how I wished I was invisible. Not that anyone ever noticed me to begin with mind you, but who can blame them, I'm very unattractive, my breasts are too large, my bottom is to fat, my lips to full, my hair to silky. I always wore baggy clothes so people wouldn't notice how fat I was, I didn't eat much but I seemed to gain weight like crazy. Today was another day at Forks high, so naturally I was miserable. I was sitting in my physics class. I was writing down notes when I heard them talking.
"Look at her she's so lame" Trisha said.
"Like ya, look at her, all bug eye'd and nerdy looking, taking down notes like a good teachers pet." Rebecca said in a snort.
I ignored them and continued taking notes.
"I know she can hear us, she's just trying to act all big and tough." Trisha said "As if, I mean look at her clothes, she's obviously ugly underneath all those clothes, she probably was born with a defect or something".
"Yeah, totally, guess what I heard her mom was out drinking last night right, and she like totally was a whore, you should have seen it" Rebecca said.
"Oh yeah, she's a complete skank, she never holds a job, she just has her daughter work and mooches up all her money. That's why there so poor" Trish said.
I felt my eye's begin to pool with tears. I would not cry, I would not give them the satisfaction.
"How pathetic, she's probably going to become a street walker and give five dollar blowjobs after school just to live." Trisha sneered.
"Yeah totally" Rebecca laughed.
I never faltered, I never sobbed, I just ignored them, and kept on writing, all I could do now was write. I had no friends, no family besides my mom, I wasn't pretty, I wasn't popular, and I only had my smarts. If there was one thing I was proud of it was how smart I was, it was the only thing I had. So I ignored them and kept writing.
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My name is Sarah, I'm seventeen years old. I live with my mom in Forks, Washington. When I was three years old my father left my mother and me. My mother is a mean person, she never holds a job. She drinks and smokes, and goes out barhopping all the time. I never have any mony, it all goes to her and she only spends it on bills and herself. While having to deal with school, I have to go to work, and take care of the house. I did all the chores, dishes, vacuum, take out the trash, fix dinner, not that there was ever enough food to call it dinner.
"Sarah you stupid cow!" my mother screamed at me from the kitchen table.
"What's wrong mother?" I asked from the stove.
"Your check that's what!" she said waving my check from work in the air. "What's this 310, that's not enough for the bills and groceries" she yelled.
"But it's all I can make from the job I have, I'm already doing overtime" I said shaking a little. I could smell the alcohol and knew it was about to get nasty.
"Overtime my ass! You hardly work enough" she said slamming the check on the table.
"But I work every day, after school, and all day on the weekend" I said.
"Then you need to talk to that Newton bitch about a raise, this is bullshit, she gives all the real money to that little shit son of hers, either she's holding back or you're not working hard enough!".
"But mom Mike graduated last year" I said placing the bowl of hot soup on the table.
"Then you're not working hard enough!" she screamed and slapped me on the face. I fell to the floor, my face burning, "You either talk to her or about a raise or I WILL!" she screamed "I'm not going to work my ass off for a lazy brat like you!" she took a sip of her soup, then she spit it out at me "And what the fuck is this!" she said disgustedly at the vegetable soup.
"I didn't have time to go to the store today." I whispered rubbing my cheek were she had slapped me.
She grabbed the bowl and tossed it near my head, it exploded and showered me with hot soup, I could feel my face burn were the liquid splashed on it. "No good ungrateful BITCH! I take care of you, I put a roof over your ugly head, and this is how you repay me! By feeding me this shit! You wan't me dead thats it huh?!" she said getting up and grabbing me by the hair.
"NO MOM, PLEASE I DIDN'T HAVE TIME TO PICK UP FOOD" I screamed in pain.
"I Don't care you stupid ugly slut! Now you get your fat ass up and go get me some real food!" she said throwing me to the front door. "And hurry up if you're not back within the hour, I swear to Christ you'll be sorry" she said sitting down on the couch and lighting up a cigarette.
"Yes, ma'am" I whispered, tears streaming down my face.
It had been like this since my father had left. She blamed me; she said it was my fault he left. She hated me, when I had my first period, she had beaten me, saying I was nothing but a whore, she showed me pictures of when she was younger more beautiful then she is now. She said dad left because I made her fat, she never let me wear makeup, or nice dress's she said I wasn't pretty so why waste the money on good clothes. She had all kinds of nice clothes, but I couldn't wear them I wasn't skinny enough. Or pretty enough. I got into the car I owned, well my mother owned. It was rusty and very old. An ugly car for an ugly girl.
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Embry's P.O.V
I drove down the road to the store. I was driving from the Cullen's house. I was on my way home when I remembered to pick up some milk for home. I pulled into the drive through and saw what had to be the ugliest car in the history of ugly. I felt sorry for whoever owned that thing. I wish Jake and Quill were here now, they would have had a field day mocking the car. But they both had better things to do now that they had imprints. Jake had Nessie, and Quill had Claire. So between patrolling and hanging out with their imprints, we didn't hang out as much as we used to. It sucked, I mean there were benefits to the whole werewolf thing, but when your friends had their soul-mates and you didn't life was that much more boring. When we did hang out, they always brought either Nessie or Claire. Don't get me wrong there both great kids, but sometimes you just needed to hang out with the guys. I wish things were like they used to. Before phasing, before imprinting, before the wolf pack. Things were simpler, easier, we had so much fun, and not all the drama of wolves, vampires and imprints. I wondered if I would ever imprint, Sam, Paul, Jared, Quill, and Jake had all imprinted. And ever since we had all those kids join, were just waiting for some of them to imprint. Can you imagine it, twelve years old, a wolf, and you find your imprint. Talk about angst waiting to happen. I walked in to the store and grabbed a carton of milk. I rounded the corner and ran into someone, or rather she ran into me. One of the benefits of being so tall, you're very sturdy. The girl fell on her butt with an omph. "Sorry" I said and held out a hand to help her up. She was pretty hot, she was about 5ft 11, she had dirty blonde hair, and caramel eyes. Her skin was pale and soft, she was a bit skinny for my tastes, she looked like she had been starving herself, even though she wore clothes that were about three sizes to big for her, I could still tell how skinny she was. She looked at me and her caramel eyes got big. It's not every day you run into a very tall Indian boy now is it?
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Sarah's P.O.V
I stared at the giant of a man, with his hand out stretched to help me up. He was well over six foot four, he had a buzz cut hair, and black eye's. He had very kind eyes and I just stared into them.
"Uh miss?" he said offering his hand.
"Oh sorry" I said blushing.
I took his hand and he was very warm. I started to pick up my fallen items and he helped me.
"I'm sorry I should have been watching where I was going" he said helping me.
"No it's my fault, I'm always in the way" I said. Way to go Sarah, just run into every handsome boy you meet, oh that's right you already do, that's why you've never had a boyfriend.
"I'm Embry" he said holding out his hand for a shake.
Oh my god was tall dark and gorgeous wanting to shake my hand?. "I'm Sarah", I said shaking his hand.
"That's a very pretty name" he said smiling and I felt myself melt on the inside. I couldn't believe this was happening since when did guys ever notice a fat girl like me?
We walked over to the cashier and bought our items. I finished first, because he let me go first, how nice considering I rammed into him. I walked outside and headed to my car when a voice called out "Sarah wait!", I turned and saw it was Embry, he was walking over to me. Oh no had I done something to offend him?.
"Hey ummm" he said rather nervously, "I was wondering, uhh are you doing anything tomorrow?" he asked.
OH...MY...GOD! Was this man about to ask me out?
"Well I got to work tomorrow from 10 till 5…" I said. I knew mom would be out tomorrow, it was Saturday so it was her time to get drunk, so she wouldn't be home. "But after that I'm available" I said smiling.
"Cool, hey where do you work?"
"Over at the Newton's shop, you know where they sell those hiking and sports stuff?"
"Oh yeah, hey if you want I could pick you up after work and we could hang out." he said rubbing the back of his neck.
"Sure, sure" I said blushing, he was the first boy to ever ask me out.
"Cool if you want we could go to first beach in La Push" he said.
"Sure I've never been there!"
"Really? Cool, so I'll see you tomorrow?"
"Yes."
"Awesome"
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Embry's P.O.V
I winced as I watched Sarah drive off in the piece of crap car. Poor girl, maybe she'd let me tune it up for her, I'd do it for free. I reached into my pocket and pulled out my cell phone and dialed Quills number.
"Quill? Hey man, guess what? I just met a total fox!" I said, I felt like doing the happy dance.
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Alice P.O.V
I sat in the living room watching Jacob and Nessie play Jasper was there with me watching them two with a smile on his face, enjoying the positive feelings he was receiving from them.
"Uncle Jazzy, can we play hide and seek!" Nessie begged Jasper, she was the only one who could get away with calling him Jazzy...well I could to but only during "special time".
"Sure Nessie, hide I'll seek" he said closing his eyes.
Nessie let out a squeal of joy and grabbed Jake's arm,
"Come on Jakey we have to hide!" she said and he scooped her up in his massive arms and ran off with her.
"1...2...3" he counted.
Suddenly I had a vision
There is a girl, she is very beautiful, but she is full of despare, and doubt. She is crying now but no tears are coming from her eye's,
"There there…" Rose says hugging her "Everything will be ok" she said and the girl looked at her with crimson eye's.
"Alice?" Jasper asked sensing my emotions.
"What is it?" he asked.
"I think…" I said turning to face him "Were going to get a new sister" his face showed his surprise
"Yay, she is a total fashion victim, shopping time!" I said clapping my hands together.
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Author: Well there is chapter one. I confess trying to write Sarah is tough, I'm used to doing strong independent characters, I may not be able to update as soon as I like because of my other fanfics. Please Review.