Why?

''Kakuzu, why?'' echoes inside my head. ''Why did you have to die?''

Now I can't hear your voice anymore.

I can't feel your touch on my skin.

You won't take care of me anymore.

I want to come to you so badly, but I can't. Oh, how I wish I wasn't immortal.

I miss you. Why did you leave me? I still remember your face and scent.

Why?

I have tried everything so that I could come to you, but I can't.

Why I have to live eternity all alone? Why?

Hidan. Why? Why are you immortal? Why can't you die?

I'm so lonely, because I can't talk to you every day.

I can come to your dreams, but I don't know what to say to you.

I love you, but saying that would hurt us both.

I'm so lonely here without you. I miss you.

I miss your voice when you laugh and curse, I miss your face when you look at me, and I miss your touch.

I want to touch you so badly.

Why can't I be immortal? Then I would be with you. Or why can't you be mortal like me? I'm thinking about you the whole time.

I remember clearly the day I died. You were on the ground, next to me. You held my hand in your hands, and refused to let go. Tears were pouring down your chin. I wanted to sweep them away, but I couldn't. I didn't have the strength. I wanted so badly to say "I love you" but I couldn't talk. It hurt so much.

You too looked like you wanted to say something, but couldn't because of your tears.

This sadness inside me grows. Why?

Kakuzu. Last night I saw you in my dream.

I knew it was you. You were so wonderful.

You were even more handsome than I remembered. I wanted to touch you so bad that it hurt.

But I was afraid. I was afraid, that if I touch you, you'd disappear

. So I just stared at you.

You looked like you wanted to take me in your arms.

But you just opened your mouth and said, that we could be together if I stopped believing Jashin. But I can't. He's my savior and without him I wouldn't be immortal and I would never have met you.

Why is loving so hard. I wish I could come to you. If it were possible to come to you, I would be happy.

I'm ready to do almost anything so that we could be together.

I need you so badly.

I need to ask Jashin – sama if he could let me die so that we could be together. Because, if I can't have you, what's the point being immortal.

So next time I'm doing one of my rituals, I will ask him.

Hidan. I visited again in your dreams.

You said that your dear Jashin can bring you to me. He will let you die so you could be with me.

I swear, when I heard that, I was so full of my emotions that I almost ran to you and took you in my arms. But I managed to stop myself, because I knew that if I touch you, I can't let go.

I became happy and said that I'll be waiting you here. You said that we will meet soon.

I can't wait to have you in my arms.

It's my last day being immortal.

Tomorrow, Jashin – sama will let me die so I can be with you. I can hardly wait.

It was sometimes great being an immortal. I could hurt myself as much as I wanted and not die. But also, sometimes I wished I could die. The day you died was one of those days. I wanted so bad to end my life, but I knew it's impossible.

Now I know, that, if I had explained everything to Jashin – sama, he could've let me die.

Why didn't I think of it earlier. I'm so stupid and I had to suffer so long. If only I had known.

Well, it really doesn't matter anymore. Tomorrow, I can finally be with you.

Hidan. You came as you promised. You were even more beautiful than I remembered.

When you see me, you smile so brightly. That smile always amazes me. It gets me weak. You run to my awaiting arms and I hold you so tight, that you can barely breath. It doesn't seem to bother you. I keep repeating the words 'I love you' over and over to you and you repeat them to me. We're holding each other so tight. I could never be happier having you here.