Only By Chance
He paced around his room. His eyes watered as his thoughts began to eat away at his sanity. "No one gets it." He thought. No matter what he did, he would never be allowed to be himself. No matter how hard he tried, his parents would never accept it. Hell, it even took him sixteen years to accept it. He was gay, Kyle Brofloski was gay. He had known for a long time, but he tried to deny it. He tried to push his thoughts away. He put on a fake smile and acted like everything was okay, but it wasn't. It was killing him to fake who he was, little did he know, accepting who he was would put him over the edge. Kyle had settled on the fact that, no matter what he did, he would always be hated for who he was. Tears rolled down his cheeks, as he reached for some sleeping pills on his desk, and began to unscrew the cap.
Cartman glanced at his phone. " 1:00 AM. Kyle's definitely asleep by now." He thought. Once again, he was headed to Kyles house, uninvited of course. He kept telling himself he only stalked Kyles house to make sure the "sneaky Jew" wasn't planning anything. But deep down, he knew perfectly well, that was a lie. As he made his way down the snow covered side walk, Kyles house came into view. Cartman then made his way up to the house. He pushed back the bushes beneath Kyles window to reveal a ladder. Carefully he leaned the ladder on the house and began climbing. When he reached the window, he slowly peeked inside the boys room. Much to his surprise, no one was there. Confused, he opened the window and climbed inside. The lights were on, but no Kyle. Cartman walked over to the other side of Kyles bed before he froze. He saw Kyle passed out on the floor, with an empty pill bottle lying next to him. "Oh Shit!" He yelled, kneeling down by the boy, he grabbed him. "What the fuck did you do?!" Cartman began shaking Kyle, trying to wake him. "Kyle?" he yelled "Kyle Wake The Fuck Up!" Tears began to fall from Cartmans eyes. He then realized what he needed to do. With a quick motion, Cartman put his fingers down Kyles throat, causing him to throw up. He felt sick as he seen the pile of pills the boy had ingested. Cartman then picked up Kyle off the ground. Cartman was surprised how light Kyle was, though Cartman had thinned out over the years and was mostly muscle now. He carefully laid Kyle on his bed and sat next to him. Once again he began crying. "Why am i crying?" He thought. "It's not like I care about him... right? He's just a dirty Jew after all." Cartman set his head in his hands." I hate him, and he hates me. That's how it always has been and that's how it always will be." But he didn't hate kyle, not anymore. When they were younger he did, but then something changed. He began to care for Kyle, and though he always tried to deny it, he loved Kyle. The only attention he could get from him was hatred. He always ripped on Kyle because it was the only way Kyle would notice him. Cartman then laid next to him and closed his eyes.
Kyle awoke on his bed. He groand as he looked at the clock. "12:05pm" He read. Kyle looked down, only to be confused. "Did i sleep in my clothes last night?" He wondered. Kyle made his way down the stairs only to find someone sitting on his couch. "Cartman?" He asked. "It's about time Jew. I thought you'd never get up." Cartman said. "What are you doing here?" Kyle asked, still half asleep. "Do you not remember anything from last night?" Cartman asked, sounding annoyed."Um...no. The last thing i remember was getting a call from my parents." Kyle was super confused now. Why couldn't he remember anything? "Oh yeah, speaking of parents where are yours?" Cartman asked. "My Mom and Dad went on a three week vacation in Florida. They left two days ago, and Ike is at a friends house until they get back." Kyle answered. "How did you manage to get them to let you stay home by yourself?" Cartman questioned. "It wasn't easy, it took a lot of convincing." Kyle said "Anyway... What happened last night? I feel like shit." He said. Kyle had a pretty good idea what happened, something he considered doing for a long time. He wondered if he actually tried to go through with it. " You tried to kill yourself last night..." Cartman was getting slightly teary eyed, Kyle noticed this but didn't say anything, quickly cartman reverted back to being an asshole to make sure Kyle didn't suspect anything. "You're luck i saved your stupid ass." Cartman added. He didn't want to be this much of jerk, especially concerning the situation they were in, but being unusually nice would just make Kyle more confused. Cartman couldn't risk Kyle finding out his true feelings, or he might lose what little bit of Kyle he had.