Disclaimer: I don't even think I need one...But just in case, I do not own Grey's Anatomy.

A/N: So this idea kind of just popped into my head. This fic is unique, to say the least...I don't know if I'm going to continue, but if people like it then most likely I will. PLEASE REVIEW! well, without further ado, I present...Diaries of an Addict!


First step: Admit you have a problem. The first step to recovery is to admit you have a problem that affects both your personal and social life. To admit you have a problem may not be easy, but denying it is not going to help. First you must have a problem, in order to recover.

Okay, I can do this. This seems easy enough. I have a problem. I'm an addict. You probably think that I'm addicted to either drugs, sex, or alcohol. You'll be surprised to learn that I'm not addicted to any of those. Sure my addiction's a little weird and I'm almost positive that they don't have meetings for my kind of addiction. Sometimes I feel like I'm the only person in this world with this addiction, but I'd like to think that in a world with billions and billions of people, somewhere out there, is someone with my addiction.

I'd like to believe that my addiction is not hurting anyone, but my family members, friends, and those close to me have assured me that it hurts them to see my addiction running my life. Sure, I've missed many parties, funerals, and weddings because of my addiction, but I hadn't really noticed until they sat me down. Being in a room full of people you love, and having them sit you down and tell you that your addiction has gotten out of control, sort of puts things into perspective. So I sought out for treatment, something that would help me overcome this addiction.

So I went to the bookstore, but the only things that were there were for alcoholics and druggies. So I decided to write my own. I bought as much of those self-help books as I could afford, people looked at me like I was a psycho backing away slowly. But I guess that's bound to happen when you're buying books like, 'Anger is not the answer' and 'Abuse: 12 effective steps toward a better life'. After purchasing the books, I decided to start with the first step. All the books seem to all have the same first step, Admit you have a problem.

So now here I am, with the very first step toward my recovery. I am Emma Thompson and I am a Grey's Anatomy addict.

P.S. My real name is NOT Emma Thompson. She's just a made up character...