-1All your twisted thoughts free flow
To everlasting memories
Show soul
Kiss the stars with me
And dread the wait for
Stupid calls returning to us to life
We say to those who are in love
It can't be true 'cause we're too young
I know that's true because so long I was
So in love with you
So I thought

She couldn't believe it had been a year since she'd seen him. Fred, so full of life, was gone now. Her heart still ached, still wanted to see him one more time, see that smile that made all fear go away. Though last time she's seen it, she'd lost him. Lost him for good, within 4 hours of seeing it. Her heart still burned, she still yearned to hear his voice one more time. Telling her all her pain would get better, telling lame jokes with George, those times where they could just sit and talk about nothing for hours.

A year goes by
And I can't talk about it
On my knees
Dim lighted room
Thoughts free flow try to consume myself in this
I'm not faithless
Just paranoid of getting lost or that I might lose
Ignorance is bliss cherish it
Pretty neighborhoods you learn to much to hold
Believe it not
And fight the tears
With pretty smiles and lies about the times

She hoped to see him soon. Killing herself? She'd told Katie that she planned to do it, the second she saw him laying there. Katie had told her that would be one more pain and loss for all of them. She had been thinking she didn't care, when Katie had said, "What about George?" George was as good a friend as anyone to her, almost like a brother. Should have been brother in law in time. But no, Fred was taken away from her. Now he was… so lifeless, face still smiling peacefully.

He was never peaceful. He wanted to run around all the time, doing everything. If he could see her now, he'd be telling her to get up and go do something, stop crying. Like he had when her grandmother had died. Their first serious time together, with no jokes. He'd hugged her until some of the pain left, with that new feeling of love, her heart began to mend.

Romance says goodnight
Close your eyes and I'll close mine
Remember you, remember me
Hurt the first, the last between

And I'm praying that we will see
Something there in between
Then and there that exceeds all we can dream
So we can talk about it

She wanted to see him one more time. See if he was alright. If they (whoever they may be) were taking care of him, like she would have. Where he was now, if he was happy. She'd dreamed seeing him, but he'd only to disappear right in front of her. She remembered the last moments they'd had, talking before the fight began. Joking, of course, to make her feel better. And he'd saved her life.

It was short, really. But that was when she realized that she'd loved him. She'd seen a friend fall, and began freaking out, not watching what was going on. A spell had almost hit her, when he pulled her out of the way. Looking so concerned, yelled at her, "You don't have time to cry! That time is later. Protect yourself, so I can see you later." and ran off, a look of.. What was that look? Love, concern.

Only to die minutes later.

And all these twisted thoughts I see
Jesus there in between
And all these twisted thoughts I see
Jesus there in between

He hadn't wanted her to be sad. But she was. She was alone now, alone forever. She wished she was dead. But she wasn't. She laid her head down on her pillow, tears on her cheeks. Fell into a dream, a dream where she was with her Fred.