Author's Note: I started writing this after realizing that I didn't have any fanfictions that took place after the epilogue of book 7. I'm not sure if it's going to be just a one-shot, or if I'll add more... so let me know what you think

Diusclaimer: I own absolutely NOTHING

It Will Never Be Enough

"Harry! Come to bed," Ginny called from where she was already laying, half asleep.

How many years are you going to do this Harry? A little voice asked inside his head.

"Just a minute, I, er, am going to check on the kids," Harry replied from where he stood, leaning against the counter in their kitchen. A half empty mug of ale sat on the counter in front of him. He hated the taste, but when he was drunk enough, he could go through with it.

Harry took a deep breath before bringing the mug to his lips and chugging the remaining ale. It burned down his throat. He went to the sink and filled the cup with water, to try and get the burning sensation out of his mouth.

"Harry!" He could tell she was drifting off by her tone of voice.

Thank Merlin.

He had avoided one more night of awkwardness. It's not that he didn't love Ginny, of course he did, but more in a best friend kind of way, he had found, than in a romantic kind of way. But now their friendship was in shambles, as was their sex-life, and all because he had jumped into marriage.

Nine-teen years they had been married, nine-teen years he had smiled and faked it, trying to make the best of a bad situation. Closing his eyes and seeing someone else as they slept together-

Severus.

Harry shook his head, trying to shake the thought from his mind. Hot tears formed in the corners of his eyes and he let them fall silently down his cheeks.

"Harry, please…." It would only be a few minutes now, a few minutes and she'd be asleep. A few minutes and he could lie there in the dark of their marriage bed, and think about the only person he had truly wanted.

A/N Continued: I have some ideas for what I might do if anyone cares to read more.. But I haven't written anything else yet, so let me know what you think.