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A/N: This is my second fic. I like it, but now I want to know what you think. Please review. Even flames are helpful.
The Things We Do
**Sirius**
"James, if you keep staring like that, your eyes are going to fall out." I joked as I sat down next to him. He was staring at Lily across the common room, as usual. He jumped visibly and I had to fight the urge to laugh. Now he's going to deny that he was staring at anything. 3... 2... 1.
"What? What are you talking about? I wasn't staring at anyone." Now I laughed.
"Don't you mean 'anything'? Besides, don't try to deny it, you were staring straight at Lily. Can't say I blame you really, the girl's pretty, but this is getting a little old. You've known her for almost five years, how hard can it be to talk to her?" I asked him. It really was getting tired. The poor chap's liked her since last year, but refuses to admit it.
"Sirius, you're getting a little old. I've told you a million times, I don't like Lily Evans." He replied just as Remus and Peter walked up.
"Whatcha talkin' 'bout?" asked Peter through a mouthful of Pumpkin Pasty. That boy was always eating. Remus sat down next to me, weighed down by his usual armload of books.
"I was just telling James how he should stop watching the fair Lily from afar and actually do something." James glared at me. I just grinned widely back at him.
"You know, Sirius is right James. You should ask her to go to Hogsmeade with you next week." Remus suggested.
"Brilliant idea! You should do it James; it'll be the perfect opportunity to finally tell Lily that you like her. And besides that, you'll finally stop staring at her constantly."
"Yeah, you're right it would be the perfect opportunity." I couldn't believe it, he was gonna do it? "That is, if I liked Lily, which I don't. I'm going to the library, you guys are getting annoying." I sighed heavily as my hopes came crashing down and he left the common room.
"So is he going to ask her or not?" Peter asked. I sighed again and gave him a dirty look.
"Yes he is, he just doesn't know it yet." I told him, an idea already forming in my mind.
I knew my comment would just confuse Peter, but I was too busy trying to decide what to do. I needed to get some information on Lily, but which of her friends should I talk to? Christine Cavan was on the quidditch team with me and James, but she was also really loyal and not likely to give up much information. Aurora Nowell was Lily's other good friend. Auri was also very loyal and sometimes downright overprotective when it came to her friends, but I had collaborated with her on pranks before. I knew she'd help me if I could convince her that it was a good idea to get Lily and James together.
Now, where was that girl? I could see Lily across the room trying to coax Chris into doing some homework, but Auri was MIA. What day was it? Thursday. Okay, now what time? 10:00 PM. Aha! That meant she would be stargazing right now.
As I opened the door onto the astronomy tower I pulled my cloak tighter around me. It was late November and bound to be damn cold out there. Great, I was right. I pulled the cloak even tighter and stared in amazement at Aurora. She was looking into a telescope, completely still and oblivious to my presence. And she wasn't wearing a cloak! Was the girl nuts? It was freezing up there! I was just about to comment on it when I heard her sigh loudly and look up at the sky longingly. I was right, she is nuts. She's sighing about stars.
**Aurora**
Sirius. Brightest star in Canus Major; located next to Orion; impossibly cute knucklehead. I sighed. Why on Earth must I be infatuated with that complete imbecile?
"Aren't you cold?" Oh heavens, it was him! Sirius was out there with me. I turned around to face him and found that he was right behind me.
"What?" I asked intelligently.
"It's freezing out here, aren't you cold?" Now that I thought about it, it was a bit chilly out there. He moved towards the telescope that I had been looking through. Oh no! What if he recognizes the star that it's focused on? "So, what are you studying tonight?" He bent down to look through it, but thankfully I got there in time. I put my hand over the glass.
"That's really none of your concern, Sirius. Was there something you wanted, or did you just come out here to annoy me?" Thankfully, he moved away from the telescope. I had to fight a sigh of relief.
"If I wanted to annoy you, I could have waited 'til tomorrow instead of risking frostbite by coming out here. I need a favor." I simply raised my eyebrow at him to continue. He was standing pretty close now and I didn't really trust my voice. "I need to know who Lily likes." No, no, no, no, NO! Damn it all to hell, Sirius absolutely cannot like my best friend! A half-choked cry came out of my throat. Oops. "Are you okay?" He asked. I just waved a dismissing hand at him and started to pack up my things.
"Why do you want to know?" I asked, thankfully with a strong and steady voice. My hands however were quite the opposite and I had to keep my back to him.
"Well, I have a friend who is quite fond of the girl, but he refuses to admit it. I want to set them up so he'll stop moping around and staring at her. Really, you have no idea how annoying it's gotten. Are you in?" My hands stilled, my heartbeat slowed. It wasn't Sirius who liked her; it was one of the other boys.
"Well that all depends on who this friend is. If he's anything like you, then I'm afraid he just won't do for my dear friend Lily. Maybe if you gave me his name, I'd be more willing to help." I told him airily. This was how we negotiated on pranks too. Give a little information, insult each other, get a little information. Sirius blanched at my comment.
"He's a Marauder, of course. But I can't give you the name yet. Maybe you could be civil for a change and tell me if she likes one of them?"
"Alright, yes. But that doesn't help you very much. There are four of you. Give me a name and I'll tell you if she likes him or not. It won't be good if you try and set her and your friend up and she likes some other Marauder, now would it?" He gave me a dark look and I knew I'd won.
"If you tell her about this, I'll have you skinned alive."
"Why, too chicken to do it yourself?" He growled and I smiled widely.
"Just promise me you won't tell her!"
"Tsk, tsk, tsk. So touchy Sirius." He took a threatening step forward and I matched him for it. I wasn't nervous about being near him now; we were in our usual bantering mode.
"Aurora..."
"Sirius..." He growled again and I laughed at him. "Okay, I promise. Now tell me his name."
"It's James. Does she like him or not?"
"Well... I remember her saying something about him," like every minute of every day. "She certainly has a very strong opinion of him," like he's the most wonderful boy she ever met. "I can't remember her exact words," because she's said so much about him. "Something like..." Come on Sirius, take the bait.
"Yes?" Good puppy!
"Well, I don't know if I should tell you. You're likely to go off and tell James everything I said." He growled again. Yes, just like a temperamental puppy.
"I won't say a word to him about it. I promise. Now tell me!"
"The girl's crazy about him. Won't stop talking about him. I had to gag her to shut her up before." He let out a loud whoop and I smacked him. He gave me a wounded look.
"What was that for?"
"You're an idiot, that's why! Have you forgotten that we're not allowed to be up here? Now shut up and help me with my things. I'll bet you anything that someone heard you and they'll be up here to check it out." I pushed my bag into his arms and went for the door. We were halfway down the staircase when I realized that I'd left my notebook on top of the tower.
"I'll get it. Take your bag. I'll meet you back at the common room." I just nodded and hurried off. Sirius knew how to stay out of trouble. If he got caught, he'd talk his way out of it.
**Sirius**
Notebook, notebook, where was the damn notebook? Ah, next to the telescope. The telescope that Aurora wouldn't let me look in before. I could risk a few seconds. I looked into the glass and waited as a very familiar star came into focus. My star! Why on Earth would Aurora be sighing over my star? Unless... Well, this was an interesting turn of events.
"Mr. Black, what are you doing up here at this time of night?" This night just kept getting better and better. I turned around to face Professor McGonagall. She was new, but we had all learned that she wasn't one to out up with rule breaking.
"Well, Professor, I just wanted to do a little stargazing, but you're right, it is awfully late." I gave a big yawn to show I was tired. "I think I'll just be getting to bed now. Goodnight Professor." I started towards the door, but felt her hand clamp down on my shoulder. The woman's grip was like a vise.
"Not so fast Black."
I entered the common room to find it empty except for Aurora. The fire was all but extinguished and she was asleep in front of it, curled up in an armchair. Actually, she looked pretty cute when she slept. Ugh! Thoughts like that and I'd turn into James. So she was pretty, big deal. So were a lot of other girls in this school. So she liked me, big deal. So did a lot of other girls in this school. I set the notebook down next to her bag. And none of the other girls made me lose twenty points and get a detention. I shook my head in disgust. The things I do for friends.
**Aurora**
"You were out later than usual last night Auri. I didn't even hear you come upstairs." Chris commented as we got ready for school.
"Yeah, well that's because I fell asleep in the common room waiting for Sirius."
"Why were you waiting for him in the common room?" asked Lily. Hmm, what to tell them. I decided to tell them everything that happened except what he had wanted to talk to me about. I had promised after all.
"Are you sure it wasn't anything about asking you to Hogsmeade next week?" Christine asked for the tenth time as we entered the Great Hall.
"Chris, you're my friend, but if you don't shut up, I'll make a few well-placed comments around the wolf." I gave her a warning look and she paled considerably. The girl was hopelessly in like with Remus Lupin, but forbade any talk about it. Sirius was sitting with James, Remus and Peter. I decided I'd go thank him for getting my notebook.
"Hey Sirius, I wanted to thank you for last night. You didn't get caught after I left did you? It took you an awful long time to get back to the common room. I tried to stay awake, but it was pretty late."
"Actually, I did get caught, McGonagall didn't buy that I was just stargazing. But it's okay; it was my fault anyway. Twenty points and a detention; really, I've had worse before."
"Okay, well, thank you and I'm sorry about getting you in trouble." I felt awful as I went to sit with Chris and Lily.
**Sirius**
I looked around at my friends' faces. What was wrong with them? All she was doing was thanking me for returning a notebook! Then I realized the words she had used. Oh jeez.
"Get your minds out of the gutter boys. All I did was get a notebook for her off the Astronomy Tower." James gave me a grin.
"Yeah, sure Padfoot." I narrowed my eyes at him. The whole reason I went up there last night was to help him out.
"Aren't you behind on your Lily-watching? You've lost at least twenty seconds." I sneered at him. Loss of sleep was definitely not good for my mood. He just glared at me and went back to his breakfast. Remus beside me was shaking with silent laughter and Peter was clueless as usual.
I went back to thinking about how to get James and Lily together. I couldn't just tell him. Aurora had made me promise not to. And bothering him about it didn't work obviously. Just telling him what she said would be so easy and it's not like Auri would have to know. I'll just tell him. I really hope she doesn't find out, she'll never forgive me. Oh, what do I care? She's just a silly girl. She'll get over it.
"James, I need to tell you something." I told him quietly. We were in the library, after dinner.
"What?"
"It's about Lily."
"What is it?" he asked eagerly. "I mean, why would that concern me?" I just rolled my eyes at him and continued.
"I went to talk to Aurora last night when she was stargazing. I told her that one of my friends liked Lily and I wanted to know who she liked. It took a while, but she eventually said that Lily was constantly talking about you and that she really liked you. She made me promise not to say anything to you, but what she doesn't know won't hurt her right? Now, go and ask Lily to Hogsmeade." I started to push him toward the door, but he whirled around on me with an angry face.
"Sirius, how do you know she hasn't told Lily? I know Aurora, and she wouldn't have given away information without gaining some too. She could have already told Lily."
"Look, Aurora's honorable. I made her promise not to tell, so she won't. Unless she finds out that I've broken my promise. So you can't say a word. Now go ask Lily like a good boy and when you come back, I'll tell you what I found out about Aurora after she left the astronomy tower and you can help me decide what to do." I pushed him off again and this time he left. I turned around when I heard a book drop behind me. Aurora walked out from behind a bookcase. Her face was a mask of hurt, betrayal, and horror. Ah, shit!
**Aurora**
I must have jumped at least three feet in the air when the book fell from my hands. I came out from behind the bookcase to face him. I mustn't have looked very happy because he paled visibly. I couldn't believe he went and told James after he had promised not to. And what was that about finding something out about me? I'd bet anything that he looked into the telescope. "...decide what to do," he'd told James.
"You heard everything, didn't you?" I just nodded. I couldn't speak; my throat had closed up from being so angry. No, I wasn't angry, I was hurt. How could he break his promise like that? "I'm so sorry Aurora. Really, I'm so, so sorry."
"'What she doesn't know won't hurt her'? That didn't sound very remorseful Sirius." I knew it. My voice was shaking. Please don't let me cry in front of him!
"I am sorry, but I didn't see any other way. You have to believe me." I didn't. I didn't want to see him grovel either though.
"What did you find out about me Sirius?" I had to know if he knew. He gulped and looked at his feet.
"Well, when I went back to get your notebook, I looked into the telescope. I saw my star." I nodded at him.
"And what conclusions did you draw from that?" I sounded like I was tutoring him or something.
"Well, it probably doesn't matter anymore because you probably don't feel like that anymore after what I've done."
"What do you think I felt though?"
"Well, when I first went out onto the tower, I heard you sigh as if you wanted something." He paused and blushed. I couldn't believe my eyes. I didn't even know Sirius knew how to blush. "I figured you probably liked me or something. But like I said, you probably don't anymore." He looked up at me to gauge my reaction. I don't think I had one. My thoughts were pretty blank.
"You're right Sirius, I did like you. But I'm not sure if I still do. You're certainly not someone I want as a friend right now."
**Sirius**
She walked away, not in the direction of the doors, but deeper into the library. Probably to bury herself in reading. Aurora always read when she was upset. After she'd gotten her first detention, she'd stayed in the library for three days straight. Didn't come out to eat even. Just when she had to use the bathroom or go to class and when the librarian kicked her out at night. That had been my fault too. I'd charmed her hair to be bright green and she had gotten in trouble. I'd made up for that, hopefully I could make up for this too. I left the library to go look for Remus. James would be too busy with Lily I bet. Even that thought brought me no pleasure.
A/N: This is my second fic. I like it, but now I want to know what you think. Please review. Even flames are helpful.
The Things We Do
**Sirius**
"James, if you keep staring like that, your eyes are going to fall out." I joked as I sat down next to him. He was staring at Lily across the common room, as usual. He jumped visibly and I had to fight the urge to laugh. Now he's going to deny that he was staring at anything. 3... 2... 1.
"What? What are you talking about? I wasn't staring at anyone." Now I laughed.
"Don't you mean 'anything'? Besides, don't try to deny it, you were staring straight at Lily. Can't say I blame you really, the girl's pretty, but this is getting a little old. You've known her for almost five years, how hard can it be to talk to her?" I asked him. It really was getting tired. The poor chap's liked her since last year, but refuses to admit it.
"Sirius, you're getting a little old. I've told you a million times, I don't like Lily Evans." He replied just as Remus and Peter walked up.
"Whatcha talkin' 'bout?" asked Peter through a mouthful of Pumpkin Pasty. That boy was always eating. Remus sat down next to me, weighed down by his usual armload of books.
"I was just telling James how he should stop watching the fair Lily from afar and actually do something." James glared at me. I just grinned widely back at him.
"You know, Sirius is right James. You should ask her to go to Hogsmeade with you next week." Remus suggested.
"Brilliant idea! You should do it James; it'll be the perfect opportunity to finally tell Lily that you like her. And besides that, you'll finally stop staring at her constantly."
"Yeah, you're right it would be the perfect opportunity." I couldn't believe it, he was gonna do it? "That is, if I liked Lily, which I don't. I'm going to the library, you guys are getting annoying." I sighed heavily as my hopes came crashing down and he left the common room.
"So is he going to ask her or not?" Peter asked. I sighed again and gave him a dirty look.
"Yes he is, he just doesn't know it yet." I told him, an idea already forming in my mind.
I knew my comment would just confuse Peter, but I was too busy trying to decide what to do. I needed to get some information on Lily, but which of her friends should I talk to? Christine Cavan was on the quidditch team with me and James, but she was also really loyal and not likely to give up much information. Aurora Nowell was Lily's other good friend. Auri was also very loyal and sometimes downright overprotective when it came to her friends, but I had collaborated with her on pranks before. I knew she'd help me if I could convince her that it was a good idea to get Lily and James together.
Now, where was that girl? I could see Lily across the room trying to coax Chris into doing some homework, but Auri was MIA. What day was it? Thursday. Okay, now what time? 10:00 PM. Aha! That meant she would be stargazing right now.
As I opened the door onto the astronomy tower I pulled my cloak tighter around me. It was late November and bound to be damn cold out there. Great, I was right. I pulled the cloak even tighter and stared in amazement at Aurora. She was looking into a telescope, completely still and oblivious to my presence. And she wasn't wearing a cloak! Was the girl nuts? It was freezing up there! I was just about to comment on it when I heard her sigh loudly and look up at the sky longingly. I was right, she is nuts. She's sighing about stars.
**Aurora**
Sirius. Brightest star in Canus Major; located next to Orion; impossibly cute knucklehead. I sighed. Why on Earth must I be infatuated with that complete imbecile?
"Aren't you cold?" Oh heavens, it was him! Sirius was out there with me. I turned around to face him and found that he was right behind me.
"What?" I asked intelligently.
"It's freezing out here, aren't you cold?" Now that I thought about it, it was a bit chilly out there. He moved towards the telescope that I had been looking through. Oh no! What if he recognizes the star that it's focused on? "So, what are you studying tonight?" He bent down to look through it, but thankfully I got there in time. I put my hand over the glass.
"That's really none of your concern, Sirius. Was there something you wanted, or did you just come out here to annoy me?" Thankfully, he moved away from the telescope. I had to fight a sigh of relief.
"If I wanted to annoy you, I could have waited 'til tomorrow instead of risking frostbite by coming out here. I need a favor." I simply raised my eyebrow at him to continue. He was standing pretty close now and I didn't really trust my voice. "I need to know who Lily likes." No, no, no, no, NO! Damn it all to hell, Sirius absolutely cannot like my best friend! A half-choked cry came out of my throat. Oops. "Are you okay?" He asked. I just waved a dismissing hand at him and started to pack up my things.
"Why do you want to know?" I asked, thankfully with a strong and steady voice. My hands however were quite the opposite and I had to keep my back to him.
"Well, I have a friend who is quite fond of the girl, but he refuses to admit it. I want to set them up so he'll stop moping around and staring at her. Really, you have no idea how annoying it's gotten. Are you in?" My hands stilled, my heartbeat slowed. It wasn't Sirius who liked her; it was one of the other boys.
"Well that all depends on who this friend is. If he's anything like you, then I'm afraid he just won't do for my dear friend Lily. Maybe if you gave me his name, I'd be more willing to help." I told him airily. This was how we negotiated on pranks too. Give a little information, insult each other, get a little information. Sirius blanched at my comment.
"He's a Marauder, of course. But I can't give you the name yet. Maybe you could be civil for a change and tell me if she likes one of them?"
"Alright, yes. But that doesn't help you very much. There are four of you. Give me a name and I'll tell you if she likes him or not. It won't be good if you try and set her and your friend up and she likes some other Marauder, now would it?" He gave me a dark look and I knew I'd won.
"If you tell her about this, I'll have you skinned alive."
"Why, too chicken to do it yourself?" He growled and I smiled widely.
"Just promise me you won't tell her!"
"Tsk, tsk, tsk. So touchy Sirius." He took a threatening step forward and I matched him for it. I wasn't nervous about being near him now; we were in our usual bantering mode.
"Aurora..."
"Sirius..." He growled again and I laughed at him. "Okay, I promise. Now tell me his name."
"It's James. Does she like him or not?"
"Well... I remember her saying something about him," like every minute of every day. "She certainly has a very strong opinion of him," like he's the most wonderful boy she ever met. "I can't remember her exact words," because she's said so much about him. "Something like..." Come on Sirius, take the bait.
"Yes?" Good puppy!
"Well, I don't know if I should tell you. You're likely to go off and tell James everything I said." He growled again. Yes, just like a temperamental puppy.
"I won't say a word to him about it. I promise. Now tell me!"
"The girl's crazy about him. Won't stop talking about him. I had to gag her to shut her up before." He let out a loud whoop and I smacked him. He gave me a wounded look.
"What was that for?"
"You're an idiot, that's why! Have you forgotten that we're not allowed to be up here? Now shut up and help me with my things. I'll bet you anything that someone heard you and they'll be up here to check it out." I pushed my bag into his arms and went for the door. We were halfway down the staircase when I realized that I'd left my notebook on top of the tower.
"I'll get it. Take your bag. I'll meet you back at the common room." I just nodded and hurried off. Sirius knew how to stay out of trouble. If he got caught, he'd talk his way out of it.
**Sirius**
Notebook, notebook, where was the damn notebook? Ah, next to the telescope. The telescope that Aurora wouldn't let me look in before. I could risk a few seconds. I looked into the glass and waited as a very familiar star came into focus. My star! Why on Earth would Aurora be sighing over my star? Unless... Well, this was an interesting turn of events.
"Mr. Black, what are you doing up here at this time of night?" This night just kept getting better and better. I turned around to face Professor McGonagall. She was new, but we had all learned that she wasn't one to out up with rule breaking.
"Well, Professor, I just wanted to do a little stargazing, but you're right, it is awfully late." I gave a big yawn to show I was tired. "I think I'll just be getting to bed now. Goodnight Professor." I started towards the door, but felt her hand clamp down on my shoulder. The woman's grip was like a vise.
"Not so fast Black."
I entered the common room to find it empty except for Aurora. The fire was all but extinguished and she was asleep in front of it, curled up in an armchair. Actually, she looked pretty cute when she slept. Ugh! Thoughts like that and I'd turn into James. So she was pretty, big deal. So were a lot of other girls in this school. So she liked me, big deal. So did a lot of other girls in this school. I set the notebook down next to her bag. And none of the other girls made me lose twenty points and get a detention. I shook my head in disgust. The things I do for friends.
**Aurora**
"You were out later than usual last night Auri. I didn't even hear you come upstairs." Chris commented as we got ready for school.
"Yeah, well that's because I fell asleep in the common room waiting for Sirius."
"Why were you waiting for him in the common room?" asked Lily. Hmm, what to tell them. I decided to tell them everything that happened except what he had wanted to talk to me about. I had promised after all.
"Are you sure it wasn't anything about asking you to Hogsmeade next week?" Christine asked for the tenth time as we entered the Great Hall.
"Chris, you're my friend, but if you don't shut up, I'll make a few well-placed comments around the wolf." I gave her a warning look and she paled considerably. The girl was hopelessly in like with Remus Lupin, but forbade any talk about it. Sirius was sitting with James, Remus and Peter. I decided I'd go thank him for getting my notebook.
"Hey Sirius, I wanted to thank you for last night. You didn't get caught after I left did you? It took you an awful long time to get back to the common room. I tried to stay awake, but it was pretty late."
"Actually, I did get caught, McGonagall didn't buy that I was just stargazing. But it's okay; it was my fault anyway. Twenty points and a detention; really, I've had worse before."
"Okay, well, thank you and I'm sorry about getting you in trouble." I felt awful as I went to sit with Chris and Lily.
**Sirius**
I looked around at my friends' faces. What was wrong with them? All she was doing was thanking me for returning a notebook! Then I realized the words she had used. Oh jeez.
"Get your minds out of the gutter boys. All I did was get a notebook for her off the Astronomy Tower." James gave me a grin.
"Yeah, sure Padfoot." I narrowed my eyes at him. The whole reason I went up there last night was to help him out.
"Aren't you behind on your Lily-watching? You've lost at least twenty seconds." I sneered at him. Loss of sleep was definitely not good for my mood. He just glared at me and went back to his breakfast. Remus beside me was shaking with silent laughter and Peter was clueless as usual.
I went back to thinking about how to get James and Lily together. I couldn't just tell him. Aurora had made me promise not to. And bothering him about it didn't work obviously. Just telling him what she said would be so easy and it's not like Auri would have to know. I'll just tell him. I really hope she doesn't find out, she'll never forgive me. Oh, what do I care? She's just a silly girl. She'll get over it.
"James, I need to tell you something." I told him quietly. We were in the library, after dinner.
"What?"
"It's about Lily."
"What is it?" he asked eagerly. "I mean, why would that concern me?" I just rolled my eyes at him and continued.
"I went to talk to Aurora last night when she was stargazing. I told her that one of my friends liked Lily and I wanted to know who she liked. It took a while, but she eventually said that Lily was constantly talking about you and that she really liked you. She made me promise not to say anything to you, but what she doesn't know won't hurt her right? Now, go and ask Lily to Hogsmeade." I started to push him toward the door, but he whirled around on me with an angry face.
"Sirius, how do you know she hasn't told Lily? I know Aurora, and she wouldn't have given away information without gaining some too. She could have already told Lily."
"Look, Aurora's honorable. I made her promise not to tell, so she won't. Unless she finds out that I've broken my promise. So you can't say a word. Now go ask Lily like a good boy and when you come back, I'll tell you what I found out about Aurora after she left the astronomy tower and you can help me decide what to do." I pushed him off again and this time he left. I turned around when I heard a book drop behind me. Aurora walked out from behind a bookcase. Her face was a mask of hurt, betrayal, and horror. Ah, shit!
**Aurora**
I must have jumped at least three feet in the air when the book fell from my hands. I came out from behind the bookcase to face him. I mustn't have looked very happy because he paled visibly. I couldn't believe he went and told James after he had promised not to. And what was that about finding something out about me? I'd bet anything that he looked into the telescope. "...decide what to do," he'd told James.
"You heard everything, didn't you?" I just nodded. I couldn't speak; my throat had closed up from being so angry. No, I wasn't angry, I was hurt. How could he break his promise like that? "I'm so sorry Aurora. Really, I'm so, so sorry."
"'What she doesn't know won't hurt her'? That didn't sound very remorseful Sirius." I knew it. My voice was shaking. Please don't let me cry in front of him!
"I am sorry, but I didn't see any other way. You have to believe me." I didn't. I didn't want to see him grovel either though.
"What did you find out about me Sirius?" I had to know if he knew. He gulped and looked at his feet.
"Well, when I went back to get your notebook, I looked into the telescope. I saw my star." I nodded at him.
"And what conclusions did you draw from that?" I sounded like I was tutoring him or something.
"Well, it probably doesn't matter anymore because you probably don't feel like that anymore after what I've done."
"What do you think I felt though?"
"Well, when I first went out onto the tower, I heard you sigh as if you wanted something." He paused and blushed. I couldn't believe my eyes. I didn't even know Sirius knew how to blush. "I figured you probably liked me or something. But like I said, you probably don't anymore." He looked up at me to gauge my reaction. I don't think I had one. My thoughts were pretty blank.
"You're right Sirius, I did like you. But I'm not sure if I still do. You're certainly not someone I want as a friend right now."
**Sirius**
She walked away, not in the direction of the doors, but deeper into the library. Probably to bury herself in reading. Aurora always read when she was upset. After she'd gotten her first detention, she'd stayed in the library for three days straight. Didn't come out to eat even. Just when she had to use the bathroom or go to class and when the librarian kicked her out at night. That had been my fault too. I'd charmed her hair to be bright green and she had gotten in trouble. I'd made up for that, hopefully I could make up for this too. I left the library to go look for Remus. James would be too busy with Lily I bet. Even that thought brought me no pleasure.