L, have you ever wanted something sweet?
I made my way up the stairs like I always did, silently counting in my head 1,2,3. You were not here,
at my side like it was meant to be. How I missed your happy laughter, the way you chattered on and
on? I missed that, the way you used to say that I was to introverted, that I needed to talk more,
laugh more. I wish I could have laughed with you more often...
Something so sweet, that you choked?
I still have the moment burned in my mind, the first time you saw me smile. It was after your attempt
to get me some jam had ended with a broken container and strawberry jam everywhere remember
you face, first helpless( you always were clumsy...), then anxious( and confirming your fears, no the
stain would NOT come out of the rug), shocked ( because I had smiled), and then... love?
And then you found yourself thinking, I do not want this sweet thing anymore.
It was so sad to see you change, to see your head buried in books when you should have been playing
with me. I told myself I was being selfish, and I drifted even further apart from you. Leading you to
your grave...
So you pushed it aside...
It finally drove you over the edge when, in an attempt to get closer to my beloved L, I became
number 2, leaving you to my previous spot of 3. You came screaming, calling me a traitor and a liar,
and I screamed back, those words that I could never take back. "You're just mad because I love L
more then you!" "I never loved you!" Instead of acting like the fiery boy I used to know, always so
ready to fight for (and with) me, your green eyes shadowed over, and you slowly walked up the steps.
1,2,3, 1,2,3
Never again to return
They had taken everything away but the noose, I wouldn't let them take away my last memory
of you. I always would think guiltily, I loved L more. And then I would slide my slender hands around
the noose, thinking, wondering what lead him to this decision, And knowing for certain.
As if you didn't know, I'm leaving this hell
Dearest L,
I will meet you quite soon
Beyond birthday
Ophelia Ember here! Well this is beyond just reflecting on his friendship with A, and he Italicized part is his good bye note. Im not sure about how good this is, seeing how I was on a sugar-high at the time.
*ALSO* this was dedicated to my friend, Dark Winged BeyondBirthday.
REVIW OR I SICK MY CAT ARMY ON YOU!( Margot, Bella, Near(or charming), Comet, Lawliett,and Oliver!)
Disclaimer: I don't own L, beyond birthday, or the term "goodbye note" (ohhhhh that sounds like a good idea for a fanfiction...)