Chapter 1

She stood at the dock with the wind blowing in her hair and tears streaming down her face. The chill of the cold February air nearly froze the water on her cheeks; she wiped her face with her gloved hands.

How could it end up this way? If she had just told Lucky the truth, maybe it would have never come to this. It had been two very long days since she was humiliated at what was supposed to be the best day of her life, her wedding.

Elizabeth walked into the church that morning and breathed a sigh of relief. It was finally going to happen. She was getting the stable life she longed for. She would of course miss the excitement of her younger years, but many events in her life have changed that girl into a woman. She would be content living her life with Lucky, and extremely happy that her boys would have a permanent father figure in there life. Permanence is something she longed for. People were always, coming and going. This time Lucky was going to stay. She had made sure of it; last night she finally cut off all ties with Nikolas. The night before he came to her, begging her not to marry his brother. It had been over a month since they have been together intimately or she had even said more than two words to him. She was honestly in shock when he showed up at her doorstep. She offered him in since she thought he had gotten the message she was set on her life with Lucky; she only thought he had come over to give her his blessing. She never was in love with Nikolas; she didn't know what ever brought them together in such a surprising way; she just assumed he needed a replacement for Emily, and her heart also mourned for her deceased best friend. She narrowed it down to comfort of still mourning over her tragic death. She regretted her affair with Nikolas; she was glad that she was moving on and marrying Lucky, and he would never have to know the pain she could have caused a lot of people she loved.

"I wanted to talk to you about tomorrow," Nikolas said with no emotion and a blank stare in his eyes.

Elizabeth started before he could talk, "I am really glad that you could come around and let me and Lucky…"

"Don't marry him," Nikolas didn't even let her finish.

"What?"

Nikolas rubbed him hands down his face and grabbed Elizabeth by the arms, "Elizabeth, I need you, and I know you need me. Don't marry Lucky."

"Nikolas, what are you talking about? We haven't been together in quite a few weeks; we are over and I am going to marry Lucky and have the family that my children need…"

Once again, he didn't let her finish, "Shut up!"

She couldn't even get another word out before he pulled her in and kissed her hard. She kissed back at first, but she quickly realized that there was no spark that was falsely there before. She shoved him away, "Get away from me! You have no right Nikolas, no right! Don't come in to my house on my wedding night and tell me what and who I need. I am marrying Lucky tomorrow, and as far as we are concerned, it never happened."

"Elizabeth, don't say that, you know that you love me. You aren't in love with Lucky..."

This time she didn't let him finish, "I think you should go." She walked over to the door and opened it.

"Eliza-…"

"Goodbye Nikolas," she didn't even look at him as he hung his head and walked passed her out the door.

She leaned against the door after it was shut and sank down to the floor. How dare he tell her that she wasn't in love with Lucky. He had no right to tell her about who she was in love with. She definitely knew she did love Lucky; he was a big part of her life; how could she not have love for him. She also definitely knew she was not in love with Nikolas. She was going to marry Lucky. Little did she know that someone had witnessed part of her meeting with Nikolas.

Sitting in the bridal room at the church, Robin was doing some final touches on her own make-up. Elizabeth was ready to go, sitting, anticipating. Robin started the conversation, "So how many times is this you get to marry the man you love?"

Elizabeth smirked, "This is the last time I will marry Lucky. This is it, it's forever this time."

There was a knock at the door. It was Lulu, "It's time."

The doors opened from the vestibule of the church into the chapel. Elizabeth took a big sigh before her walk down the aisle. She gave small smiles to those who came to join the ceremony sitting in the pews and looked ahead to Robin and Lulu gleaming with huge smiles of excitement. She felt unsteady as she looked at Lucky, she couldn't read his eyes. She met him at the altar, and the crowd was seated. Elizabeth and Lucky turned to each other to hold hands, he gripped her hard. He wasn't smiling; he was serious, she thought for sure that she would be making Lucky the happiest man alive today; he was smiling. As the priest started on, his grip on her hands tightened and Elizabeth felt uneasy. The priest was still talking when Lucky started to speak, "You… you walked all the way down that aisle, came to the altar and turned to look me in the eyes, you were going to marry me." His words were stern.

Elizabeth tried to whisper back to him, "Lucky, what are you doing?"

"You…" There was anger in his voice now, "Lying, all this time, and I thought you were in love with ME!"

"Lucky, what are you talking about, of course I love you; you are the father to my children."

He laughed sarcastically as she said that and then the anger turned again in his eyes, "You betrayed me… with my brother."

Elizabeth sighed with shock. He knew.

He walked down the aisle and out of the church.

That was two days ago, and here she stood. Crying, as she had been since the church. She barely spoke to anyone. Robin clued her into Lucky being outside of her house when Nikolas stopped by and he stormed away during their kissed only to go to Wyndemere to wait for Nikolas when he returned home where Nikolas confessed everything to Lucky out of spite. She was alone; her boys were with her Gram. Audrey was going to have them for a week while she was supposed to be on her honeymoon with Lucky, but decided to still keep them so Elizabeth could have time to figure things out. The past two days were dark for her, and she was having vivid dreams of things that should have been or could have been. She felt like she was going to lose it.

After being quiet in her thoughts, she spoke out loud to herself, "I think I am going crazy…"

A dark voice came from behind her, "We all go a little crazy sometimes."