Here I go writing another ken fic. But this one is special it's a song ifc. I don't own ken I just own his kaizer whip. I don't own this song either. Linkin park owns it Ken's POV
Crawling
I've had a hard time concentrating lately. I suppose discovering I was evil has something to do with it. Thank Kami-sama I'm finally out of school and home. I walk to my CD player and but on my linkin park "hybrid theory" cd and skip to my favorite song "Crawling". I lay down on my bed and listen to the lyrics.
Crawling in my skin
These wounds, they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real
I've done horrible things, to others and myself. Though I've tried to make up for it I haven't been able to it yet. I've been so scared lately. Scared that I will turn like that. Scared that I will once again confuse reality with fantasy. And knowing me it's very likely I would.
There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
Consuming, confusing
This lack of self control I fear is never ending
Controlling
Sometimes it feels like something is controlling me. Even now when I'm supposed to be free I still feel like something is controlling me. Keeping me back, keeping me unhappy.
I can't seem
To find myself again
My walls are closing in
(Without a sense of confidence I'm convinced that there's just too much pressure to take)
I've felt this way before
So insecure
I've been searching within myself but I can't find who I really am. Ever since I was little I was thought I was one person but when I found out how evil I had become I didn't know who I was. And I still don't. My memories haunt me reminding me who I was. Refusing to let me see who I really am. And I have no way to find myself once again.
Crawling in my skin
These wounds, they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real
No matter how hard I try I can't forgive myself for what I have done. Not that I can really blame myself for that. I was a monster, anyone could see that.
Discomfort, endlessly has pulled itself upon me
Distracting, reacting
Against my will I stand beside my own reflection
It's haunting how I can't seem...
I feel so uncomfortable lately. They say they have forgiven me yet they always seem to have a reaction to what I say, especially that Iori kid. Sometimes images of me as the kaizer flash through my head as if to make sure I stay miserable.
To find myself again
My walls are closing in
(Without a sense of confidence I'm convinced that there's just too much pressure to take)
I've felt this way before
So insecure
I used to be so confident now I'm the exact opposite. I guess the pressure is finally becoming too much for me to handle. When did I become so insecure anyways? I used to be so sure of myself but now……
Crawling in my skin
These wounds, they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real
Crawling in my skin
These wounds, they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real
There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
Consuming, confusing
This lack of self control I fear is never ending
Controlling (Whispered during chorus)
This fear is controlling me. I no longer no what is real and what is not I've confused the two so much that they just seem the same. Someday my wounds may heal but until then they'll jus keep crawling in my skin.
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how was that? I thought it was good I hope u did too pleaz review ja