Letter To No One
To No One,
I am writing to no one because no one else would listen anyway.
I guess I should get that out now, before anyone starts wondering why I'm writing to no one.
Sitting here, I wonder how many people actually care about me, you know what I mean? Of course you don't.. You're just no one... You're just like me.
It is very hard to function with people depending on you like this.. I feel like I'm shutting down now. But, I have to keep going.
People are depending on me to save them.. Again.
I need to be there for the people of this world, and also for my friends, who are also my comrades-in-arms against the Dynasty.
Maybe I should have just talked to Cye, but I don't know if he would understand. He would just comfort me and say that "It will be okay", which is the last thing I need right now.
Talking to Mia, Ryo, or Kento is out of the question, anyway. Mia and Ryo would think it's their fault (which it isn't) and Kento wouldn't even hear me.
I'm really very sorry if there is a little stain on this page from my tears. It's only a few.. I hope it doesn't stain.
I wonder if anyone knows how I feel?
It's just so surreal, like it shouldn't be happening, you know? All of this with the Dynasty...
And still I wonder, why did the Ancient choose me? Why did he have to wreck the life that I had just gotten the hang of living?
I shouldn't complain. I would hate worse to be one of the people fleeing from Tulpa's destruction.
Maybe I should talk to Rowen about this... He is my best friend, after all.
I don't know why I don't. Maybe I just feel that this is something I need to do alone, ne?
I suppose I need time to think. Just time to get back into condition, mentally and physically.
Cye (or was it Mia? Maybe Rowen?) once told me that it helps a lot to write a letter to yourself when you're feeling down. Well, I did. Because I am, more often than not, no one.
I mean, most of the gang relies on me for strategy (duh. My attribute is Wisdom). Rowen relies on me as his OPAC (Own Personal Alarm Clock). Mia relies on me as someone to listen to problems without making any comments at all. She once commented that once, when she was talking to me, I was so quiet that she thought, until she saw that my eyes were open, that I was asleep.
I feel weighed-down somewhat, although I guess it's normal; YOU try coping with school, friends, chores, AND saving the world sometime and tell me how YOU like it.
I guarentee you'll go out of your stark-raving mind in less than a week.
I think I've bashed myself and others enough- for now.
ARIGATO and JA NE!
- Sage Date
~*Okay, a depressing fan-fic, but a fan-fic all the same. Please R&R! Catch me at Sage_Date_Of_Korin@Yahoo.com ! Hope you enjoyed the fic!
-Sage Date*~
To No One,
I am writing to no one because no one else would listen anyway.
I guess I should get that out now, before anyone starts wondering why I'm writing to no one.
Sitting here, I wonder how many people actually care about me, you know what I mean? Of course you don't.. You're just no one... You're just like me.
It is very hard to function with people depending on you like this.. I feel like I'm shutting down now. But, I have to keep going.
People are depending on me to save them.. Again.
I need to be there for the people of this world, and also for my friends, who are also my comrades-in-arms against the Dynasty.
Maybe I should have just talked to Cye, but I don't know if he would understand. He would just comfort me and say that "It will be okay", which is the last thing I need right now.
Talking to Mia, Ryo, or Kento is out of the question, anyway. Mia and Ryo would think it's their fault (which it isn't) and Kento wouldn't even hear me.
I'm really very sorry if there is a little stain on this page from my tears. It's only a few.. I hope it doesn't stain.
I wonder if anyone knows how I feel?
It's just so surreal, like it shouldn't be happening, you know? All of this with the Dynasty...
And still I wonder, why did the Ancient choose me? Why did he have to wreck the life that I had just gotten the hang of living?
I shouldn't complain. I would hate worse to be one of the people fleeing from Tulpa's destruction.
Maybe I should talk to Rowen about this... He is my best friend, after all.
I don't know why I don't. Maybe I just feel that this is something I need to do alone, ne?
I suppose I need time to think. Just time to get back into condition, mentally and physically.
Cye (or was it Mia? Maybe Rowen?) once told me that it helps a lot to write a letter to yourself when you're feeling down. Well, I did. Because I am, more often than not, no one.
I mean, most of the gang relies on me for strategy (duh. My attribute is Wisdom). Rowen relies on me as his OPAC (Own Personal Alarm Clock). Mia relies on me as someone to listen to problems without making any comments at all. She once commented that once, when she was talking to me, I was so quiet that she thought, until she saw that my eyes were open, that I was asleep.
I feel weighed-down somewhat, although I guess it's normal; YOU try coping with school, friends, chores, AND saving the world sometime and tell me how YOU like it.
I guarentee you'll go out of your stark-raving mind in less than a week.
I think I've bashed myself and others enough- for now.
ARIGATO and JA NE!
- Sage Date
~*Okay, a depressing fan-fic, but a fan-fic all the same. Please R&R! Catch me at Sage_Date_Of_Korin@Yahoo.com ! Hope you enjoyed the fic!
-Sage Date*~