Hi, this is my first fanfic, so please no flames!
I'm Australian and I am a massive twilight fan and I am utterly obsessed! Team Edward all the way!
So read and review, I hope you like it!
Thinking Of You
Based on the song 'Thinking Of You' by Katy Perry
Summary: This story is based in New Moon after Edward has left. Bella has just gotten back from going to the movies with Jacob and Mike. Bella hears this song on the radio and is consumed with guilt. This is after she has called to check on Jacob but before she came down with the stomach flu.
Bella POV
I was laying in my bed staring out the window, which I always left open now, even if it was raining. I just couldn't close it, that window being open helped me to remember Edward's cool touch when he would come in at night, with all the lights out and Charlie fast asleep.
Groaning I reached out to turn on my bedside lamp, I looked at the clock it read 9:00pm in bright red numbers. Charlie had to go in to work to pick up a file he would need to go over tonight in order to have it ready for tomorrow, he would be home soon. So I was alone. Like that was a surprise, I've been alone ever since-
I shuddered it hurt to remember that night. Sighing I lifted myself out of bed and toward my radio, listening to music was hard for me, but right now I just wanted something besides this silence in the house. I turned on the radio and adjusted it to a suitable volume.
It was on the American top fifty;
'Alright everybody' the announcer screamed through the radio, 'tonight we have Ms. Katy Perry's new song to play! And here it is; Katy Perry, Thinking Of You'
Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed
It was true, no human or vampire could ever compare to Edward, he was the ripest apple, he was the forbidden fruit I was terrified to forget.
You said move on
Where do I go
I guess second best
Is all I will know
Had Edward known about Jacob? Did Alice see this happening once he left? I know Jake wanted something more from this relationship, but I wasn't ready. Or was this what Edward had wanted?
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
Of course I was always thinking of Edward, he was my life. And even though Jake was helping me heal, It still felt strange having him hold me instead of Edward.
You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise centre
How do I get better
Once I've had the best
Edward really was like a surprise, a mythical creature like nothing ever seen or heard of before.
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the waters I will test
Edward didn't exactly say those words but I know he meant it. He wanted to live without me and me without him. I think he would have wanted me to be happy. But is happy with Jake and not him? Never. I would always want him.
He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself
Jake hadn't gone that far, but I knew he wanted to. I meant more to him in a relationship sense than he did to me. I am so cruel. I guess I am still the stupid lamb.
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into...
Edward, you are the only one, forever.
You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
And that's what I had done. Me, still being a human, never good enough for him and not strong enough to stop him.
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know
I had learned my lesson; Edward was too good for me. And that fact burned deep into my soul.
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
I will never forget his eyes. Beautiful beyond words. A wonderful liquid gold.
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay...
If only he would come back to me, hold me and never let me go. Make me like him so that we could live forever with each other. Looking in each others eyes….
I switched off the radio and crawled back into bed.
"I love you Edward".
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