DISCLAIMER: I do not own Sons of Anarchy.

AN: Thank you Emmie Elliott for all your help and everything you do. I couldn't have done this without you.

A heartfelt thanks McIlwain for your continued support.

Rated MATURE for a reason: language and sex.

WARNING- SEXUAL CONTENT

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Part I - LIES

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LIES

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The whole world is full of lies,

you can't helping telling some, and you can't help believing some.

You can lie to yourself,

but you know the truth.

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Rounding the corner as Jax gets closer it warms his heart to see the yellow glow coming through the windows of the little blue house up ahead. The anticipation of what's awaiting for him on the other side of those windows makes Jax want to hit the throttle harder to get there faster. Jax has missed not being able to see his family this week.

This past week has been a long ass week for Jax, having to entertain every President and Vice President of the Sons of Anarchy's west coast charters. They came to Charming to discuss and look at SAMCRO's new legit businesses and how they run. It's the first meeting SAMCRO has ever had of this nature and to say it has been different is an understatement. SAMCRO wondered what their visitors would think about the lack of scantily clad women and hard partying SAMCRO has notoriously been known for in the past. Most of the Presidents and Vice Presidents, who have old ladies and families at home seemed to enjoy the new laid back atmosphere around the new SAMCRO clubhouse. If hard partying is what they wanted all they had to do was go up to Diosa and the escorts, or the Cavern where the crow eaters and sweet butts flocked as soon as they heard there was fresh SOA meat in town. There was plenty of scantily clad women and partying going on to satisfy their every need.

Laughs and giggles emanating from within his home hit Jax as soon as he opens the door. Due to club obligations Jax hasn't been able to be home before his boys went to bed this week and he missed them terribly. He has missed their hugs, kisses, and laughter ring through the house. He just fucking missed them, that's all there is to it.

Every night Jax would stand at the bedroom doorway and watch Tara sleep. The light would shine through the cracked bathroom door and illuminate her peaceful face. Slipping into bed Jax pulled her closer to him and she would lay her head on his chest and snuggle into his side like she has always done.

As soon as the door shut Abel and Thomas' heads whip around. Their eyes get big and they run full force- one runs while the other waddles as fast as they can right for their daddy.

"Daddy!"

"Daee!"

Jax bends down as they run into his awaiting arms. He lifts his sons up one in each arm giving each one a kiss on their cheeks as Thomas sits on Jax's arm bouncing up and down, clapping his little hands excitedly happy to see his daddy. Abel wraps his little arms around Jax's neck and kisses Jax's cheek. There is nothing more humbling than the unconditional love of a child. Abel and Thomas don't care if Jax is the President of a motorcycle club. They don't care what he can do for them or what they can do for him. All they care about is he's Daddy, just plain and simple Daddy- their hero. It's that unwavering faith his sons have in him that makes Jax strive to do better- to be the person they think he is. They're one of the reasons Jax has worked so hard making the club legit, Tara is the other. "I missed you boys."

Abel smiles at Jax. "We missed you, Daddy."

"What have you been doing?" Jax asks his sons as he holds them close to his chest loving the fresh smell of lotion and baby powder.

Abel answers. "Watching TV and playing waiting for Mommy." Thomas nods his little head and throws his chubby little arms around Jax's neck holding on tight while giving Jax a big wet sloppy kiss on Jax's cheek. Thomas missed his daddy too.

Jax looks at Thomas and kisses Thomas on top of his head. "Thank you buddy, where's Mommy?"

Abel points back towards Jax's bedroom. Thomas nods and points in the same direction.

Jax sets the boys back down so they can go back to watching cartoons and playing. Jax gives each one a kiss on the top of their heads then he heads off to his bedroom.

Tara has been in and out of the clubhouse this week making brief periodic appearances checking to make sure everything was running smoothly for Jax's meetings. Tara had Opie's Diner cater the food for the men and she made sure their lodging quarters had everything that was needed and anything else requiring her attention. The club- Tara- hired a cleaning crew to come in and clean the clubhouse, dorms and guest quarters when she took over as SAMCRO's Queen. Tara eliminated the need for crow eaters hanging around doing 'chores' around the clubhouse and living quarters. Tara isn't Gemma and Tara doesn't feel the need to be hanging around the club every second waiting to swoop in at any minute to stick her nose in something where it doesn't belong and for that, Jax is forever grateful. Jax was always busy in meetings when Tara would stop in at the clubhouse and Jax didn't have a chance to see her and he'll admit he was disappointed and missed her.

Walking into their bedroom the first thing Jax does is open the hidden lock box where they keep their weapons locked up and, out of the reach of his nosey little boys. You never know when Abel will be looking for a knife to cut his sandwich or some shit then cut off a finger instead. Jax can't take the chance of something happening to either one of his boys. After locking his Glock and Ka-Bar inside Jax commences to the bathroom getting ready to speak, instead, stops dead in his tracks and snaps his mouth shut as a small smile forms on his lips and his blue eyes sparkle. Jax moans as he watches his wife step out of the shower with clear liquid beads of water dripping down her body and all Jax wants to do is take his tongue and lick off each bead on her curvaceous body. But, then, the worst thing that could happen- happens. Tara wraps herself in a small towel. Jax has just developed a hatred for the small rectangular white piece of terry cloth wrapped around Tara's body- he wishes it was him. He looks up to see his wife's smiling face. Jax realizes she's been watching him ogle her. Tara crosses the room walking up to him. She shyly says, "Hey."

Wrapping Tara in his arms, the aroma of her sweet pea body wash engulfs his senses. Jax hovers, his mouth over Tara's sweet lips before he dips down to taste their sweet nectar. They both moan as the familiar fire ignites through their bodies. Jax pulls Tara close to him wanting her to feel his need and desire for her. It's been a week- a long ass week and they both need each other. Jax's tongue parts her lips and Tara offers what he's seeking and their tongues slowly entwine.

Finally, Tara comes up for air. Breathlessly she gasps. "Jax... the boys... we can't not now."

Jax's head stops swimming from the blissful state it was in back to reality. He brings his forehead to hers. "Then when? I've missed you. Have they eaten yet?"

Tara nods, as she plays with the buttons on Jax's shirt. "Yes, we've eaten and they've had their baths now they're just watching TV waiting for me to read to them. After I dry my hair and dress I'll read them their story and put them to bed." Tara looks up into Jax's eyes. "Then I'm all yours for the rest of the night."

Jax smirks down at Tara tilting her chin up with the crook of his forefinger to look in her eyes. "Okay. I'm going to go spend some time with our boys. We'll be waiting for you when you're finished." Jax gives Tara a quick kiss and a pat on the ass before going to spend some time with his boys.

When Tara finishes drying her hair she changes into a SAMCRO t-shirt and a pair of shorts. She walks into the living room to find Jax sitting on the couch reading to the boys with Abel on one side of him and Thomas on the other side leaning against Jax's side fast asleep.

Tara stops in the doorway smiling and laughing looking at her boys, all three of them where they belong. She walks over and carefully picks Thomas up trying not to wake him and takes him back to his room putting him to bed. Jax smiles at her while continuing to read to Abel whose eyelids are slowly drooping more and more as Jax reads about the little boy and his best friend the fire breathing dragon. When Jax finishes the story and closes the book Abel is sound asleep. Jax carefully stands and takes a sleeping Abel back to his room to put Abel in his bed. Tara walks in and kisses Abel good night as Jax lays him down.

Jax and Tara leave Abel's room quietly together. When they get in the hall Tara heads into the living room as Jax stops off in the kitchen to get him a beer. As he heads out of the kitchen his phone rings. "Yeah," Jax looks at Tara with a strange look she has never seen before, Jax hasn't taken his eyes off of her. Then he turns his back to her before he hangs up. "Alright thanks."

"Who was that, Jax?"

Jax closes his eyes and pinches the bridge of his nose taking deep breaths bracing himself as he turns around to face Tara. Looking directly into Tara's green eyes Jax knows this is his fault, his and his club's. "Roosevelt. He said they are in the process of issuing a warrant for your arrest- conspiracy to commit murder in the death of the prison nurse."

Tara lets out a gasp. What Tara has feared for months has finally happened. This can't be happening. Is it really happening? My life is over. It's ruined. I've lost everything I worked so hard to obtain but most of all I've lost my boys. My boys, my sweet innocent boys what will happen to them now? Who will raise them? How will I live without them? Oh god, no.

Jax's eyes tear up as he watches the heartbreaking expressions on his wife's face as she breaks down everything that's happening in her mind. The guilt Jax feels in the pit of his stomach is like none other he's ever felt before. It's stronger than the guilt he carried when Abel was born. His wife has sacrificed everything because she loves him and their boys. Tara was trying to get her family out of Charming to a place where they would be safe. She didn't do this for the club. It was never about the club. It was all about Tara's love for her family.

Closing the distance between them Jax feels Tara's body tremble when Jax engulfs her in his arms. Drawing Tara firm against his chest, holding her heart over his, Jax wills Tara the strength to get through whatever lies ahead. "Eli told me to call Lowen. He said it will be a couple of hours before the warrant comes through."

Everyone has been walking around on eggshells for months hoping this wouldn't become a reality. Jax has been behind those barred doors before and knows what goes on behind them. Jax can't fathom his sweet precious wife being locked up because of him and the club. "Tara. Look at me." When Tara's tear filled green eyes look up at Jax he automatically wipes the tears off her cheeks with his thumbs. Laying his hand against her cheek Tara leans into his hand and closes her eyes. "We're going to get through this, babe." Jax's thumb gently strokes Tara's cheek lying in his hand. "I will do everything and anything to get you cleared of these charges. Even if it means I have to blow up the damn jail to get you out." Tara looks up at Jax and gives him a slight, soft smile.

"I love you, Tara, and everything is going to work out I promise you baby. I've loved you since we were kids and I still love you. You're in my blood. You're it for me babe, you always have been. You're the only woman I've ever loved and that's not going to change. You know how strong my love is for you, don't you?

Tara looks into Jax's blue eyes seeing the truth in them. The truth of everything he's said. "Yes, Jax, I know."

"We are going to get you home as soon as possible, where you belong."

Suddenly Tara looks exhausted. "I know. I'm going to go drown myself in the shower before Lowen gets here."

"I'll call Lowen then I will be there in a minute." Jax calls after Tara as she walks down the hall to take another shower to let the shower drown out her heartbreaking sobs and wash her tears away.

Back through the years there were so many times I wish I'd gone away with Tara when she left for school. I wish I'd gotten the hell out of Charming. I've been wishing that a lot more lately. I'm not stupid I could have gotten into college if I hadn't of dropped out of school my senior year. Again that was due to the club, or Clay and Gemma. I couldn't keep burning the candle at both ends and Gemma and Clay were increasingly making it more difficult for me to stay in school. Looking back now I realize it was just more of my mother's manipulations, more of Gemma trying to control me. Gemma thought she had to box me in to keep me.

Jax shakes his head. If JT hadn't been killed I would have gone on to college, JT would have seen to it. JT didn't want this to be my life. He didn't want this for me and my family's future. But here I am and this is my life and my family's suffering because of it. All the bad things Tara predicted back before Abel was kidnapped wouldn't have come true and she wouldn't have had all these ghastly things happen to her if I had just left with her when she left for school.

Jax calls Lowen and she informs Jax. "Eli has called me already about the charges. They're having problems at county- no one in and no one out. Tara's going to be held in Charming, at least for a week and probably two if bail can't be made or if it hasn't been set yet. They don't have the proper paperwork to process her yet so there isn't any hurry. Take your time and talk to her and try to settle her nerves. I have some things I need to check on first then I'll be over at your house in about three hours."

The running shower down the hall does nothing to drown out Tara's heart wrenching sobs. Entering the bathroom Jax immediately sheds his clothes and steps into the shower. Tara turns towards Jax and snuggles in his arms laying her head on his 'Abel' tattoo; over his heart. Jax asks her. "Do you hear that? You're in there, in my heart, and you are not leaving, so don't think you are."

Grabbing the body wash and pouring some in his hand Jax is determined to take Tara's mind off this quagmire ahead of them, at least for a little while. Turning Tara around so her back is facing him Jax kisses her neck as he works his way up to her ear lightly sucking on the lobe as he washing Tara's shoulders. Kissing Tara's neck Jax washes his way down her back, stopping to use his fingertips to trace the crow nesting on her lower back. Jax bends down and kisses his crow that has adorned her back marking her as his since they were teenagers.

Reaching around Jax runs his soap filled hands on Tara's stomach working his way up to her breasts kneading and caressing them with the palms of his rough weathered hands. Jax moans squeezing and rolling her erect nipples between his thumb and forefinger until they're rigid peaks. Jax kisses Tara's cheek as his hands roam down her body causing Tara to shiver.

Goose bumps on her skin, Tara moans when Jax moves his hands across her chest ravishing her body, he can't get enough. Jax growls in her ear. "You drive me fucking crazy, Tara, all I want is you." Moving his hand farther down to rub her clit Tara slightly steps her feet apart encouraging Jax's hands lower. Jax slides one finger into her wetness and then two. Slowly Jax pumps his fingers into her wet core, in and out, in and out. Tara wants more she moans louder Jax pumps faster, his free hand kneading her breast, pinching her nipples as Tara leans her head back on his shoulder letting the sensation take over.

"Oh god, Jax, that feels so good." Jax smirks and moves his hands away. "What the hell did you do that for?" Tara snaps.

Jax laughs. "Come here, babe." Jax turns Tara around facing him taking her lips in his kissing her passionately sliding his tongue in her mouth to tangle with his as his hands wash over her, touching her, feeling her Jax can't get enough. Caressing Tara's breasts Jax bends down taking a nipple flicking it with his tongue taunting her nipple nipping it softly into a rigid peak taking in his mouth Jax sucks lightly. He turns his attention to the other one doing the same thing as he continues to roam Tara's body with his hands making sure to touch every inch of her.

Jax carefully moves Tara back against the cool shower wall. He kisses Tara's neck, sucking her flesh between his teeth leaving a dark purple mark; marking her as his. Gently nipping and sucking on her earlobe driving her crazy Tara can't stand it any longer she wants him in her now. Tara takes his dick in her hand stroking him, running her fingers lightly around the head then pumping him hard Jax groans loudly against her neck. He lifts her leg wrapping it around his waist. Jax pulls himself away from Tara's hand rubbing the head of his dick around her clit making her squirm. Jax smirks down at her looking in Tara's beautiful eyes Jax slowly enters her. Feeling her moist warmth and tightness wrapped around him is almost too much for him. His eyes roll back in his head, this is a feeling Jax doesn't ever want to be without. Slowly thrusting deeper in her sucking and biting on the crook of her neck causing Tara to moan, "Jaaax."

Jax's pace picks up, he plunges harder and harder, thrusts deeper and deeper never hard or deep enough. Pinned to the shower wall Tara's fingernails on one hand dig into Jax's shoulder, the other hand trying to hold on to the wall. Tara whimpers clenching her muscles tightly around Jax's dick as the walls of tension snap and begin to crumble as her orgasm rips through her body. "Damn Tara... damn." Their orgasms have them falling and crashing wave after wave together with a loud groan, shivers run up Jax's spine as he releases in her, holding her tight.

Arms and bodies wrapped around each other neither one wanting to let go of the other Jax leans down kissing the top of Tara's head resting on his chest. "I love you babe." Jax doesn't want his wife going away with any doubts of his love and commitment to her. Now is not the time for Tara to be worry about their relationship. Jax knows, he has been there, and when your mind isn't focused you worry about everything and anything, you get careless and careless gets you hurt, even killed. It rips Jax's heart out to have to be worrying about these things pertaining to his wife. When Jax finds who has done this to his Tara, he will rip their goddamn head off.

Jax carries Tara's pliant body to the bedroom gently laying her down on the bed and lies down beside Tara taking her in his arms holding her close. Tara can barely open her eyes but she manages a small smile for Jax. Knocked out in his arms Jax can't help but laugh watching his old lady sleep.

Have letting Tara sleep for thirty minutes Jax hates to wake her knowing she won't get much sleep after this but time is running out and Jax needs to make love to his wife again. Shifting her in his arms a smile comes to Jax's lips.

Slowly Jax kisses down Tara's neck working his way to his spot, the spot he nuzzles in when he releases himself in her. This is his spot and only his- the crook of her neck belongs to him. Tara sighs when Jax lightly kisses Tara's face and then her lips then randomly down her body and back up again. The light kisses turn into light bites along her body. The bites turn into Jax sucking and marking Tara's body as his. Through her sleepy haze Tara smiles at Jax.

Jax pulls Tara closer and tighter to his chest not ever wanting to let go of her. "Baby, I know you are scared, hell I'm scared for you. I am going to move heaven, earth and hell to get you out of this. I'll take care of our boys just as you would. It won't be the same but I am going to try my best. I won't let anything happen to them and I'm not going to let them out of my sight. I need for you to trust me."

Kissing Tara gently, Jax's kisses deepen. He runs his tongue along the outline of her bottom lip before taking it teasingly between his teeth giving it a slight tug. Jax let go of Tara's lip and flicks his tongue between them wanting to be let in, Tara slowly grants him entrance and their tongues dance together. Jax runs his hands over Tara's body he wants to touch every part of her and ingrain her in his mind. Jax cups Tara's breast, taking her pert velvety nipple in between his thumb and forefinger twisting it between his fingers. Jax breaks away from their kiss lifting Tara's hair off her neck gently nipping at her neck as Tara giggles, Jax's nips turn into sucks and the giggles turn into a moan, Jax laughs, moving down to her body to her breast flicking her nipple with his tongue making the peak hard before sucking it gently.

Jax rolls Tara on her back sucking her nipple harder twirling it around in his mouth catching it between his teeth giving it a slight tug he sucked the tortured peak. Tara arches her back towards Jax groaning begging him to suck harder Jax smiles. "I love your tits the way they feel in my mouth and hands." Jax tweaks Tara's other hard nipple moving his mouth over he captures it with his lips.

Rubbing his hard cock against Tara's leg wanting her to feel how hard she makes him. Tara slides her leg in between his legs rubbing up and down on his crotch. "See what you do to me babe, you drive me fucking insane I have to have you, I need you." Jax whispers as he lowers his mouth back to her breast bringing flesh up between his teeth sucking hard until a purple bruise appears.

Jax moves between Tara's legs bringing her knees up kissing each one as he does. Jax maneuvers his tongue from her knees to the top of her thighs continuing up to her hips, stopping there to suck on her ticklish spot. Jax moves his mouth down, teasing Tara's clit when he lightly rolls it around with his tongue. Applying more pressure with his tongue Jax can feel her clit swell. Dipping his tongue inside her, he has to taste her; taste them. "You taste so fucking good Tara." Tara writhes under Jax's mouth tangling her fingers in Jax's hair trying to hold his mouth over her, trying to get him closer. Jax laughs, prying Tara's fingers out of his hair. "No babe, not yet." Jax leans over Tara closing his mouth over hers, mingling their tongues together letting her taste their juices.

Tara's eyes are filled with lust as Jax runs his fingers through her long thick hair gently pulling her head back by her hair. He nips and sucks on her earlobe when she moans, he attacks her neck kissing, biting, licking and sucking his way down to the crook of her neck. Jax knows this drives Tara crazy. Tara moans as Jax's hands explore her body, roaming to her breast, he licks her nipples relishing her in the taste of her he has Tara's twisting under him.

Jax slowly enters Tara enjoying the wet warmth wrapped around him it almost takes his breath away. Jax gains his senses and slowly starts to move inside her enjoying the feel of her. Moving faster Tara wraps her legs around his waist locking her ankles together.

Wrapping his arms up under Tara's back, Jax hooks his hands on to her shoulders. Jax moves stroke after stroke trying to stay in control with his face in the crook of Tara's neck kissing it. Tara is hot, wet and ready; she wants to release her pent up anguish. Jax has no control of his body. Something has taken over Jax and all he can do is hold on. He feels himself getting close. Jax is trying to hold out for Tara, he wants her to cum and cum hard. Jax wants Tara to be able to enjoy it as long as she can. Jax's lips are close her ear. "Tara I love you," Jax's hot breath sends chills through her body causing Tara to clench tight around his dick. She can feel his dick swell. Tara's walls start quaking, Jax feels the familiar tingling from his toes to his spine, Jax can't hold it any longer.

Jax's hips start thrashing chasing Tara's orgasm as her body jerks convulsively against him, screaming breathlessly. "Jax," then something that sounded like a primitive mating call escapes her lips.

Holding on tight pumping in Tara harder chasing his orgasm of pleasure, he groans while filling her but his body starts bucking harder "FUCK... TARA..." he bucks harder pulling her up tighter to him. He knows he has to be hurting her but there isn't anything he can do. Jax starts hunching her, getting that tingling feeling again. Jax is at Tara's mercy his hips snap he can't get enough of her. Jax drills in Tara hard and desperate wanting more, deeper and deeper "cum for me Tara..." It almost sounds like a plea. Tara tightens her legs around his hips causing a tidal wave of pleasure to run through her. Tara whimpers as her body starts shaking clenching her inner walls tight and around his dick holding on tight as he painfully "Awww" spills in her again. Jax can't speak, can't form any coherent thoughts. His hips slowly stop jerking.

This has only happened to him once before, when he was a teenager, and only with Tara. Only Tara can do this to him.

Jax groans no longer able to hold himself up he melts into his wife's body clutching her, snuggling, and nuzzling in his favorite spot. Jax can feel their hearts beating simultaneously, two hearts beating as one.

Without any energy left in him, Jax can't move or speak they're gasping for air. Their minds are blank. Still buried deep inside Tara they drift off in complete exhaustion as Jax mumbles. "Jesus Christ."