Hi so my name is Nikki and i really hope you like this story this is my first fanfic so be nice but i can also take criticism so feel free to say anything.
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I still love you

Chapter 1: the beginning but the end

"hey Comrade" I said in seductive tone.

"Rose we need to talk" was his reply.

He led me to the couch in his office and sat me down while he stood and started to pace. I thought he was going to put a hole in the ground, so I spoke first.

"Comrade what's wrong, are you ok you don't look so good" I said in a worried voice.
He grabbed me by my wrist and looked me directly in the eyes and said words that I didn't want to hear.
"Roza" I knew something was wrong with the way he spoke my Russian nick-name
"Tasha Ozera has offered me a position and her Guardian" under those words was a meaning that both he and I knew. She wanted more that just Guardianship she wanted children. I've always know that he wanted children, when we went and visited his family in Baia and he held his niece with such gentleness and his face was full of emotions it was then I knew he wanted what he could not have.

"Rose"
"Roza" he was shaking me now with a concerned voice.
I wanted him to be happy.

"Dimitri I don't know what to say" my eyes were stinging and my throat was clamping up. I didn't want to loose him, not after I just found him, but his happiness was the only concern from me now.

"Dimitri" I spoke so quietly I didn't think he could hear me, but with his hearing of course he could.

"I want…..I want" What I was trying to get out wasn't coming but it managed out as a squeak. But he heard perfectly fine.

"Leave" was all I said and he did.

I cried uncontrollably for 3 hours in his office on the couch. I realized how stupid I was I should be heading home it was starting to lighten up from the sun.
I tried to keep my head down so no one would see my ratted hair and my red blotchy eyes. But as I was walking along there were two figures sitting on a bench cuddled together watching the sunrise I knew it was Lissa and her boyfriend Christian Ozera, Tasha's Nephew. I didn't want to bother them so I snuck past; every time I looked up to make sure they weren't looking I was stung by jealousy. I almost hit myself for being jealous over my best friend, my sister.

When I got home I laid down on the bed. I started to cry once more, I rolled over and landed on something hard.

"what the fuck" I moaned.

I got up and flicked on the light I went over to the bed and saw a small velvet box with a letter beside it.
I opened the letter and saw Dimitiri's impeccable writing.

To my beloved Roza,

I need to let you know that even though I'm leaving you that I will always love a treasure our moments together. I'm off to start a family as you have gathered, but I'm doing all of this for you I am letting you have a family as well….

That was it I couldn't read anymore I knew it was all bullshit he was trying to cover up that he had left me for his own selfish needs.

I cried again and again, I threw the letter and the box in the back of my closet with out opening it.

Knock.

Knock.

Knock.

It rapidly got faster and faster I heard some murmuring from out side so I got up and trudged over to the door.

"ok, ok, jezz don't get you panties in a knot" I all but screamed

I opened the door and a shocked look on Lissa and Mia's face reminded me why I hadn't opened that door for the past few weeks.

Lissa walk straight pass me and after Mia finished her gawking session she trudged passed to.

"what the hell happened in here" Lissa's voice was disgusted.

"Nothing" I murmured before heading to the bedroom and lying down.

"Oh no, no, Missy we're going to clean this up right now. Then you're going to explain to me why the fuck you weren't with me for Christians party last night. Or did you forget that, that was the party that we had been planning for 3 months?" now she was pissed her cheeks were all flushed and knew she wasn't finished.

"Rose, ROSE! Are you even listening to me" she was really pissed.

"Lissa I don't give a rats ass about fire boy, so just leave me the fuck alone ok. Leave" My voice laced with venom attacked Lissa and she visually flinched.

"But.. Rose, I'm sorry.." She said now with concern and sadness. She looked on the verge of tears.

"Mia, could you leave us please." I tried to act nice but Mia knew it was fake.

"Suurr…Sure thing. Lissa I'll be at mine if you wanna come by later and talk" She looked back at me obviously suggesting the fact they were going to talk about me.

As soon as the door closed and I heard footsteps pad away slowly. I burst into tears I cried and collapsed on the floor.

"oh my gosh, honey what's wrong, why are you so upset" she collapsed beside me and pulled me onto her lap so she could stroke my hair away from my tear streaked face. We sat like that for hours until she finally spoke.

"Hun, what's wrong you can talk to me you know" she said with her soothing voice that coaxes me into telling her everything.

"oh, What kind of a sick fuck does he think he is" was Lissa's response to my pouring my heart out about everything that happened over the past 2 weeks.

I started to laugh at Lissa's outrage. She almost never curses and today is the most I've ever heard her say I one week. We were both in fits of giggles at the end of it. Lissa pulled me up.

"Now get in the shower while I clean this mess up" she said while picking up some leftover Thai food from last week.

"Thanks Liss, For everything" I said as I rounded the corner to the shower, which might I add is the only thing that is clean because I haven't been in the bathroom for over 1 week and a half.

I stepped under the spray of hot water that instantly loosened up my muscles and after an hour of washing my hair, shaving and lathering up, my skin had a pink flush to it.
I hopped out of the shower towel dried my hair and padded over the master bedroom everything was shinny and clean and Lissa was sitting on my bed with a mischievous grin on her face I knew what she was up to and today I actually felt up to it. There were two robes place on the bed and before she could ask I spoke.

"Go jump in the water still hot so be carful"

"awww thanks rose, love you" she said with a loving tone.

After and hour of Lissa in the shower and me flicking through magazines and the TV various times Lissa came out and sat beside me on the couch and decided we needed to watch a movie so we can be totally relaxed so in the afternoon we can have some girly fun and in the night we can get up to no good. She picked out p.s. I love you and we both cried through it the whole time.

"Ok get up" Lissa squealed in excitement as she ran off the bedroom

"Ok, ok I'm coming" I yelled back as she rounded the corner.

I got up from my 'oh so' comfortable position on the couch and dragged my feet along the way to the bedroom Lissa was currently occupying. As soon as I reached the bedroom I knew what was behind the door so there should be a sign saying hazardous. I walked in and I was kind of surprised it was beautiful and neat on every surface was all sorts of products and girly things it was crazy. Before I could get a good look at anything Lissa dragged me to the bed and said.
"Lets get this party started" and with that music from out of nowhere started to play and we both cracked up laughing.

After we calmed down from our fits of laughter I ask the question I was dreading.
"Where do we start" I asked with a worried voice.

"Right here hun" she giggled.

She led me over to the vanity unit and asked me to pick a nail polish colour. I picked black of course and Liss just rolled her eyes at my choice, I pick it every time.
She on the other hand picks a new and better colour each time and todays colour is going to be silver.

"Ok lets make a deal, I get to make you up how ever I want" as she said this to me she had an evil glint in her eyes.

"And I get to make you up how ever I want" I finished her sentence nodding my head in agreement and thinking of what I could get her into that would look hot but out of her comfort zone 'colour wise'. Lissa snapped me out of my haze and dragged me over to the two seats directly opposite each other so we could paint each other's nails at the same time.

Half way through the paint session I could sense through the bond that she wanted to tell me something but was afraid of how I would react. So after our nails dried and I couldn't take it anymore I finally turned around and grabbed her arm.

"Ok Liss, you're my best friend so spill. I'm going to start ripping out my hair soon and by the emotions running through your head I'm sure you're not far off" I said with all seriousness in my voice.

She sighed "it's just that you know how it's Christians birthday on Monday, That's why we had the party on Friday. Well Tasha said that she was going to come and visit for a week or so" She said backing away scared of what I might say or do.
I just stood the mouth agape I didn't know what to do or say they only left 2 weeks ago. Then a question resolved in my mind.

"When?" I asked in a whisper

"tomorrow" she said back.

"Oh, so soon" I said my eyes were stinging again and I couldn't talk. Lissa pulled me into a bone-crushing hug and I let a few tears drop out.

I pulled away and spoke to her " I'm ok now lets go get ready for a night out. God only know how much I need this right now." I said hiccupping a little in the sentence. Lissa nodded and walked to the bathroom with me in tow. We reached the bathroom and she asked if she could go first, I nodded and told her to sit down at the chair. I felt like a hair dresser.

"Hey how do you want your hair, Straightened, curly, up?" I asked not quite sure because she always looks good in everything.

"Umm I think you should choose, I can't sorry" she said while tapping her freshly painted nail to her chin. She always apologizes for everything. I thought about it for a second and picked one. Curly and down I smiled to myself. I got out the curling iron and I started to section out her hair. After an hour of Liss and I talking and me doing her hair it was finally done. Next up was her make-up. I decided that I would make her look all-natural so nude colour's was what I was using. Liss was still in the robe and so was I so she decided to get started on me before we got dressed. My hair only took ten minutes to do so I knew that she had just left it down in my natural waves but styled them to look nice. She then got started on my make-up and she was also using natural colour's on me because we didn't know what dresses we were going to pick for each other so natural goes with everything. After we were both done it was an agreement to not go anywhere near a mirror until after we were done.

"I don't want to wear pink or long, Liss" I said while I saw her eyeing a pink full length dress.

"Fine, but I don't want to wear black." She said to me and we both agreed.
I walked into the closet and found a dress that was perfect for Lissa. It was an electric blue and there was a tight fabric around the bust, it was puffy below the bust and a halter-neck, In the middle of the bust was a sliver jewel pattern, which also followed up the halter-neck. I picked out some shoes which were strappy and really high and also some sparkly bangles and that's all she needed. (Picture on Profile)I placed all of her things on the bed while she was picking out me clothes.

"I'm done" I yelled through the house.

"me to" she screamed back.

I ran to the other room and saw what she had picked out for me, I really don't like wearing neutral colour's but I said I would give it ago. The dress was actually quite beautiful it was strapless the bodice was all nude coloured jewels which came down to my waist then there were four layers of a nude material that is sort of see through but not slutty, it came down to about mid thigh. There was a pair of nude and diamond heels next to it. There was no jewelry because I was already sparkly enough. (Picture on Profile)

"ok, I'm coming out" lissa yelled to me.

"no, wait I still haven't got my shoes on." I screamed back. Holy crap our voices are going to hurt tomorrow.

"Ohmygosh. Hurry up."

"ok done. On the count of three"

"One" I screamed.

"Two" she replyed.

"Three" we both shouted at the same time. We met up in the hall and I was speechless. Lissa really looked like the princess she was beautiful and her dress fit perfectly.

"Rose, you, you look amazing" she said with such proudness in her voice.

"speak for yourself you look like a princess" I replied and she blushed.

"time for photos" she brought her camera out and we went to the mirror we took like 5o photos oh god this is going to be great.

"Oh my gosh this dress is perfect. Thank you so much Liss." I said I was really excited about tonight.

"ok so where do you want to go to first?" I said and Lissa was thinking.

"Ummm how about the Platinum bar, the new one across court?"

"oh yeah sure that's great I've been waiting for that to open" I smiled I so can't wait.

"well lets call a limo and head over." Liss said excitement laced through her voice.

"wait a limo, Liss I can't afford that." I replied.

"oh don't worry it's my gift"

"oh no I can't"

"rose just be happy for one night and let loose you need to get out and if I have to pay for a couple limo ride then so be it, just do it for me. Please" she said while giving me her puppy dog eyes.

"Fine, call em." I said kind of actually excited about it.

Through the bond I could feel Lissa's emotions running high.

We arrived out the club and as soon as we walked through the doors the smell of people sweating and alcohol hit our noses. We saw people grinding together to the beat of the techno music. I was home. Lissa and I went up to the bar an order tow of there specials. When the gave it to us there was a pink concoction inside a martini glass with a lime wedge and an umbrella. The guy said it was on the house. We quickly drank up and placed the glasses down on the table and we got up to the dance floor and started to dance. Lissa and I were dancing with each other until I saw a man looking at me with beautiful green eyes and black styled messy hair. He was pretty hot and I needed someone like him tonight. I told Lissa to call Christian and tell him to come over to the bar so she could hang out with him while I scoped out the place for a hot guy. She didn't mind she already knew this would happen so Christian was already here.

I walked over to the man that was staring at me the whole time.

"Hey" was all he said he didn't have an accent but his voice was really sexy.

"Hey, My names Rose. You?" I replied with my signature seductive smile.

"Adrian. Do you want a drink" He smiled.

"Uhh, yeah sure" I replied.

"Something Hard, like a shot or something" He smiled at his innuendo.

"Yep Vodka" I needed something that was going to get me drunk and fast.

He went up to the bar and asked for 10 shots. Oh I already like him. I was still dancing until something made my blood run cold. There was Tasha and Dimitri in the middle of the dance floor grinding against each other and then Tasha turned around and placed her arms around his neck and kissed him. When Adrian came back to me he asked me "whoa who pissed you off" I grabbed the shots and drank them one after the other until all were demolished I grabbed Adrian's hand and dragged him onto the dance floor no that he obliged he was quite surprised actually. I placed my arms around his neck and moved so close that there wasn't any space between us anymore. I was grinding my hip to the beat and everyone's eyes were on us including Tasha and Dimitri's. Tasha was smiling and Dimitri had a scowl on his face. I turned around so my back was facing Adrians chest and ground my hips into him, He groaned in response and I did it again liking the response. As soon as the song was over Adrian led me over to the exit and asked me If I wanted to go.

"Only if there is going to be drinks, then sure, I'd love to" I replied and his eyes darkened with lust.

"sure is babe."

"hold on wait I have to call someone to let them know I'm leaving" I said concerned laced through my voice for lissa.

"that can wait don't worry about it." He said while walking towards his car with someone in it which looked like a shofar.

"no, It'll will only take a few seconds" I replied while getting my phone out.

"Hey, Liss. I just wanted to let you know that I'm going home with someone and I'll talk to you in the morning. Don't worry about me and have fun." I spoke into my phone to Lissa's voicemail.

"ok done" I yelled over to Adrian.

I walked over to him and he held open the back door for me to get in. He followed soon after. We sat close together and he placed an arm around my shoulders. I smiled up at him and he leaned down to kiss me. At first it was sloppy but then it got a little heated up and I pulled back and looked at him.

"How long until we get to your place?" I asked excited to arrive.

"We're here." He replied and I looked out of the window to a beautiful house that looked way to big for one person. I got worried that he lived with his parents and he must've seen the look on my face because he relieved me of my worries " don't worry I inherited this place from my parents after the died" his voice caught a little and the last words. So I pulled him out of the car and dragged him towards the house all the while making out like teenagers.
Once we reached the door Adrian fumbled with the keys to try and get them in the door after five attempts he finally got it open. When we walked inside he led me straight up the stairs and to the bedroom where things got a lot more heated. He kissed down my jaw line to my collar bone and turned me around so he could take my dress off. I took off my shoes and threw them some where across the room. When my dress was completely off I decided to get rid of his clothing. His shirt was removed and then his pants only left in his boxers and me in my panties.
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I woke up groggy and my stomach churning, I made a mad dash to find the bathroom and tripped over one of my shoes but finally made it to the bathroom just in time to throw up yesterdays lunch and dinner. I washed out my mouth and went to go a receive all my clothing last night. I finally finished up and went to the bathroom to check everything was in place. I emerged from the bathroom to find a tried Adrian propped up by the head board.

"Leaving so soon little dhampir" he said while rubbing his head.

"Yeah, sorry. I have to meet up with my best friend" I lied smoothly even though it was most likely what will be happening.

"Oh ok then I'll see you around then" he said while turning around to stuff his head in the pillows.

"Umm I'm going to leave my number on your dresser just call when you want. I had a great time last night, hope to see you soon" I was trying to be polite.

"Ok yeah sure" he replied obviously trying to get to sleep.

So what do you think hope it was ok if i get some good reviews then i'll post some more chapters feel free to give me some good ideas.
Nikki xx