Hey guys, this is my companion piece to Spy, Traitor, Death Eater. If you haven't read that, may I suggest that you do? This'll make loads more sense then. Um anyways I wrote this back before I finished STDE, but I hope it's good enough :)
Suspicion
Chapter one – Denial (Lily's POV)
When Peter first came to us with his suspicions, my first reaction was denial. Remus couldn't do that! Remus couldn't be a traitor! I nearly slapped Peter for even thinking that Remus could do that.
Just because he's a werewolf, just because no one could read his mind, just because he was on a secret mission to infiltrate the werewolves. Remus told me his mission and had asked me not to sell Sirius of it. He didn't want Sirius to worry when he left; to worry that Remus might never come back.
It worries me that James and Sirius were so quick to accept Peter's conclusions. So quick to suspect their old friend of nearly 10 years.
Sirius was so quick to accept that his husband was a "traitor". I couldn't believe it!
I won't.
And so I treat Remus just the same.
I couldn't betray my friend like that. It scares me that Sirius doesn't even stay with Remus for the Full Moon anymore. Remus now tears himself apart without him. There's only so much a healer-in-training, like myself, can do.
I think Remus and Sirius' marriage is falling apart. When they visit us for tea, though they still sit together, Sirius leans as far away from Remus as he can.
How can Sirius and James not see the hurt in Remus' eyes?
He must feel like there is no one.
James wanted me to keep myself and Harry away from Remus, but I said no. Remus is no threat to Harry, traitor or not.
What would Remus have to gain if he's not secret keeper? Is Peter wrong? Is he trying to lead us astray? No, no not Peter. But it can't be Remus. Who is doing this to us? Playing with our minds till we go mad?
When will this war end? When will the confusion and hurt and tears end?