Sometimes...I'm afraid I might kill someone again.
My past as Jack the Ripper...as a murderous child soldier...I was pretty much only born to take human lives. I killed so many people without a single bit of remorse. Killing always came easy to me, and I never really pondered on that strange yet disturbing fact, as I had suppressed my earlier memories. I had purposely done that to try and start a new life, but my past came back to haunt me when I faced off against my "father", Solidus Snake. He was the man who turned me into a killing machine...a weapon...a emotionless, quiet hateful person whose only use is to pick up a gun and shoot...
I was afraid I would lose myself...I thought I would go insane...
It was Solid Snake and Rose who helped me. Helped me truly save myself.
Until I met them both, especially Rose...all I could do was follow orders and kill people.
After the Manhattan Incident, as the media calls it, I decided to give up my killing ways for good. I wanted to start over, just me and Rose. I didn't want to be a weapon for the Patriots any longer. I was finally free from my bloody past...
...But, in truth, I was still far from escaping it.
Nearly every night after the incident, as I stared at Rose's beautiful sleeping face, I suddenly am overcome, if only for a single second, by a powerful desire...to strangle her to death. Whenever this happened, I ran into the bathroom, washed my face and stared at myself in the mirror until I calmed down, and then I went back to bed.
I figured that because my memories of my past had returned, then my desires to kill for survival had strengthened as well. I became afraid I might lose control one night and murder Rose in cold blood. Yet...I obviously didn't give in. I could had gone with suicide instead, but I had to stay alive for both Rose and our unborn child...
I am Raiden, and I only have two more foes I must send to the grave before it is all over...
Vamp and the Patriots.