The feeling was indescribable. He couldn't stop throwing his head back each time Lucas went down on him on their bed, sometimes their kitchen even. He loved it when Lucas moved his tongue around under his cock while he bobbed his head up and down. The tension between them would be so intense- they'd grip their bed sheets tightly and exchange moans and mewls.
Their bodies would be sweating and they'd be so close against each other that all they could focus on each other was their erratic breathing. The way they lewdly called each other's names just excited them even more. Claus savored each second of their pleasure time with his brother until the point of his climax.
And even after it was over and he'd spurt out the last string of his load, he loved cuddling up against his younger sibling and whispering nice things with him, and the soft kisses they'd share between each other. Listening to Lucas' sweet voice before he'd trail off to sleep always left little butterflies in Claus' chest.
This feeling that could only be felt between the brothers, a taboo relationship the twins maintained felt like a blissful eternity, but could only last for so long.
Now, alone on the bed they used to share, Claus would long for those times and curse himself for ever letting his beloved brother slip from him and fall down the steep cliff on Mt. Oriander that day- that day he'd been such a fool.
He'd hug his pillow tight at night- pretending it was him- and resist crying- because he knew he had to be strong and accept his fault. And one day, when he'll get a chance to face his missing brother, hold his shoulders and look into those baby blue eyes again, and kiss his soft lips, he won't cry, no he won't.
He'll have to be the strong big brother who won't show he's weak and be fearless about all the trials he would go through just to be able to see Lucas again. His brother, his sweet little brother, whom he had failed to protect, surely has been waiting for him as well.
But now, all he could do was harbor that feeling- the feeling he'd harbor during these times of isolation that left him guilt. And that feeling would haunt him everyday to make him remember all those things again.