A/N: I have gone through and made correction. I am hoping to continue this story and update on a more regular basis.

Song:

Hate How Much I Love You - Neyo and Rihanna.

Accidental Happiness

Chapter 1

The knock on my door startled me; it was two in the morning and very rare did I get a knock out of the blue. I pulled myself out of bed and walked through my apartment towards the door. As I looked through the spy hole I sighed in relief, quickly unlocking the door before swinging it open to reveal a tired looking Edward.

"Edward what are you doing?" he turned to face me and I could see the tears that stained his face. I grabbed his arm and pulled him into my apartment, wrapping my arms around him in comfort.

"I just wanted someone to talk too. I didn't wake you did I?" Yes, in fact you did. But I wasn't going to tell him that. Now more than ever he seemed to need a friend.

"No, I was just going to make a coffee, do you want one?" he shook his head as he plopped himself onto the sofa.

"Do you have anything stronger?" I chuckled softly.

"One of those nights hey? Yeah I still have one of those beers Emmett left the other day." I myself didn't drink beer but whenever we have a movie night, Emmett always brings his beer. Emmett was Edwards's brother and my best friend Alice was his sister; we have always been close, growing up together but Edward and I have always been the closest.

Ever since we were three we used to tease each other, if I remember right he had had a crush on me when we were eleven but I was too scared to tell him how I felt, how I still feel. But when Edward met Tanya in senior year everything changed. I would hardly see him and when I left for university he hardly stayed in touch.

When I returned to Seattle to become an English teacher, I bumped into Edward at the local high school after an interview. He seemed surprised to see me but I wasn't in the mood to speak with someone who hadn't spoken to me for over two years. When I found Alice, I had no choice but to speak to Edward, and when I found out about his engagement to Tanya, my heart broke.

Yet I stayed his friend, after all these years we grew close again; he was a history and music teacher at the high school I had gotten a job. He helped me settle in, gave me a tour and sat with me at lunch. It was a relief to have at least one person I knew and for that to be Edward made me feel so much better.

"Here! Now tell me what's up?" I said placing the bottle in his hand and sitting on the sofa next to him. He sighed before he took a long swig from the bottle, wrinkling his nose at the bitter taste.

"Tanya came home from the office with the right ass. I asked her why and she went ape shit at me, saying something like she had been doing a lot of thinking and she didn't want to be with me anymore. Then she started shouting about all her extra hours were because she was having an affair with her boss. I couldn't sit around anymore so I came here." I didn't know what to say. Tanya worked in a law firm; she was nothing special, only the boss's assistant and I could guess now how she was planning on getting a promotion.

"Oh, Edward I'm so sorry." I said without thinking I wrapped my arms around him. Sure I hug Edward all the time but I knew now was the wrong time. I was about to pull back when he encircled his arms around my waist, pulling me towards him.

I was practically on his lap when I realised what he was doing. As much as I wanted it, I didn't want it to happen like this; I wanted it to be because he loved me. I had to stop him before it ruined our friendship.

"Edward what are you doing?" I asked as I struggled against him but his hold only tightened on me, pulling me closer to him. I couldn't ignore his excitement; I could feel against my thigh but I knew I had too. I had to stop him before he regretted it.

"Bella, make me forget." He whispered before he placed his lips against my neck, kissing softly. I had never been intimate with a man, sure men have been interested in me and I have had a few boyfriends but with none of them did I feel the way I felt with Edward. So I made sure I wasn't intimate with anyone until I felt that way again. And having Edward here, willing, was too hard to resist.

"Edward, you don't want this! I have never..." he cut me off as he pressed his lips to mine, the smell of his sweet after shave filling my head as he pulled me close. I quickly pulled my head away to breathe.

"Edward please!" I pleaded but that was a lost cause when he lowered me down against the sofa, hovering over me, supporting his weight. His lips brushed against my neck, making their way down my collar bone and along my shoulder.

I suddenly decided to not fight him; he was too strong and let's face it I was more than willing. My arms wound around his neck pulling him closer to me. His hands roamed my body as my hands began running up and down his back, once hitting his jeans they made their way up his chest and continued their circle again.

A small moan escaped my lips as Edwards lips moved to my breast, teasing me. My legs were wrapped tightly around his waist as I continued to pull him closer, but he wasn't close enough. My shaky hands started to undo the buttons on his shirt as he lifted me into his arms and carried me to the bedroom where he laid me on the bed and resumed his caressing of my skin.

I pushed his shirt away from his shoulders as he pulled my thin vest over my head, his hands still caressing stomach. His lips meet mine again and in no time the remains of our clothes cluttered the floor. I had seen Edward top less many times, but I have never noticed how muscular and perfectly toned his chest was, having him this close made me wish he loved me as much as I loved him.

A few tears escaped my eyes as we became one; after all these years I have been saving myself for someone I loved like Edward, to have it taken away by him while he is looking for comfort made my heart sink. Sure I would never regret it, how could I regret having the most amazing time of my life with the guy I love, even if he didn't love me back in the same way.

I woke slightly tender in certain areas but overall I was happy, until I turned to look beside me. Yes, Edward was still there, fast asleep, but I couldn't help but feel bad. This has ruined our friendship; I said no but changed my mind after his persuasion. He didn't know that I was a virgin, why would he? But I knew he wouldn't forgive himself for taking that away.

I looked over at his sleeping form, he looked so peaceful as he laid there but I had to get out. I couldn't stay for him to wake up, to see the regret in his eyes. I quickly and quietly stumbled to my feet, pulling on my underwear, trackies and a hoodie and left my apartment. I didn't know where to go or what to do. I just kept walking until I came across the small star bucks at the end of my street.

I didn't know how I was going to deal with this mess, or how I was going to deal with Edward. I knew I couldn't go back while he was there; I couldn't look at him and know that he didn't love me, that I was a mistake, and that he felt bad. I was in my own world until my phone began to buzz. Of course it was Edward but I couldn't answer it, I pressed decline and continued to stare out the window.

After a couple of hours rejecting his calls and avoiding my apartment I eventually decided to make my way home. His car silver Volvo was no longer in front of my apartment building so with a sigh of relief I slowly sauntered up to my apartment, finding a note on the coffee table.

I'm so sorry, please forgive me.

We need to talk and I know you don't want to but we have too.

I'm so sorry!

-E

I growled in frustration, crunching the note into a ball and throwing it across the living room. Now I was alone, I crumbled to the floor, tears flowing freely as I thought about the awkward situation.

I had no one to talk too. Alice would feel sorry for me and would kick Edward's ass; she was the only one who knew about my virginity and that would only cause her more anger towards her brother. Jessica would just say 'well he is hot, why are you complaining.' I was completely alone in this.

A month has passed; I have been avoiding Edward ever since that night. Even at work I had turned to walk the other way as he approached; when he would catch up with me and grab my arm I would yell at him, telling him to leave me alone. I could see the pain in his eyes as I yelled at him, I could see that in his time of need, he needed a friend, and I could see how it hurt him that he had hurt that friend.

I had been avoiding the Cullen's too. We made it regular that we had a movie night every week if we can and I've avoided every one for the past month. Alice became worried but I told her I didn't want to go, I hated shutting her out but I couldn't tell her why I was avoiding her family.

It was Monday, I had been feeling a bit woozy over the weekend but nothing had come about it. I decided to go to work as usual, skipping breakfast to prevent insult to injury. Although I didn't see the point, I knew I was going to be fine anyway; it was very rare I got sick.

My first few lessons went fine; some students did voice their concern on my paleness today but I reassured them I was fine. Edward had once again tried to speak to me, running down the corridor to catch me; he grabbed my arm and spun me to face him. I could feel the tears prick my eyes as I looked at him but I kept them under control, the least I needed was to cry in front of my students. He seemed to notice my watery eyes as he let go of my arm, stepping back slightly to give me space.

"Bella we need to talk." His voice was quiet but I could hear the slight twinge of pain that shadowed his voice.

"I don't have to do anything." I said continuing to walk towards the cafeteria, Edward towing beside me.

"Bella, please." He held the cafeteria door open for me as I walked in; the overwhelming smell of the meals stung my nose, making my stomach turn. The feeling in my stomach was not pleasant and I knew I was going to be sick. Sneaking a glance at Edward I ran down the corridor towards the ladies toilets, making it just in time before I threw up.

"Bella?" I heard Edward call from the door, worry filling his voice. I ignored him, I was to busy concentrating on not being sick again, but I failed as I once again leaned over the toilet basin.

Once I was sure I wasn't going to be sick again, I went to the sink, splashing the nice cold water over my face before rinsing my mouth. I looked awful and in good old Edward style he told me so.

"Bella are you ok? You look terrible; maybe you should go home, or maybe the doctor's." I sighed and nodded, grabbing my stuff and leaving him standing outside the ladies, staring after me with a concerned look on his face.

I had spent the next few days in bed, ignoring Edward's phone calls and ignoring the door, I knew it would be him. I had not stopped being sick, hardly eating anything for the past week. I decided maybe it was time to consult a doctor however the news I received was not what I expected.

"When was your last period Miss Swan?" the female doctor asked as her cool hands prodded my stomach.

"Emm, month and a half ago." I heard her sigh and the look on her face was not a good one.

"I will do a test to be sure but I am pretty sure you are pregnant Miss Swan, congratulations." I couldn't believe my ears, Pregnant? I had only ever had sex once and that was with Edward.

My heart stopped. What was I going to do? How would he take it? Why do things like this only happen to me? I looked up at the doctor as a tear ran down my cheek. I was only twenty four, this couldn't be happening. I had just got everything settled. Why now? I knew I couldn't get rid of the baby, I couldn't even think about an abortion. But overall I was scared.

The doctor confirmed that I was indeed pregnant and reluctantly I turned to my best friend for help. Once I arrived home I rang Alice, demanding she came round as soon as she could and sure enough she arrived ten minutes later, a worried expression upon her face.

"Honey why all the tears?" she asked as she brought me into a tight hug; that was when my tears began to fall freely.

"Alice. I'm...I'm pregnant." Her gobsmacked face made me feel even worse; I would deny who the father was and keep it a secret. For one, I couldn't relish the thought of telling Edward and two, I couldn't do that to him, he loved his job too much, and this would ruin it for him.

"Oh Bella." She sighed as she wrapped me into a tighter hug, telling me it would be alright, even though I knew those words were a lie I had to hope she was right.

"So, Whose the father?" she asked once we were both sitting on the sofa with a mug of hot chocolate each. I had no idea what to say so I decided to bluff it.

"No one." I turned away from her eyes so she could not see that I was lying to her, but of course she didn't leave it there.

"Bella? Come on!" I sighed and looked at her, tears once again pricking my eyes.

"You don't know them." I wanted so much to tell someone. I wanted to tell her but I knew what she would say.

"Oh come on Bella, I wanna know?" she pried.

"Alice, don't!" I warned, she sighed and looked at me.

"Oh, Bella I just want to know whose ass I'm kicking." She grinned at the thought but that gave me reason to not tell her even more.

"Alice, he doesn't even know I'm pregnant and I want to keep it that way. I would rather keep out of his way like I have been doing, than face his anger." Again more tears ran down my cheeks at the thought of that night with Edward. For me it was what I have always dreamt about and for him it was a huge mistake.

"Why have you been avoiding them?" Because we both made a mistake and I can't face him without crying.

"Because it was a mistake and it ruined our friendship. It was a mistake I will never regret but a mistake just the same."

"Is this why you have been avoiding everyone? You know you could have spoken to us...me."

"I just wanted some alone time, I also didn't want to see Edward, we had a falling out." She sighed, shaking her head.

"See that boy. We hardly see him too, he seems pretty miserable since his break up with Tanya. I'm glad he's shot of the bitch, she was boring and controlling. Not to mention a cheat. Edward deserves much better and so do you, you need a man to help you with this baba on the way." She said tapping my stomach suggestively. I sighed at least I had someone to talk to about it.

"Well I would rather not speak about Edward at the moment." I said thankful when she changed the subject. It wasn't long before she left; leaving me to my thoughts after all I was going back to work tomorrow so I needed my sleep.

Alice POV

I arrived home not long after my visit with Bella. I was shocked to hear her news, Bella pregnant? Who would have seen that coming? Although Bella would be a great mother I was worried that she couldn't do it alone. Of course I would do all I can to help but what she needs more than anything, is the father.

Edward was visiting mom and dad when I walked through the door and I planned to have a chat with him. I don't know why he and Bella have fallen out but she needs her friends now more than ever.

"Hey mom, dad." I said as I flopped down on the armchair across from Edward.

"Hey, what's wrong between you and Bella?" I saw his face pale slightly and his eyes bulge but he seemed reluctant to speak. "Well?" I prompted.

"Nothing...Why? What did she say?" He was chewing on his bottom lip nervously (a habit he has picked up from Bella) which made me even more eager to find out why he seemed so tense at the mention of Bella.

"Nothing, just that you had a disagreement and that she doesn't want to speak to you. But now more than ever she needs her friends around her." His face appeared thoughtful before he spoke.

"Is she ok?" His voice laced with worry.

"Actually Edward, no she isn't. Some idiot stole her virginity and left her with a baby. She's pregnant." His face contorted from anger to shock, his eyes bulging out of his head. I knew he didn't know that she was a virgin, hell I was the only person who did, but the look on his face scared me.

"H...How far long is she?" Fear was now evident on his face as he looked away, what was his problem? It wasn't like he got her knocked up. Thunder struck my head.

"A month and a half." And there was the realisation, his face contorted in pain even though he tried to control his face. Bella was avoiding the baby's father, Edward and Bella weren't talking, Edward pained at the thought of Bella being pregnant.

"You idiotic dickhead! I should kick your ass, how could you? No wonder she won't speak to you. What were you thinking? Bella? She's your friend you dope!" Venom filled my voice as I shouted at him, I was more than pissed. My mother looking at Edward in shock and my father looked at me in confusion.

"I didn't mean too, I mean, it was an accident." An accident? I was getting angrier just by looking at him.

"How the fuck can this be an accident Edward? You can't accidently have sex with your best friend, did you know she was a virgin?" Edward's face paled even more, the pain in his eyes growing worse.

"No...I didn't ask...I just assumed. Oh I've fucked this up." He placed his head in his hands, shaking his head as he muttered to himself.

"What was it to you Edward?" His head shot up as he looked at me with a confused face.

"I...I don't know. All I can remember thinking is that I needed her; I was upset and I wasn't thinking. I...I have to speak to her." He stood from where he sat and made his way to the door but I caught him before he made it out of the room.

"Oh no you don't. You are the last person she wants to see, can't you see that you've hurt her enough." He looked at me with the same pained expression, I could see this was eating up at him and I was glad; it was what he deserved.

"I have to know if it's mine." he said before pushing past me and leaving the house. Minutes later his car engine reared to life and he drove off down the drive. My parents looked towards me questioningly however I didn't know what to tell them.

"I guess I found out who's Bella's baby-daddy." With that I turned and left to my room.

Bella POV

The thundering knocking on my door startled me out of my sleep; I must have fallen asleep on the couch. I sat up and rubbed my eyes, stumbling to the door and opening it without bothering to look through the spy hole. Edward stood there, face grave as he looked at me, his eyes were slightly watery and his hair the usual mess.

"I don't want to speak to you. It's late and I need some sleep." I said closing the door; I was frustrated when it wouldn't close, Edward's foot was placed between the frame and the door. I sighed and let go of the door, walking over towards the sofa where I sat, watching him as he closed the door and walked towards me.

"I heard that you were..." I cut him off.

"Pregnant, yeah lucky me." I said sarcastically. I didn't want to speak to him.

"Alice told me. How come this is the first I have heard of it, Bella I'm your friend." Friend? He thinks we're friends; he was no longer my friend when he decided to take our friendship to a new level.

"You're not my friend. And what does it matter that you didn't know. I don't tell you every part of my life like you don't me. I didn't want to tell you I was pregnant, hell I didn't want to tell Alice, but I needed someone to talk too. I just want to be left alone because that is what I'm best at." I grabbed the blanket off the back of the sofa and wrapping it around me. Edward sat on the sofa next to me, watching me carefully.

"Bella, about that night, I'm..." I cut him off again.

"Edward, just don't. I don't want to talk about it." I stood, wanting to avoid his closeness as I made my way towards the kitchen, flicking on the kettle.

"Unfortunately Bella we have too. Why didn't you tell me you were a virgin?" Oh I am so going to kill Alice.

"Actually I did. But you cut me off and said you wanted me to make you forget. I continued to protest and you didn't let up so I just gave up. Rather I lost it to a friend then an asshole."

"Bella, I'm sorry, I would never have..."

"Yes you would of Edward. You came here for a reason that night and you would have made it happen either way." I saw pain in his eyes as I struck a nerve.

"Is the...Is the baby mine?" I didn't want to tell him. I couldn't, not now. It wasn't like he would care anyway; he would just say fine and walk off, forgetting about us.

"And what would you do if I said it was? Run? Beg me to abort it? Enlighten me Edward?" I know I was being harsh but I needed to know.

"I would help you support it. Bella, you are my friend and I hate that I did this to you but I could never walk away from you when you need me most."

"I don't need anyone Edward, especially not you. Now can you leave because I need to get some sleep?"

"Bella I..."

"Edward please, just leave!" I heard him sigh as he walked out of the kitchen, listening to his footsteps on the hard wood floor. Once I heard the door open and shut I collapsed into the dining table chair, closing my eyes as tears ran down my cheek.

I loved Edward more than anything but I couldn't let him get to me. I couldn't let him know the baby is his because it would only make this situation worse. I wanted nothing more than to run into his arms and beg him to promise he loves me, that he didn't sleep with me to forget Tanya, that he did it because he loved me. But I knew it would never happen, I was just his friend and that was it.

I decided to go to bed, curling up and wrapping my quilt around me, longing to be held by Edward's strong arms as I drifted into a deep sleep.