I am

Prologue

I am

I realize the risks, the bad things I will face

I realize the pain it will cause to those around me

I know they won't understand

I understand that they will be afraid, but haven't people always been afraid of what they do not understand

Clio the Muse

I came out to my family this summer. It went a lot better than I expected. My dad pretends I never told him a word, but my younger sister is all for it. Something about always wanting an older sister. Here name is Iria Violet Winner, and she plays the viola.

My mother died when I was very young, but I'm sure she's in heaven, looking down at me, shaking her head disapprovingly. Maybe. Maybe not.

Quatre Raberba Winner(Cat)

"Quatre, the exchange student will be here next week. Try not to scare him away by hitting on him or something, okay"

I love my little sister but sometimes….

"Only if you promise not to either"

My reward for that little gem is my little sisters resonating laugh. It can warm even the most cold hearted soul. At the very least she got her friend heero to laugh. If you knew Heero you would understand just how much effort that took. She deserves a Nobel Piece Prize for that one.

We're getting an Exchange student from Spain, Trowa Barton. 3 years of Spanish you would think I would know what de la fuente means. You thought wrong. I must admit from the pictures I've seen, he is cute. More than cute. Cute isn't a strong enough word to describe him. Those forest green eyes, reddish brown hair, light tan….

"Quatre ...hello…anybody home" Iria says rapping my head with her knuckles.

There I go daydreaming again. I need to start being more careful, I almost started drooling that time.

"Yeah I'm here what do you want."

"Do you think you could help me with something...?"

Something is up. She won't look me in the eye.

"What"

"Ummm"

"Come on, out with it"

I swear if someone did anything to her

"Well there is this boy in my class and I was wondering if you could…"

I raise my hands in the universal signal for pause.

Is that all

"Say no more, matters such as this should be discussed in my office"

"You mean your room, right" Iria says grinning at me.

""Room, office. They both have a desk, a computer, and view.

"Where do you get this stuff?"

Iria chuckles leading the way to my room

Honesty... I don't know

"Who cares, now about this boy of yours?"

I love my little sister

I love her more than anything in this world.

She is one of the few people that accepted me for who I am

Originally I had 6 really close friends

Heero, Duo, Wufei, Cathy, Hilde and Relena.

Now there are only 4

Wufei refuses to be around someone who would engage is something as unjust as the act of being homosexual. He hates women so I imagine he'll figure himself out in a few years. Cathy's parents made her stop speaking to us. She even moved schools. She used to write, but that stopped. I told them long before I told my father

They accept me for who I am.

I would do anything in my power to help any one of them.

Sadly that requires me listening to Iria talk about how cute some guy's eyes are for 3 hours straight.

Prologue 2

(In Spain)

"This will be a chance for you to start over," Father says dismissively," a fresh start."

You are the one who wants to start over, so why don't you go to America.

"I know you don't want to, but this is for the best. What you were doing .it was unnatural. It's It's an act against god "

He doesn't need to worry. Todo para la familia. I would never do anything to disgrace my family. I love them all too much. I will bury it deep and never think about it ever again. A year in America will help me clear my head.

" Please son….

Senor Barton continues to lecture his son.

He uprooted the entire family from their home on Ferventura, one of the Canary Islands, to Valencia. His feeble attempt at running away. The move and Trowa's absence will be more than enough for the family to forge a new life.

"Papa, no se preocupe... No lo defraudare

I will not let you down.

"Bien. Now go get packed," Anthony Barton says slapping his son on the shoulder and giving his his best proud father smile

"Si papa," Trowa says turning to go to his room.

Translations I apologize if my spanish is wrong, It is either from my own memory or Babblefish

Senor-Mister,sir(something like that) Todo para la familia- anything for the family

No se preocupe- don't worry No lo defraudare- I won't let you down

Adios

Author Note:

Feel free to correct my spanish...

This is my first fic so please be nice. Disclaimer: I do not own Gundam Wing. I have nothing against homosexuals so do not flame me about it. My mind wandered and it wandered into this so... read at your own peril If anyone has any better suggestions for Trowas last name, tell me