Hey guy's My name is Bee, and This is my first story for gossip girls and I would love to get feedback from u guys on how I'm doing so thanks enjoy! I don't own Gossip girls, This chapter is after 2.08 so I hope u like.

I wanna Be

Chapter 1- Just because we can't say it doesn't mean its not true

Blair set there still as she seen him vanish through her door. She let the tears fall from her face. She wished it would have went differently. She just wanted to be with him. They didn't have to be the couple who held hands, or went to the movies. She wasn't asking for none of that she just wanted to be with him. She wanted to be his only girl, she didn't want him with anyone else and she didn't want anyone else. She wiped the tears from her cheeks. She knew what he said was true though. She was just as scared as he was about were their relationship would go without all the manipulation and scandals, but she knew it would be worth it. She didn't want to wait anymore. She knew she loved him and she was positive now that he loved her. She didn't care anymore what other people thought or what they said. She was happy with Chuck Bass and she didn't want anything else.

Chuck sighed as he plopped on his bed, he had run from the only girl he had ever loved. The one girl that made him happy and showed the real Chuck Bass. The truth was he was just scared to lose her, or hurt her anymore than he had. He loved Blair Waldorf, he was just to scared to say those three eight letter words. He heard a knock on his door and a crack as it opened.

"Go Away!" Chuck said frustrated, not even looking to see who it was.

"Are you sure you want me to leave?" The fragile brunette said with her tear stained face.

"Blair?" Chuck said with surprise. He looked at her face and seen the hurt. It made him his heart ache when he seen her like this. He never wanted her to hurt like this, he was trying to make it better for her. She just couldn't stop insisting. He knew she loved him and she wanted this and she was ready for it, but he was scared. He was scared he was going to hurt her more than he already and he didn't want that to happen.

"Blair, I'm sorry I didn't mean to yell at you. I didn't know it was you." Chuck said walking over to her. He looked into her brown doe eyes and smiled. He couldn't help it she was just the most beautiful woman he had ever laid eyes on. He saw a tear fall from her eye. He moved his hand to her cheek and wiped it away.

"What's wrong B, why are you crying?"

She couldn't say anything, she just looked at him. She finally just moved closer to him and let him envelope her. She sobbed into him as he kissed her on her head. She wanted him, she wanted it all.

"I cant do this anymore Chuck."

"I know and I'm sorry B I never meant to hurt you. I understand if you don't want to see me again."

"What? No you got the wrong idea. I know you think we should wait. I think your wrong, I get that your scared ok so am I. I don't care what people think or say anymore though I just want to be with you."

Chuck smiled down at her. He wiped away a few more tears and kissed her on her for head.

"B are you sure about this. People are going to talk, their going to be mean. I can do this if you can. I'm ready for it to. I will be true to you and you only I promise you can trust me. This is up to you B, but remember the game is over when we start this all. Its just me and you no game."

Blair smiled as she hugged him.

"Of course I'm sure Chuck Bass. I trust you more than you know!"

Chuck looked down at her and kissed her gently before pulling away god he loved this girl.

"Just because we cant say it doesn't mean its not true B." Chuck said smirking.

Blair smiled, she didn't care who heard her anymore. She was done being afraid.

"I love you Chuck Bass." Blair said smirking back at him.

He wanted to jump with excitement but he contained himself. She had just said she loved him. She is in love with him. He had been determined to get her to say it first, he was to scared she was going to bail if he was to say it. She told him she would never say those words to him, but she had just said those three eight letter words. He cupped her face into his hands and kissed her with more passion than he had ever kissed anyone. He knew this was his girl, he knew him and Blair was meant to be. He broke the kiss and looked in her brown eyes. He didn't see the hurt anymore he seen the love.

"I love you to Blair Waldorf."

Blair smiled as she kissed him deeply. All the fears she had ever had vanished. She now knew she would never be alone, she had him. She knew Chuck would always be there for her.