Disclaimer: don't own, never claimed to.
This was written in response to a relationship break up, and because I love Harry n Draco so much, I thought I'd do an angsty fic, after Draco leaves Harry, so please r+r!!! And enjoy…
Silly old me
There I was, silly old me, thinking I could live with the pain.
Thinking I could block it out, get over it.
Here I am, silly old me, a few months down the line, and I can't tell if I'm better or worse.
I just don't know anymore, who am I?
Who is the person you think you know?
Apart from the silly little boy who cries himself to sleep, every time he lays to close his eyes. I only sleep when I'm exhausted, only eating when it suits me, and I can stop crying long enough.
I've given up looking after myself properly, there's such little point now, it's not like you'll ever appreciate it. I don't want to attract anyone to me; I don't want to be noticed. I don't want to be seen, I just don't want to exist.
Silly old me, thinking I could live with the pain.
I put on a life; just so no one see's the dead. To make you think you haven't got to me, you can't hurt me anymore. But you do, you just do.
I'd do anything for it to go away now; it's time to gain addiction. That'll make it numb, I can be unfeeling and uncaring, tell you to fuck off. Get out of my life, stop making me cry.
Silly old me is angry again, furious, livid, on fucking fire. I've given all I could, but it was never going to be enough for you. I am not invincible, no matter how I pretend.
You saw the ugly broken machine behind the façade, that's why you went away. Silly old me thought better and only got destroyed.
Foolish child! What did I tell you about that? Trust no one, don't let them see you, don't let them in. You don't want it to be worse, do you?
And they'll laugh, leave and hate, it's no good trusting. Silly old me.
I'm so sorry if this is rubbish, 4 sum reason when I wrote it, it sounded much better. Either way lemme no, thanks 4 reading.