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The fear in my heart…

"What's wrong with you?"

"One moment you're all over me, then another you're ignoring me like I'm some sort of stranger."

"What exactly is wrong with you?" The sudden outburst of the oranged haired girl made her roommate and best friend jump from her sit from shock. Standing still from where she was. The blue haired girl slowly looked back over her shoulder to friend, who was still fuming with anger.

Still in shock from her friend's outburst the only word she could say was "Te..ea.."

Tea looking at her friend like she was about to eat her alive continued her outburst.

"Don't Tea me? Subaru that won't stop me from knowing what I want from you and you know it."

"What is wrong with you ever since the accident you've been acting strange? God and it's annoying me to no end because you know I worry."

"Just like today you were clinging to me like I'm a criminal under surveillance and when we enter the dorm you just left my side like I'm just someone who you happen to meet outside. "

Recovering from her shock she watched her friend lash out all her anger at her. Her mind then started drifting off to the accident that happened six months ago.

The two of them we're on a rescue mission on one of the unadministered planet after receiving a distress call from one of the research facilities.

It was under attack by a rogue mage named Lancelot. The mission was going smoothly until Lancelot decided that blowing the whole facility will make his work a lot easier. Lancelot then conjured a huge magic circle and started chanting a wide range destruction spell that will cause the whole facility to blow up and with it the personnel's that we're responsible to his younger brother's death.

Tea however tried to stop the spell from being completed but was late by a second to stop it. When the said spell fully activated tea was to close to escape and thus decided that she'll just cast a barrier to stop the spell from killing her. The spell however was more powerful than she thought thus the barrier that she casted was not strong enough to support her through the blast and ended up being blown with the facility. Subaru who was but a mile away trying to help the personnel escape was unable to rescue tea and could only stare and shout her friends name as the whole facility blow up in smoke.

Her mind was pulled back from reminiscing the past when Tea suddenly shouted her name.

SUBARU...you…you..BAKA.! After shouting that Subaru looked at tea in shock again only to be stared at by her enraged friend.

Tea then sighed trying to compose herself a bit for a second before looking at Subaru again. This time gaining a little bit of her composure back she looked straight into subaru's eyes.

"Subaru you…"letting the word settle in first to get her friend to look at her she then continued "You're blaming yourself again for what happened to me right. " Her friend then looked at her and was going to say something when she started talking again. "I know…. You know I know you better than that and because I know you. I know something is bothering you..We're friends Subaru even if I try to deny it I still see you as one of my close friend. It worries me to see you like this. I don't even blame you so why do you keep blaming yourself for what happened to me. It was an accident Subaru, an accident. So stop blaming yourself or think you we're weak just because you saw me got hurt and wasn't able to protect me. Okie."

Subaru was not able to talk back. She knew Tea was right but tea doesn't know the real reason she's been acting weird was not only about that. Subaru was guilty that she was not able to protect her friend but what made it worse was the girl that got hurt was not just a friend to her but the person who she held dear to her heart.

She realized it back at the hospital. As she saw Tea laying on the hospital bed. With all the life support machine connected to her that helped her to survive. As she looked at her she made a promise to herself that she'll do everything to never let that happen to Tea again.

Again Subaru was called back from reminiscing by Tea's voice. It wasn't like the first one this time Tea called her name with concern on her tone. It seemed that while she was drifting off to the past Tea was talking about something important and when Subaru hasn't answered she got worried. So she started calling her name.

She took a long breath then looking at her worried friend she sighed again. This time when Tea was about to ask her again she cut her of saying "Tea, I'm fine really, I'm just tired." Closing the transparent screen on her table she started to walk toward there bunked bed. Climbing a small latter on the side of the bed she then lay herself on her bed.

Tea could only look at her for awhile before she to walked toward her bed. She then shoot a tiny orange ball toward the light switch turning the light off. Before she drift off to sleep she once more called Subaru telling her that they'll finish their talk tomorrow.

Subaru only answered her with a groan and said "Umm"

WOW! I actually wrote one nyahaha. This is my first Fanfic I never thought I'll succeed in writing on being the person I am nyahaha. I do have a lot of idea for a plot though I'm not really good at writing. So please review if possible comment on my writing skill so that I'll be able to improve it. Please let me know as well if I got the spelling wrong. Thanks.