My first 1 shot. I'm not sure how this is going to come out so just bare with me. Reviews are mucho appreciated.
Complete and total adoration,
I loved you. I love you.
My
gift to you, my heart was yours.
I gave you everything I had. I gave you all my secrets. I gave you every ounce of love I could muster up.
In ten weeks you shaped it,
In one night you murdered it.
"I can't be with you when I keep thinking about her." Those words killed me.
Torn from my chest and laid
at your feet,
You stomped on it. You picked it up and threw it
into a blazing fire. You took it out and broke it into millions of
small pieces.
That first step that you took was the worst.
You turned from me. You left my
heart on the ground. You walked away from me. From us.
Since
then you've walked a thousand miles in solace and short remark,
I've tried to talk to you. Ive tried to just be your friend. You don't seem interested. Our conversations are just me talking.
And I still have these
memories,
I think about them all the time. I replay every
moment we spent together.
But will never see what we could have been.
We could have had a beautiful
family. We could have anything you ever dreamed of. We could live
happily ever after.
Remember when we talked about where we'd be
a year from now?
You, graduated. Me a senior. You
said you'd wait for me. Until I was 18 and we'd go to Canada and
get married.
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never
let it go?
3 squeezes mean, "I love you".
Our hands fit together perfectly. More perfect than yours would fit
with hers.
Remember, cause that's all you can do.
I hope you think about this every
night before you close your eyes, next to her.
We'll never make
another memory,
We'll never make another memory.
Do you realize that? Up til now,
that's all you'll remember about me. No more watching movies, or
laying in bed all day. No more hours on the phone.
I wish I
would have died in your arms the last time we were together,
So I
wouldn't have to wake without you today.
Waking up without you doesn't feel
right.
This time I thought things were real,
You said they
were,
What happened?
Was it just a lie so you could go to bed with me that night?
You were a priority,
Was
I an option?
You were always at the top of my list. Before any choice I made, I thought of what you'd say or think.
I let you see a side of me that I don't share with anyone.
I let you see me cry. I let you see my vulnerable side.
Promises are just words unless they are fulfilled.
I fulfilled every promise that I could. You, you didn't fulfill any of yours.
Knew from the beginning all I had to offer you was my heart,
I gave you my heart. I tore it from my chest and put it into your hands.
I'm just sorry that it wasn't enough.
You said it would be enough. You
said you'd take care of it. You lied.
So, we'll go our own
ways,
You'll be with her while I'm alone.
And hopefully you'll remember these things I've told you,
I never lied about my feelings for
you. I showed you with everything I had.
Hopefully you'll
understand that everything I said is in sincerity.
I meant every I Love You. I meant it
when I said I wanted to marry you. I wanted to have children with
you.
A broken heart is not what I wanted from this,
But I
guess I've learned from it.
Love is pain.
But aren't you
supposed to learn from your mistakes?
I learned to shut myself off from
everyone who tries to get close.
I don't consider this a
mistake,
You showed me love, and for that I am grateful.
I just wish the story didn't end
this way,
I wanted this to have a fairytale ending. One that
we'd walk off into the sunset at the end.
Cause I'm still in love with the person who helped me write it
I'll always be waiting for you to come back.
