Jane's POV

It's a normal Friday night Maura and I are at our booth in the Dirty Robber. In the background there was some stupid love song.

I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time

It had me thinking about our relationship. Is it a friendship or something more? Then Maura started to speak up, "You know Jane it's getting late. Do you need a ride?"

"No, I'll take a taxi home. See ya tomorrow."I said to her. She got up and walked to the door and looked back smiling at me.

Deep inside
It was a rush
What a rush

I wonder if we could ever be together, every time I see her my stomach turns. Does that make me gay or bi? Deep inside I want this, I need this. But, I know she and Tommy has something going on. I hate this.

'Cause the possibility
That you would ever feel the same way

About me
It's just too much
Just too much

Can she feel this way too? I mean for all I know it she's straight. Damn you Tommy, I fucking hate you. I took a long sip of my beer. Maura...I think I have a crush on you. This is way too much to think about tonight.

Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you

I feel like I'm running from something...maybe it's the truth? Everyday I think about you, Maura. This is stupid I can't fall in love with my best friend. Can I? No I can't, not now. Tommy, stupid Tommy.

You got me hypnotized
So mesmerized
And I've just got to know

I need to know, I want to know if she feels the same way...Maura. I love you. I order an another beer and took a long sip out that one. Love is stupid...but I love her.

Do you ever think
When you're all alone
All that we could be?

I only hope that you think about me like I think about you. Not Tommy or Ian but me. I looked at the window many people walked past the bar, couples walking. I wish that could one day be me and Maura. One day, I hope.

Where this thing could go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?
Do you catch a breath
When I look at you?
Are you holding back
Like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying, trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't going
Away
Going away

I think I'm going crazy, maybe it's the beer, maybe it's me. I looked around for a moment a few young people were drinking. I feel old I just need a relationship...hopefully with Maura. I finished up my beer, oh god I needed that.

Has it ever crossed your mind
When we're hanging,
Spending time, girl, are we just friends?
Is there more?
Is there more? (Is there more)
See it's a chance we've gotta take
'Cause I believe that we can make this
Into something that'll last
Last forever
Forever

Then it just hit me she probably realize we hang out like all the time. Maybe that would make her think about our relationship. Just maybe, just maybe. This must have some meaning to her when she thinks about.

Why do I keep running from the truth?
(Why do I keep running)
All I ever think about is you
(All I ever think about)
You got me hypnotized
(Hypnotized)
So mesmerized
(mesmerized)
And I've just got to know

Stop Rizzoli she is your friend, I feel like I'm in a trance. Am I hiding from the truth again? Maybe. My mind wanders off to how many times I felt this way to men. None. Great I think I'm might be gay. Dean was good, I guess...minus the moobs. Ew moobs. I wish I could figure this out, I'm a detective I should be good at this.

Do you ever think (ever think)
When your all alone (all alone)
All that we could be,
Where this thing could go (goooo)
Am i crazy or falling in love, (crazy)
Is this real or just another crush (another crush)

I hope this could be something more then an one time thing, if we ever get together. If that's the key word,if we could. If, it's always if,if,if,if I hate that word now. If,if,if,if,if,if. I'm so sick of it now. I feel so stupid. I should grow some balls that might change Maura's mind.

What if I was a guy, just maybe she like me then. I wish I was Tommy he is so lucky to have her. But she is too good for him. That son of a bitch got the one person I , now just figured out, now wanted.

Do you catch a breath,
When i look at you,
Are you holding back,
Like the way i do,
Cause' i'm tryin tryin to walk away,
But i know this crush aint' going
Away ya ya ya yaaa (this crush ain't)
Going away ya ya ya yaaa (goin' away)
Going away ya ya ya yaaa (when you're all alone
All that we could be,
Where this thing could go (going awayyyy)
Going away ya ya ya yaaa

Yay the song ended, I been here thinking for about 4 minutes now. I got up, payed and went outside. I called a taxi and gave the driver my address. Only if Maura know my crush on her.

TBC.

AN I don't own anything. Rizzoli and Isles and Tommy are to Tess Gerritsen and Janet Tamaro. The song: Crush belongs to David Archuleta.