Author's Notes: I don't own Card Captor Sakura. A birthday gift for myself. The song Insensitive belongs to Jann Arden. This story is also dedicated to Bloody Priestess who also loves the song. To all the readers, do enjoy. =]
Twenty five year old Tomoyo Daidouji was inside a coffee shop and was sitting near the window, her amethyst eyes looking at the pouring rain. She had taken her Mother's place in the Daidouji Toy Company, located in Japan, Tomoeda, because they have built another company in England. And so Sonomi Daidouji had taken care of the Daidouji Toy Company in England while she herself remained in Japan.
England. She smiled wryly to herself as she sips her coffee. It was still early and their work starts at past one in the afternoon. Actually, her Mother was giving her a choice-it's either she'll take care of the company in England or stay here in Japan. She chose Japan, of course because she doesn't want to collide with her former classmate slash reincarnation of Clow Reed slash her ex-boyfriend named Eriol Hiiragizawa. She doesn't want to take chances because she herself, even if five years have passed, couldn't forget her feelings for the Londoner after all.
She sighed and looked at the black liquid in her cup and saw her reflection in it. She still couldn't forget that seven years ago the man had captured her heart in ways that she didn't know. There are a lot of things that they had in common. One of it was music but she couldn't deny that she had a feeling that Eriol was still in love with Kaho.
And she was right, he didn't deny it, he was still in love with Kaho.
She stiffened when she heard the music that she had grown to love for so long. It was an old love song and she was in love with that song. Eriol knew that she never grew tired of singing that song, not in a million years.
/
Eriol and Tomoyo were in the rooftop, Tomoyo's arms were around his neck as she brushed her lips over his lips. He responded immediately, pulling her close to him and she took this opportunity to deepen the kiss. She was so sure that he's going to respond to her like he always did but he pulled away-from the kiss and from her body. She looked at him, dumfounded. "E-Eriol-kun daijobou?" Tomoyo asked, wondering why he pulled away. Did she mess up this time or…?
How do you cool your lips
After a summer's kiss?
"Y-Yeah, daijobou desu", Eriol replied. He turned away from her and cleared his throat. "Gomen. I was thinking about…something?"
How do you rid of sweat
After the body bliss?
Tomoyo smirked on that as she crossed her arms over her chest and lean at the wall. "By any chance you are not thinking of…dirty thoughts are you?"
How do you turn your eyes
From a romantic glare?
"Tomoyo!" Eriol exclaimed as his girlfriend laughed at him. "No, of course not, it's just that I'm thinking of…something". But the evil smile on his girlfriend's lips didn't waver.
"Oh? Can you not tell me?" she asked huskily as she strode towards him, her hands on his tie, toying with it. "Well?"
He captured both of her hands and smiled wryly at her as he dropped her hands to her side. "Gomen Tomoyo but I forgot that I need to do something important today. See you later", he said as he turned away. She was sure that he was acting strange lately and when he was near the door she called out his name but he didn't stop walking and he left her there wondering what was happening.
How do you block the sound of a voice
You'd known everywhere?
/
She refused to shed some tears after recalling that incident in the rooftop. Later she knew it, when she have went to her classroom for her one o'clock class, she had seen outside her window that Eriol was talking with Kaho Mizuki, their Math teacher in College, and she had seen him kissing her as Kaho's back was leaning on the tree, Eriol in front of her.
Tomoyo shook her head, grabbed her black umbrella, and stood up from her seat. It was difficult to confront him that day. She was observing him the way he acted towards Kaho. She loved him but she wanted to make sure if he loves her.
Before she went out of the shop she opened her IPod and wasn't surprised when the first song she looked at and was even held PAUSE was the song Insensitive. She remembered she was listening to this song a while ago and her eyes lit up knowing that she paused when the chrorus was about to start. Putting the earphones in her ears and placing her IPod in her jacket's pocket, she played the song and went out of the coffee shop and opened her umbrella.
The chorus started to play as she herself started to sing the song. Another flash back she remembered and this is when her Mother was giving a party after they have graduated. She would never forget that night either. It was the night of confrontation.
/
They were out in the gardens taking a walk and he had held her hand firmly. He stole a glance from her-she was very beautiful tonight wearing an off shoulder gown, light make-up she put on her face, and she had let her hair down as it was done in graceful curls. She was always beautiful. Always. Even though she had been his girlfriend for three years ever since he came back to Japan to study, he noticed that even though she was taken some men would still want to flirt with her.
Oh, I've really should've known
By the time you drove me home
"Eriol-kun?" Tomoyo asked and noticed that they have stopped walking. She tilts her head and added, "You've been staring at me for quite some time now".
By the vagueness in your eyes
Your casual goodbyes
"Oh, did it bother you?" he asked; as he tuck some lose tresses behind her ear. She blushed. He grinned. "Still the old Tomoyo, blushing whenever I'm near".
By the chill in your embrace
The expression on your face that told me
Maybe you might have some advice to give
On how to be insensitive
"Stop teasing me Eriol-kun", she said and sighed. She knew, she just knew that the mage was still in love with their teacher. She just wanted to know why Eriol's been two timing her. And for the past few weeks she had known the answer.
How do you numb your skin
After the warmest touch?
His kisses were not like they used to anymore. His embrace was cold. And it was not everyday that he'll drive her to her house. And it was all because of Kaho Mizuki-sensei.
How do you slow your blood
After the body rush?
She had seen him kissed her. Their embrace was somewhat intimate. And there was one time when Eriol didn't know that Tomoyo stayed in the library until it closes, his car passed by her and she saw that Kaho was seating in the front seat.
How do you free your soul
After you've found a friend?
She didn't even tell Sakura about this. She doesn't want Sakura to think of Eriol in a bad way. So she had been waiting this night to tell him that it was time for him to chose who he wants to be with-her or Kaho. "Eriol-kun, let's get this straight. You've been dating Kaho-sensei, right?" he stiffened on what she said and added, "Did you really think I wouldn't know?"
"Tomoyo, I-"
"You want to explain? I'm listening", she replied as she released her hand on his grip and crossed her arms. "Try to explain that time when I kissed you so passionately on the rooftop and you said you've got something to do. Try that". She was trying to keep her temper. Trying to see reason but she knew that after this it wouldn't be the same anymore. "Or should I explain it for you? That you don't love me anymore?"
"Tomoyo…"he wanted to hold her arm but she moved away, it's as if his touch was contagious. And the worst part is she was holding her tears.
"You are making a fool out of me! Why didn't you tell me you don't love me like you used to anymore?"
"I was doing my best to know that! Because ever since Kaho had arrived, we had been seeing each other at school and we had talked like we used to before!" Eriol replied, almost exclaiming the words out loud. He groaned, frustrated on the situation, as he ran his fingers through his hair. "It's not like I was not going to tell you, you know".
"I love you Eriol-kun! I did everything to be perfect in your eyes!" she said, tears running down her cheeks as she hastily wiped them away. "But you couldn't love me like I do because you are still in love with her". Looking away and trying hard to control her tears she added, "We're through". He looked at her like he couldn't believe what's she's saying. "I'm not the girl you wanted to spend your whole life with. It's simple as it's over". She was about to walk away when she added, "Don't worry too much. Your happiness is mine too".
How do you teach your heart
It's a crime to fall in love again?
/
Tomoyo had folded back her umbrella and entered the Daidouji Toy Company. The people greeted her as she passed by and she smiled back at them, and only nodded. Surely after that graduation party her Mother held she heard the news from Sakura that her ex-boyfriend had flown to England together with Nakuru Akizuki, Spinel Sun, and of course, Kaho Mizuki. She didn't admit it to her cousin but she had been crying all day and she didn't go out of her room that time.
Oh you probably won't remember me
It's probably ancient history
The elevator that she had been waiting opened and didn't notice that a guy had also went inside of the elevator she had been using. She pushed the button for the fifteenth floor as she was standing in the right. The guy noticed that she pushed the button of the floor that he was heading also. Since it was only the two of them, she didn't realize that she had sung the song out loud.
I'm one of the chosen few
Who went ahead and fell for you
The guy looked at her in amazement as she had sung the song out loud. But to him he would always notice that voice anywhere. He hid a smile to himself knowing that after five years, it was still that song that she had fallen in love with.
I'm out of vogue
I'm out of touch
I fell too fast
I feel too much
The door of the elevator opened as Tomoyo stepped out and the man followed her, knowing that she didn't even noticed his presence. He called her name but it was no use because she had her earphones on.
I thought that you might have
Some advice to give on how to be insensitive
By now she must be listening to the ending. Since he doesn't know how to catch her attention, he grabbed her arm lightly as she slowly turned around and he smiled at her.
She was dumbfounded when the man smiled. She could feel that her heart was beating so wildly that she had forgotten the song had already ended. She placed her other hand in her jacket and pressed the STOP button and took her earphones off. She realized she'll notice his face everywhere but she wanted to make sure that it was him when the man finally spoke. "Hisashiburi desu, Daidouji Tomoyo-san". She smiled wryly hearing his voice again, seeing that smile again. It was nostalgic. It was like time rewind itself five years ago.
"Hisashiburi desu…Hiiragizawa Eriol-kun".
To be continued.
Author's Notes: A happy twenty first birthday to myself. =]